My daughter just turned 3 two weeks ago and she's just started singing the songs to all her favorite shows. It's so cute too! And funny how it just seemed to start happening out of the blue. What really amazes me, though, is how quickly she's picked up on all the words to the songs.

She's growing so fast and she just amazes me every single day!

I've been so unbelievably tired lately. Doesn't matter how much I sleep... I'm just always tired. Also having a lot of dizzy spells. I have no idea what's up. Just had blood tests done last month and everything was okay. Going to see the doc again on Monday... thinking I might have to have my medication increased (hypothyroidism).

On the bright side, my daughter and I are doing really well with the homeschooling. We're a bit behind at the moment, but she's loving it anyway. She got upset today when we ran out of stuff to do. Her birthday was on the 29th so we have been doing a lot of projects and games centered on a birthday theme... and this week we're learning about the stars. So it's been a lot of fun.

Plus I'm revamping my author website, Lionsong's Den. It's been needing it badly... and I'm working on getting my third (and soon after that my fourth) book published, so I'm excited about that.

It's funny to see my last blog entry when I thought I might be pregnant back in January 2007. As it turned out I wasn't pg... I actually have Hashimoto's Disease, which is an autoimmune disease that causes your immune system to attack your thyroid. A lot of symptoms you get from that are very similar to the symptoms you get during pregnancy, which is why I thought I was pregnant.

I'm glad I've been diagnosed, though. With all the complications you can have during pregnancy when this disease is left untreated, we feel so blessed that our daughter is as healthy as she is.

We're still trying to conceive and having no luck, but I've recently started charting my BBT and found out that I've been ovulating a lot earlier than I thought I was. So all this time we've actually been missing my ovulation... no wonder I'm not pregnant yet. We must have gotten lucky a couple of times at least though because I had a miscarriage back in February and there were a couple of other months where I could have sworn I was pregnant. I was late with my periods and had really bad cramping that felt like a miscarriage.

I'm feeling more confident, though, now that I'm charting. I think we may have missed our opportunity for this month, but I know better for next month. Wish us luck!

My doctor's appointment is set for Friday... so I'll hopefully know for sure whether or not I'm pregnant then.

Tomorrow I'm definitely making that doctor appointment. I'm beginning to think I'm pregnant again. The feelings of movement in my belly are getting stronger and there is a definite bulge there now making it very uncomfortable for me to sleep on my belly. So one of two things is possible... I have a massive tumor that likes to wiggle a lot or I'm pregnant.

My boobs are getting huge, especially this last week and I've got fluid leaking from them. And even though I'm still bleeding every month there's no cramps or anything that indicates it's a period. I just read an article that explained how bleeding monthly can still happen during pregnancy. Apparently you still go through the cycle with the hormones and everything, but there's no ovulation... so occasionally there may still be bleeding... so it's not technically a period... just seems like it. They haven't been normal either... besides the fact that I don't get the normal PMS symptoms I've always gotten (probably because I've been having most of those symptoms on a daily basis for the last few months), the bleeding doesn't last nearly as long and there are a lot of clots that I don't usually get. So that's something I'm definitely going to tell the doctor about.

Oh and another thing I've been getting the last couple of days is the pain in my lower sides that you get when the ligaments start stretching because of your uterus moving up into your abs. I feel it mostly if I twist the wrong way or I'm not sitting with my back straight.

So with these new developments I'm back to thinking I'm definitely pregnant, so I want to get booked into antenatal visits as soon as possible.

My husband and I bought our daughter her first bed too this week. It's all set up in her room and she loves it. She hasn't slept in it yet, though. She has a tendency to want to stand up and be silly on it, so I don't really trust her alone on it yet. She fell off of it this morning because she was trying to climb off of it head first and I couldn't catch her in time. So mainly I've been laying in bed with her at night to read her, her bedtime story, then putting her in her crib... and then we have our morning snuggles on her bed. I'm also teaching her how to climb on and off of it properly so she won't get hurt. As soon as I see her doing it on her own I'll probably move her into her bed at night.

I still haven't been to the doctor yet, but I still plan on going. I'm thinking less and less that I'm pregnant... It's probably just hormonal stuff. I'm still going to treat myself as if I'm pregnant (i.e. watching what I eat and drink and such) because if I'm not, I plan to be soon... hopefully real soon.

My daughter cut a new tooth today so she's got a total of eight teeth. They're coming in, in a weird order, though. Oh well, as long as they all come in and they are healthy that's all that matters. It will be nice when the teething is done.

This has been a really crazy two months. The holidays were great, but everything has been so hectic. Now I've been trying to get things in order to start working on some of the goals I've set for myself this year. As a writer I tend to set myself a lot of goals.

The craziest thing has been trying to figure out whether or not I'm actually pregnant. I've taken two home pregnancy tests and both were negative. I've gotten two periods, but the first was very painful and heave, and two days early, which is unheard of for me... then the second one was a day late, but I'm not sure I can call it a period because it was nothing more than a bit of spotting. It was semi heave for a few hours and then it stopped, which is also unheard of for me.

I've got all the classic symptoms of pregnancy, but only occasional nausea. No real morning sickness, but after what I went through with my first daughter, I really don't want that again, so I'm not complaining. I also tend to sleep on my belly and I've been feeling a bulge down there the size of a grapefruit and I just started feeling fluttering in the last 5 days or so.

I'm completely convinced I'm pregnant, but I've been afraid of seeing my doctor because I just have this feeling he'll tell me there's no way I'm pregnant and send me home. I've been under way too much stress trying to resolve this to have to hear that without even having a blood test done, but then I'll never know if I don't go, right?

I'm always greatful to be a mother and proud of my daughter, but every once in a while it really hits me how lucky I truly am. Today was one of those days. She just turned 15 months old today and she amazes me with something new every day. Today she has really let her beautiful personality shine. She's so loving and affectionate. She's got a wonderful sense of humor and she loves to make people smile. How can I not feel priviledged and honored to have such a wonderful little person as a part of my life.

I really feel sorry for all of those parents out there who overlook the wonderful qualities that their children have and miss out on the greatest joy and blessings of parenthood.

Merry Christmas everyone, and have a wonderful New Year!!!

I always imagined that when I got married I'd have a great relationship with my mother-in-law. I'm a very easy person to get along with and I've never had any problems with my boyfriend's moms... they always adored me. I mean don't get me wrong... I love my mother-in-law and for the most part we do get along, but living with her is just driving me crazy.

She is probably the most paranoid, greedy and selfish person I know. She always thinks people are out to get her, she behaves as though the world owes her something and she takes from people without any thought as to how it may be affecting them. I've tried talking to her about things, but she just get's all huffy "it's always my fault", "I never do anything right" then she gets all hysterical and throws temper tantrums for the next few days.

I get enough temper tantrums from my daughter... I don't need them from a grown woman who should know better by her age. So I just don't say anything anymore, but I'll tell ya... it's eating away at me. At least my husband is on my side, but we're kinda stuck with her at the moment. I just keep praying that the day comes soon that he and I can have a place of our own.