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Forgive my meandering thoughts but I needed to log my thoughts somewhere
Its probably boring, so no need to read on
But this is how I work through things in my mind!!!!
1) Reminder, I wasn't born a push over !
My brothers say they were more scared of me than our parents!!!!
So what's happened
2) I don't argue back with x
My reason I just want an easy life
My best mate told me at the weekend, i am kidding myself as this is not an EASY LIFE
But I could change it
3) I need to start controlling when x sees Daniel, let Daniel have his say heard, not just agree to the times x dictates when he emails, make a point of changing times even by 15 to 30 minutes just so Daniel and I are in charge
I will no longer argue over his lies through a solicitor
If his allegations are ridiculous, pay no heed to them
4) Why am I so fixated by wanting one time friends to finally believe me so I can move on?
If they had ever been my real friends they would be here with me now
So why do I waste my energy on wanting their approval finally
5) When I start to feel sad, I need to stop!!!!!!
Write down my blessings, write down my problems then take a match to the list of problems and enjoy reading the blessings
6) My First Born?????
The hardest choice
Don't know what to do???
Can't let him go but can't let him hurt me again
STALEMATE ????
6) Take note of previous 6 points
Try to keep to at least one of the above
When it looks this good on paper, then I should be putting it into practice !!!!!!!
I hope and pray that one day I will be doing all this and more
This is my goal for 2008 |
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Re: Just thinking
Hello sis, I am sooo glad to see you are still on here, plodding along, you have no idea!!!!!!! This might sound selfish, but where else was i gonna get my gossip from???? Not my darling husband thats for sure :D But honestly I do love to read your blog and your ADVICE because it is actually very helpful to me, believe it or not to hear that someone else is going through the same things you are, not that I am in any way comparing my situation to yours, but you do know what your brother is like sometimes ;) just like the fact that you are still worrying about what other people are thinking, those who used to call themselves your friends as I do that too, go around worrying about people that dont even and should not matter to me anymore! But I think that is just human nature to think that, as we all long to be accepted and loved sometimes at ANY cost! But just wanted to say its good to have you back and congrats on being nr one!!!!!!!!!!
Hope all is ok with you all, give our love to everyone xxxx
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