So as my Mum blogged for me, I had the second and hopefully final treatment of laser surgery on my damaged retina to the right eye last Friday.

I was unbelieably scared, all I could think of was the amount of pain from the first time, remembering how I had cried for hours, even to the point of crying myself to sleep up until 3am that morning I have never experienced pain like it and I hope never to ever again !!!!

Anyway, on Friday, the boys left for school and I drove to my parents, my dad then took me to the hospital, my appointment was for 10am, we were there by 9.40am, I was quickly seen by the nurses for the pre appointment eye check, I was so delighted at the progress, even the nurse was excited for me. After the major surgery on my left eye, where the surgeon thought I may never regain my sight, how could have predicted this????? A month after that surgery, I could see only the top huge letter of the eye chart only, I have seen some progress each visit, but this time, I was overjoyed to be able to read from the 3rd row from the bottom, with my left eye, with my right eye I could see the 2nd row from the bottom, with both eyes working together I can see some of the letters on the very bottom row!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't care what anyone else believes. I know this is a God answered prayer miracle for me.

We were sent to another waiting room, which was rather aptly named, as by the time I saw the opthalmologist for my 10am appointment, it was past 11am !!!!! I'd had a whole extra hour to get myself mentally screwed up in fear LOL

The opthalmologist was thorough checked my eyes again to see where she had to perform the laser, explained the procedure then filled out the permission papers, before administering the drops to my eye, to numb the surface.

She asked if I had any questions........Yes I did !!!!!

I had a theory, maybe it stemmed from pure vanity that I didn't want the reason for my eye problems to be always referred to as common to "short sighted middle aged" people, So I asked her if there was any chance that with my marriage abuse trauma where I was vomiting 6/7 times a day for almost 18 months, could that have brought on my detached and torn retinas. She went on to explain the scientific knowledge on the retina stretching with short sighted people, getting weakened, peeling like wallpaper off the back of the eye, causing tears, then said detached retinas could also be brought on my

Trauma - Of the blunt kind variety, Or a violent force impact of some  kind

Pressure - Of the kind that comes with Deep Sea Diving/Scuba Diving/Parachuting etc

She then said that she believed violent vomiting over a period of time that I mentioned, would certainly in her mind stimulate that same level of pressure, basically she said, I can't say yes that is what caused your problems, but neither could she say it was not possible. In my mind, it makes complete sense that it was the long sickness that caused my eye problems, it also fits in with the fact that during my recovery time when I was "blind" for a while, that was when I completely healed, internally and spiritually. See what I mean, it makes complete sense. !!!

The surgery was nothing like before, in fact I only had 21 laser shots this time, bearing in mind that last time, it was literally hundreds of laser shots, you can see why it was so much better.

Coming out of the hospital, I started shivering, it go so bad that my teeth were chattering, Dad even wrapped his fleece over me in the car LOL

I spent the remainder of the day at my parents, by then the drops which were given me blurred vision had disappeared and  I was seeing clearly again, so collected the boys from school, I had a weird evening, as I was shaking, shivering, nursing a terrible headache, sore eye and being sick, personally I think I had got myself so freaked out with the thought of the surgery that some kind of mild shock had set in.

Saturday, I had aching teeth and an aching jaw all day !!!!!! I must have been biting my teeth so hard during treatment !!!!!!!

Today, I feel much better, the eye is a little aching but not a major problem, still have the dull headache, But to be honest all I can think is that I really think its all over !!!!!!!

I just have an eye appointment in June, where I am hoping they will give me the all clear and discharge me

xxx