About half an hour to go for us here in the UK
DD and her BF have gone out somewhere to see the New Year in on their own (aaahhhhhh)
I bought the CSI board game today and me and the boys have been playing it, we have been crying with laughter as it requires art skills, touch skills, acting skills, sound skills etc
You should have seen my interpretation of the noise of Thunder, ROFL  the closest they got to guessing was   "A Dog Growling !!!!"
Anyway we're getting ready for the beginning of a great Year
Wishing everyone here a Great Year too
Roll on 2008 !!!
xxx

My daughter is sick !!!!
Its nothing serious
She has this flu bug with a stomach upset that is going around all over the place here in the UK
So, bless her last night she was heaving all night in the bathroom......YUK!!!!!
And today, she has been my little girl,
In between her napping when I have had a lovely day on the computer
She keeps asking if she can lie down, head on my lap so I can tickle her face !!!!!!!!!!
I always used to do that when she was little and ill and now here I am doing it again and loving every second of it!!!!
Course I would rather she was healthy, but its just a cold right, so I can play Mummy to her without feeling guilty that she is not well

Today, another change of plan was that Daniel was due to go to his dads this evening until tomorrow evening, but we have had a message that his dad is ill so unable to have him. Poor Daniel was gutted and took it personally. My thomas has amazed me though, he told me not to worry he would make me happy and they have been happily outside playing football, getting covered in mud but who cares, they are laughing and they are outside and they are burning energy so that makes me really happy too!!!!!

One more day and thats the end of 2007, its weird, how an hour takes so long yet a year flies past
Wishing everyone here a very Happy and Prosperous New Year for 2008
xxx

Having a maudlin day with tears again
I am so mad at myself !!!
Thank goodness my daughter was here to make me see sense again !!!!

Lots of things whirling in my head
1) I was really hoping to start the new year free from you know who !!!!! But NO I'm still legally tied to him
2) I have to start the new Year by once again proving I am not a liar over the allegations he made before xmas about me arranging times with him but not passing on messages to Daniel so Daniel gets hurt when he fails to turn up!!!!!!!
3) People are again telling me how they feel sorry for him that I didn't allow boys to see him over xmas ?????????
4) I have had a good christmas but now reality bites in paying for it
5) I can't believe I was taken in for so long by such a control freak and liar, what does that say about my judge of character!!!!!!! Its completely shot !!!!!
6) I watch my daughter with her BF and realise I was never loved for being me!!! With my mental scars I will never know that kind of relationship as I won't ever let anyone get close to me again

Also, I was in hospital today seeing all the new born babies and there was a mother who just gave to a beautiful boy weighing 9lb 10 same as my first born Christopher!!!!! I used to have a wonderful son who loved me as much as I loved him. How did I get here.
I sent him a Christmas present, no response
I text him from Daniels phone as he has changed his number, told him I wouldn't pinch the number but would feel honoured if he would text me his number, no response
He spoke to Thomas on Christmas Eve, my Mum was here and said she wanted to speak to Chris to wish him a Happy Christmas, he said he was driving and put the phone down!!!!!!!!!!
I love my son but I also hate my son??????? And that thought is torturing me

I know none of this makes sense
I have had a great Christmas and plan on having a Great New Year too
But I am sick of reality sucking !!!!!!

Its my sons birthday today
Great excitement
I got him a radio control Ford F350, its awesome and he is thrilled, going to be taking it with DD BF later
We had a late night we were all in our own beds playing on the DS with the bluetooth link, so funny, we stayed up until half midnight so we saw son's birthday in, of course that is the only way to celebrate a birthday in my DD eyes LOL
After the boys went to bed she also decorated the lounge with balloons, banners and streamers for him too bless her
She does love birthdays. !!!!!!
Think we're going to the cinema this afternoon, thomas' choice of film as a birthday treat, then tonight we shall probably have a take out and just chill and mess around.
I'm being very lazy today, so far I'm still in my PJ's with no thoughts of doing anything yet other than enjoying my sons day with him
Those days are the best kind of days !!!!!!!
I can't believe it was 14 years ago when I had my son, he has always been my magic child that can always make someone smile, he always picks up on others moods and he is always there with a hug, he is incredibly sweet natured although recently started developing the usual teenage backchat LOL
But generally he is one amazing young man
Have a good day everyone
I'm going to
xxx
thought I would add a picture for you

We have had an awesome christmas
All I hear the boys say is that its the best Christmas ever !!!
My brother says we broke a family tradition of always telling the boys to be quiet as their dad was asleep !!!! Or they were yelled at for taking things out of the boxes, or simply too noisy and excited.
In fact they were amazing
Both have sat through the whole Christmas with giant grins on their faces and playing their games on their console,
My parents came to us after lunch Christmas day and we had a lovely time, eating and relaxing, then on Boxing Day we went to their house for the day
We did pop into town yesterday morning as the boys wanted to spend the money that their dad gave them, was amazed as the shops were actually busier than they were before christmas LOL
Today its my turn to go into town and spend my shopping vouchers
DD and her BF had the house to themselves yesterday and I came home to a real treat as BF had cooked my gammon joint in a honey and cider sauce.............oh man it was delicious
His Mum taught him how to really cook !!!!!
Thomas went with my brother yesterday afternoon to the local Footie team match, they go most weeks and its their "thing" together, they were a bit disappointed at their teams effort though.
Daniel now seems to be the one coming down with this awful cold bless him, he is very bunged up but still bright and chirpy
Its been a fantastic Christmas not really doing anything at all
This morning we didn't even wake until 10am how relaxed are we !!!!!!!!
All the best everyone hope you are having an equally fun time
xxx

Just logged in quickly to wish everyone a Merry Christmas
We have had a fun morning here opening all our presents, I got the boys a Nintendo DS each so haven't heard a thing from them since LOL

DD and her BF have had us laughing non stop as they opened each others gifts, I wasn't allowed to see all of them .......
Now the turkey aroma is filling the house, mmmmmmmmm

DD's BF bless him is actually poorly with an awful cough and head cold so he is on constant Lemsips and we all were having virtual hugs instead of real hugs as we don't want his germs ROFL

Have spoken to my brother and sister in law in Iceland and also had a phone call from my long term bestest friend in Perth WA, so all is good

Have yourselves all a wonderful time
xxx

Its here
We're all broke
We have bought all the food, all the presents
Now all there is left to do is ........WAIT !!!!

I am such a misery I don't feel Christmassy at all LOL
But I can't wait to see everyones faces when they open their presents tomorrow
I just love it

My day tomorrow is going to be like this :
Wake up
Open Up !!!!!!!!
Its DD her BF and my two boys so should be mad and chaotic. I love it!!!!!!!
DD and her  BF are staying around all morning then joining BF family for lunch, so its just me and the boys for christmas dinner which will be lovely, we're really excited about our cosy christmas
After lunch and its all cleared away, my parents and brother are coming over to join us, they will be bringing all their presents and we will have another present exchange session, they will then stay with us for the remainder of the day, DD and her BF will be popping back over to exchange gifts with the grandparents too

We are going to spend the day eating, relaxing and  ENJOYING

I want to wish everyone on Minti a fabulous Christmas, Its been an emotional ride this year with plenty of ups and far too many downs, so bring on 2008 !!!!!!!
Hope you all have a lovely day whatever you are doing
All our worries and problems will still be their the next day but lets all put them in the freezer for tomorrow, they will return to bite us, but we ALL deserve a day of fun and relaxation and pleasure

HAVE A WONDERFUL FESTIVE DAY EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!!!

To all my dear friends, thankyou for carrying me this far, I really wouldn't be here without you

xxxxxx

 

Very weird day.......
Woke up to a message in my lounge from nat congratulating me on being number 1. I thought I would keep quiet and hope no one else noticed LOL
Then had the Christmas attack I was expecting. A long winded solicitor letter from -x lawyer. Just what I needed.....NOT
Firstly my divorce has not yet gone through as they need more financial details from me, easy enough, just incredibly irritating as I wanted to start the year free from him !!!!!! Now everything is shut until Jan 2nd so its going to be weeks away still!!!!!!

Then came the ambush I have been expecting. Last year I was told on Christmas Eve that he had moved back into the area, seeing I was still extremely terrified of him I needed that news like a hole in the head and spent all Christmas Eve 2006 in tears!!!!!!
Now, apparently I have been accused of orchestrating things to make him look in  a bad light.
1) He says he text me 2 hours previously the Friday night he was going to be late, I chose to not tell Daniel so it looked like he was letting Daniel down!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I would NEVER do that to my son !!!!!! Fortunately I had also arranged to take my Mum to catch the bank that day right after Daniel had left in the end we didn't go as x was so late. Why would I arrange something if I already knew he wasn't coming ????????
2) He also says that last weekend when Daniel was coming he told me the week before by email that is was going to be on the Sunday, again i chose to hide it from Daniel so Daniel would be cross his dad let him down!!!!!!!!!
I would NEVER do that to my son !!!!!! Why then did I write x an email the night before explaining Daniel was excited about seeing him the next morning
3) Apparently I him instrumentally stopping Thomas from seeing his dad.
Thomas is 14 next week, how could i stop him seeing his dad if he wants to
4) He says I have bought both boys a phone and he doesn't know Thomas number, he only has Daniel's number
Simple, Daniel gave his dad his number because he wanted his dad to have it. Thomas doesn't want to give his dad the number, he even deleted it from Daniel phone in case his dad saw it!!!!!
5) x also says that I make things hard for him to contact Thomas, as I won't give him house address or home telephone!!!!
Duh !!! he has the home number, my mobile number and all email addresses, I won't give him address so I can feel safe here!!!!!
6) x is demanding I push Thomas to see him and also I give him Thomas' phone number
I will NOT make Thomas see him, neither will I stop thomas from seeing him should he choose one day to see him and as for giving him Thomas' number. Its not my number to give out !!!!!!! instead I told thomas his dad would like the number and he said he wants a solicitor to make his dad leave him alone!!!

I am absolutely fuming but I have to say it hasn't upset me at all, I will not enter into a war of words with him over lies, fortunately I keep every email I send to him or receive so I will just print them out and give them to lawyer to prove who the liar is!!!!!!!
Haven't decided if he is Evil, Sick or just living in a world where he is always right!!!!
He is not going to spoil our Christmas this year though, thats for sure.
I've been fighting his lies for years, yes I am shocked though at the lengths he seems willing to go to so he can continue to blacken my name or harrass me.

Hmmmmm wonder if its worth telling my solicitor that yesterday he followed me along a long strip of road, almost touching my bumper !!!!! I slowed to 30 mph thinking he would overtake but no he chose to follow!!!! I wish he had stopped, he would have had a surprise as Daniel was in the front seat ducked down low trying to not be seen !!!!!!!!!

He is just a total loser and I am sick to death of him and his lies
xxx

Been messing around with my daughter and two boys tonight trying to get some nice pics and thought I would share the results with you
My beautiful daughter
Amy and Thomas
Amy and Daniel
My Three beauties
Me and My girl !
And again!!

Thought I would leave a picture here of my tree this Christmas, I know its not the traditional red or golds but I am very happy with it.
Best of all, its a real tree so it smells so lovely
Hope you all have a fab Christmas this year
xxxx

I think I'm back!!!!!!
What a stupid episode to get worked up over!!!!
Yesterday was the worst, to make things worse I was suffering with my health too, had the shakes, bad cold, painful chest and banging headache!!!! Its still there today but tough!!!!!
I am going to do all I can to have an awesome Christmas with my family
I have felt sorry for myself for too long
Instead its time I once again counted my blessings and I have had loads of them believe me!!!!!!!

My daughter and her BF have a new house, but its not ready until January 2nd so they have to stay with me till after Christmas !!!!!!!! I am stoked about that, i am loving them being here, Her BF is doing loads of little jobs around the house and my daughter is just being ......... my daughter and I love it!!!!

Sunday my Mums church who have been awesome from the beginning to me, passed on a Christmas Hamper that they had put together for me and the boys for Christmas!!!!!!!! How incredible is that !!!!

I have managed to get everyone what I wanted to get them for Christmas, the tree is up and looking gorgeous

I have my school christmas dinner today and I get on really well with everyone there so that should she be great fun

Daniel has another counselling session tonight so should be set for christmas

I am getting christmas cards from people who I thought were not my friends anymore, ok so some of them I ripped up and binned!!! LOL But some of them had genuine reasons for not being in touch lately and are pleased I am doing well and not having anything to do with him

May I wish you all a very Happy Christmas and New Year, i am determined that is what we are going to do.

Sorry for being so down again lately, I know it happens a lot but I will try really hard to stay positive again now

After all, I am actually very blessed!!!!!!

Love to everyone
xxx

So, recap is that in the last email I had there was no mention to my worries.......

Background is that Daniel returned to me 2 weekends ago to tell me that his dad was working the Friday night but he wanted to stay the Sunday night instead and go from Saturday morning to being dropped at school Monday and me collecting him after school.

My response to the last email from    -x was this that I sent on Friday evening....

Daniel has asked that you collect him tomorrow from
my parents at 9.30am, please do not be late as I
already mentioned in my earlier email, if you are late
I will be bringing him home and arranging another time
so he is not disappointed. He is bringing his school
things and school opens at 8.50am, the school already
has his medication for lunchtime, you will need to
make sure he takes his morning one before school.

Daniel is happy to come over on Christmas Eve, Thomas
is still preferring a break, as is still the case for
his birthday and January.
Daniel will decide for himself regarding the 28th
December and Daniel will also decide dates in January

this morning we drove over to my parents early and by 9.20am Daniel was stood in the drive looking out for his dad...........no show. At 9.35am Daniel remembering my threat asked if he could call his dad to see how long he was going to be.
I gave him my phone and told him to ring him in private not in front of myself, his brother and his grandparents, I stayed in shouting distance from him. I heard Daniel asking where he was, saying he was upset and also saying he had to go and putting the phone down. I then heard his sobs, I ran to him and he told me his dad wasn't coming!!!!!! It was Sunday he was picking Daniel up!!!!
A few seconds later I get a text from -x saying

Please could you read the email i did put Sunday not Sat

I got onto my parents computer and found an email send at midnight last night

Just to confirm as per my e mail I will collect Daniel at 09.30 Sunday 16th Dec and I can confirm I will drop him off at  School for 08.50

So now I am apologising and upset with my son for not checking my email early this morning, however I did text this right back to him....

U should have sent text as soon as u realised Daniel was expecting u today. The email you sent today came too late for us to check this morning. Daniel is very upset.

Text came back saying
Sat was written on the email you responded to last week and the message I sent to Daniel via bebo last week

I was so mad at this point and to be honest more concerned with my despondent and weepy son that I chose to ignore that text. I don't even know what he means is he admitting it is his mistake or has be mistakenly put Sat instead of Sun on the text......?????????? Either way I find no mention anywhere to him defining which day he was coming for Daniel, all I knew was that he wasn't getting Daniel Friday night!!!!!!!!!!

I then spent the day doing a salvage operation on my little boy, my brother came up trumps by taking Thomas in town so I took Daniel out for lunch just to the two of us and we had a lovely time. DD and her BF were fantastic with him too, although to be totally honest we are all frustrated that Daniel wants to give him another chance and keeps saying how he loves him and please don't stop me seeing him. I wouldn't do that but I did tell Daniel he can see his dad as often as he wants to but I just wish his dad would treasure his time with him like I do.

Tonight I get this text message:
Can u confirm Daniel still wishes 2 be collected at 09.30 2morrow Sunday please

I didn't trust myself to answer anything other than
Yes he does

Am I being harsh and unfair to -x in thinking this is just another petty text. Was he hoping Daniel would have changed his mind??? And guess what ...........  I know its Sunday tomorrow!!!!!!!!

I am so done in, fed up and totally fed up with all of this

Sorry  guys I know all I seem to do is moan at the moment, I'm trying so hard not to break but I honestly feel breaking point has come.

This was the response I just had about my email ????

I believe Daniel is still hoping to stay with me over on Sunday night (16Th Dec)
 
I'm able to collect him at 09.00 or if that's to early at 10.00 from your parents, He I believe is staying over Sunday night and I will take him to school on Monday morning.
 
I'm working over Christmas but would like to see both Boys if they wish to see me on Christmas Eve, I would also like to see Thomas & Daniel on the 28Th Thomas's birthday.
 
I'm of for a few weeks in Jan 08 so could you please afford me some extra time with the both if they both wish this
 
Des

Any ideas what I do now??????
Don't think he is listening to me !!!!!!

As far as I am concerned he can see boys as often as they want to see him, seems he is talking to me about January first. Thomas says no way, Daniel is ok about going for extra time.

Thomas doesn't want to see him on his birthday ????

Both boys seem ok about seeing him Christmas Eve, thomas wants his present LOL but I couldn't stand it if he goes mucked up again, he is doing so well nowadays

Daniel on the other hand has had a terrible day at school and came home all upset, I gotta go school tomorrow he is now being threatened with suspension.
I don't know what to do anymore?????
My daughter reckons she is taking Daniel school tomorrow and sorting some of the kids out !!!!!

All quiet here
Not heard a single thing since sending the email???
Hmmmmm not sure if that makes me more nervous or more relaxed !!!!
Very uneasy feeling but my daughter won't allow me to worry about it, she is adamant he isn't worth a minute of my thinking time LOL
We did check out his Bebo page and he has one son's age wrong and daughter's birthday wrong he has it down that she will be 20 in October, Idiot!!!!! How can a genuine parent not know the age of one child or the birthday of another ???
Busy few days here as my daughter and her BF are staying with us a couple of days, its great for us we are loving having them here but they are anxious to get in their new place as soon as......
In the meantime I may not be about as much as I'm loving having my daughter around and also having to fight for computer time LOL
Picked my parents up from Heathrow yesterday after their long weekend in Iceland with my brother, sister in law, nephew and niece, they had a fantastic time and soon it will be my turn to go over with the boys and my other brother (February) I can't wait. It'll be so great YAY!!!!!!
xxxx

OMG
I've done it now
I wrote x an email, now I'm absolutely bricking it !!!!!
Anyone about to invite me to hide in their lounge, I would REALLY appreciate it
Watch this space cos he is going to be furious!!!!!!
This is what I sent:

Daniel has told me about the plans for next weekend,
Daniel wants to stay and is looking forward to it, of
course he can do that and stay until the Monday.
However Daniel is not a messenger and in future ALL
changes to contact times must be emailed to me before
talking them through with Daniel. Daniel, at home is
happy and confident that I will allow him to stay and
see you anytime he requests it, but I will not allow
him to be put in the middle of running errands.
Last weekend was a fiasco, When you were late for
Daniel he had been standing in the rain for 10 minutes
looking for your car !!!! When you finally text to say
you were going to be late he was so disappointed and
angry he lay in the dog bed and refused to get out
with the belief that he was nothing more than a dog
anyway.
I won't watch this ever again so in the future, if you
do not arrive at the time arranged with ME! I will
take Daniel out somewhere and tell you another time to
pick him up later in the evening
Also whenever you get caught up in your Ambulance
duty, Daniel should always remain your priority!!! I
would appreciate being asked if you are going to be
late returning him, especially on a school night when
he always comes back hyper and confused, last Sunday
it took several hours before Daniel was calm enough to
go to sleep, he also says he hated that you read my
text out to everyone there and put some reference to
me sending a solicitor letter about it. that was cruel
and heartless using Daniel to try and make yourself
look better to your friends.
No matter what Daniel is saying to you, he is
returning to me very upset that everytime he goes to
you for a contact visit, St John Ambulance is still
your number 1 priority not himself.

All that is important is Daniel and it SHOULD be to
you too !

Haven't blogged for a few days, been way too crazy here !!!!!
That old roller coaster is driving me totally bonkers
The bad stuff.......
Last weekend daniel was due home at 9pm as I gave permission for him to go to footie with his dad, who was covering on Ambulance duty, at 9.45 I still hadn't heard anything so sent a text asking where my son was !!!!! the answer?????5 mins away!!!! no apology nothing, so Daniel comes in all stressed and hyped up begging me not to report his dad to the solicitor???????? apparently his dad read my text out to the 2 Ambulance crew and my poor son and said words to the effect of Here we go, there's another solicitor letter I'll be getting!!!!!!! ARGH How dare he!!!!!! I'm not the one writing solicitor letter dictating parenting terms !!!!!!!!    BUT I AM NOW I told my solicitor to reply to the other letter saying, I would not be asking for permission to chat to the sons about anything seeing as he has one rule for me and another for himself. Also would he stop having contact visits then leaving my son with babysitters. X is so clever its cruel, Daniel came home to say he had a lovely weekend and was even allowed to pick who babysat whilst his dad went out on VOLUNTARY ambulance duty???????
Poor Daniel was still all over the place for the first few days after, his counsellor came to see him on Tuesday evening and apparently has a meeting with the school to discuss bringing in social services so I don't know what will happen there????
Daniel also tells me that next weekend his contact is going to be differnet, he won't be going until Saturday morning and is staying until Monday morning when his dad will drop him at school, amazing he can sort this out through his son not through me and yet still make me look like the bad guy!!!!!! Daniel wants to do that so I am okay with it, although may be interesting for the school to see first hand how daniel is when he returns from a contact visit.

The Good Bits
Well obviously  a highlight for me has to be last night going to Winnie's and meeting Emmie also. It was so exciting, my boys were great and I was so proud of them. Daniel was brilliant too he put on his best behaviour and is so much calmer this weekend, on the way home they were so sweet telling me how they enjoyed the evening as it was nice to see their mum laughing with her friends!!!!! Bless
Another great thing was that my solicitor tells me she has filed for the absolute on my behalf, it will be so fantastic to get this divorce finished
I also got a cheque for my portion of the house settlement, I'm going to be able to pay off my debts !!!!!!! Its not a lot, we're talking about a cheque of £5,000 after a 23 year marriage but I couldn't have been more excited if it had several noughts on the end. It was never about the money, if I had wanted the money I would have stayed in the marriage, but this money does make me free to wipe the slate clean and start fresh, and thats worth a lot more than money to me. I did spoil the boys a little. I felt they have been so fantastic to me over the last almost 2 years I wanted to show them my appreciation so I got them a mobile phone each. I know I''m guessing you think I am crazy doing that right before Christmas but unless you saw first hand what my boys have seen, heard, witnessed etc you can't imagine how much I felt I needed to say thankyou with getting them something special
Today I went to visit my friend on the south coast of UK, she has two boys roughly the same age as my two, she also had a similar marriage break up to me and we made friends through our shared experiences. She did us a lovely lunch and then we went ice skating. It wasn't a traditional ice rink but a small area out in the open on her sons school playground. It was great fun and the boys all loved it, We then went to her parents house as I have actually known her parents for longer than I have known her, in fact longer than I have known my own boys LOL
I have stayed up late tonight as I wanted to see in midnight and quickly write a message to  my brother
Yes today 9th December is his birthday
Monday is his and my lovely sister in law's (sillapilla) wedding anniversary.
I know they read my blogs
so...........
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMON. LOVE YOU LOTS
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY SIMON AND SYLV. LOVE YOU BOTH
PS Simon come and Join Minti..........You know you want to
xxxx

So I have had my little lapse once again into the world of self pity
I hate that place why do I keep going back there LOL
I've done a lot of thinking, a lot of stressing and a lot of worrying
Once again I am back to the same conclusion that I am worrying he will control me forever and again I can see he can only do that if I let him!!!

Sent a LONG email to my solicitor and detailed last weeks events, also told her what I thought of his comments LOL I asked her to clarify if any reasonable person thinks it right that I have to ask the person who thinks nothing of having no contact with his sons for a month, if its okay to discuss holidays with the boys ROFL
How about this for irony, my youngest text me yesterday from his dads phone asking if he could stay longer to go to a football match with his dad, I told him to ring me as I only giver permission if I can talk to Daniel first to make sure he is happy, he was, so I said it was fine. HOWEVER, I wrote to the solicitor, is that double standards or what????? I have to ask him before discussing things with the boys, but he can discuss Daniel staying longer without going to me first ????? Yep I think I win that round LOL
I told her that as for encouraging Thomas, he is nearly 14 years old and tells everyone he has no dad anymore, am I supposed to carry him out to his dads car ?????
Told the solicitor that the something else on that Daniel couldn't go the other weekend was his sisters birthday, that X sent a birthday card 5 weeks early for and both boys told their sister to bin the card as he tells everyone (in their hearing) that he no longer has a daughter???

From now on, if he can't pick Daniel up on time, I will text him and say I have something to do, Daniel is with me as you are late come back in 2 hours !!!!!! I will not watch my son get sadder and sadder as he waits for when his dad rolls up to get him.

On a good note, Thomas and I are having a lovely time, he had a friend over to stay on Friday night and I let them camp out in the front room, don't think they slept much LOL, then yesterday evening it was just the two of us so we watched a great film and had some snacks as a party !!!!! Today we are going down to see my daughter and her BF, my daughter is then coming back with us to stay the night as she has a dr appointment first thing in the morning,

So, I am feeling once again more positive and looking forward to my day
The only blot on the horizon is that yes I am worrying what my little boy will be like tonight, but at least his sister will also be here and she always makes him smile
xxx