The lady was really lovely, a side room wasn't available so she took me into the room with three cubicles and said no one was to disturb us as it was delicate and confidential.
She read through the report again but I was amazed at the details she remembered from my last visit but wasn't written down. For instance she said "It says here that you are expecting your Ex to visit tomorrow to collect some things." Then she looked up and said "Oh Yes, I remember weren't you trying to get him not to bring a Minister?"
I told her that he brought the Minister anyway but the Minister later fell and broke a bone in his back She laughed and said "Well it sounds like Divine Intervention to Me! He shouldn't have been there when you asked him not to come!!" Even my dad had a giggle at that!!!!!!!!

She was very worried about the level of fear I have for my Ex, as in barely leaving home and considered moving me out of the area totally, but its complicated as  D the ADHD son really needs stability with his schooling and I also have two jobs here and can't afford to lose them but she has promised to give me as much distance as she has available between me and Ex.

I have had to fill out lots of Homeless forms and have had to ask Solicitor for financial statement of what is coming to me  to prove that I can't self provide, but she has assured me that even if my Ex has a change of heart and gives me a bigger percentage !!!!!!! They will definitely help me now as I won't be getting a penny regarding house sale until divorce is final

We told her that I could stay with the boys at my parents for a couple of weeks but no more as my family from Iceland are over then and all staying with my parents, but she has assured us that won't be a problem.

So I just have to continue playing the waiting game for now. But at least I can see that light at the end now

thankyou so much for everyones love, support and friendship, I have truly never had friends like I have on here
mwah to all my friends
xxxxxx

Just using my Mums "dial up" Grrrrr

But wanted to let everyone know that I have had the meeting it went really well, the lady was lovely, very sympathetic and helpful.

They are going to do what they can, I have to fill in a homeless form and get it back to her asap and some confirmation from my solicitor of my financial state, they are going to try find me something hopefully in time, if not I will be moving to my Mums for a couple of weeks first. But they are trying to get me somewhere by 1st July

Thanks for all your good wishes.

I'm knackered!!! No sleep last night !!!!!

 

Tomorrow I have to go to the council, cap in hand, begging for charity!!!!
Who would have thought it would come to this????
Not me for a start!!!
I've always paid my own way and been proud of what I have
What a long way to fall
Now tomorrow I have to beg and beg that they will take pity on me and help me to find a home for myself and the boys
Think this is going to be one of those nights when you just know you aren't going to sleep

Even though I knew I was leaving this house and it would be soon
Its just hit me that in two weeks unless something drastic happens I am going to be homeless!!!!!!!
The council waiting list is 2 years
I have no money
I have no option but to sell because if the sale gets put back at all, the mortgage company are going to re possess immediately and I will have absolutely nothing.
I am trying so hard to not be bitter, but my Ex has a 2 bedroom flat which his  friend is renting to him, he has "explained that I have taken everything from him" to the church so they are helping out with furniture etc to house his flat, (he seems to have forgotten that a couple of months ago he and the Pastor came around and I said he could take whatever he wanted and to help himself) he only has to pay the lowest amount by law to his boys I won't take anything from him for me, my parents had to buy some groceries for me and the boys this week, he is always being invited out to meals with people from the church!
I am sat here wondering where me and the  boys will be living in 2 weeks and noone believes me!!!!!
Hmmmmmmm
I have decided to today that I will never again be friends with anyone who knows my Ex.
Found out he rang my cousin recently and cried and sobbed down the phone who he loves me and misses me, he knows he hurt me but God has forgiven him so why can't I
My cousin said she was uncomfortable speaking to him and she would be telling me about it.
His answer was that if she told me she had spoken to me I would cut her out of my life like my other "friends" and sent her a nasty text message???????
What??????
She is an ex directory number and he told her he got her number by going back over old phone bills to find out who I may be talking to??
Then when she still didn't back down, hinted I would be led to believe that it was her that rang him
I don't get this anymore
How can he walk down the street and have people pat him on the back and say what  a great chap he is
when all along he is doing things like this
And me....
I have been too scared to go near my town since December. Only once did I attempt a visit with my daughter, two young sons, my Mum and my brother. I lasted 30 minutes and when I got home my son had a call from his dad saying I  had been spotted out and about in town.
I hate this place and I hate most of the people that live here too!!!!!
I just am so grateful that my parents, 3 of my children and  1 or 2 special friends believe me
As for the rest I will never trust them again
(If anyone reads this I am sorry for being me me me again)

My 9 year old completed his Mini Marathon, there was 400 runners and he came a very proud 231st
My parents told me that when he was coming over the finishing line they give you a ticket to say what position you are and he was shouting "Look I'm 231!!!" With a big smile on his face. I'm so proud of him for being so sunny natured not letting his competitive side enable him to be disappointed, I've heard about it all day and to hear him talk you would think he actually won it.
I drove to a street of houses that are built on a hill that looks over the school playing fields, so I watched from there, I couldn't make anyone out but I felt a part of it still.
My Ex was there but he was covering first aid right at the highest point of the race where only the runners were!!!! After the race he returned to base and the boys briefly saw him, my parents waited near looking out for him but he never left the base ambulance, the boys saw him for less than 60 seconds, but they were fine and happy.
My parents also went around looking for my ex friend, only saw her husband who they were polite to and he chatted back but Mum said it was awkward as he was obviously expecting my parents to blank him and my parents are not like that at all.
So nothing major to report.
I still feel I did the right thing, my son  knows I was supporting him and he knows I was watching from a distance not too far away, in fact my 13 year old ran up to check on me!!!!!
As for my Ex I kind of feel he let the boys down, he made out he was going to be there so he could see them, and instead covered medical side of the race out of sight of them and all they got was a few minutes
I am so proud of my parents I swear they would take on just about anyone to take care of me!!!
xx

Why does it hurt when so when you injure one of the smallest parts of your body!!!
I was trying to vaccum the front room and so moved out the sofa, when I moved it back I misjudged it totally and dropped my wood/leather sofa on my big toe!!!!!!!
Yuk blood everywhere, thought I was going to pass out, had to lie on the floor with my leg in the air crying, good job no one was passing!!!!!
Now had to strap it up and take pain killers, pathetic eh over a toe!!!!!!
Mind you looks like the whole undernail is bleeding so don't know what I did.
oh well teach me to go barefoot

My youngest is running in the Area Schools Annual Mini Marathon on Saturday, it is a cross county even of about 2 1/2 miles, it is lovely for the children and they look forward to it.
I feel I am letting him down though this year, as I just cannot go
For a start he has heard from his dad that he is going to be there to watch him, but also there will be a lot of people there that I used to consider a friend including my ex best friend who along with her family will probably be there with my Ex anyway.
I don't go into town IN CASE I was to bump into anyone so i know that I can't go to an event where I know they will be there. I have thought about it and I just know I cannot do it.
My parents are going to go with him in my place and D knows that I am supporting him from afar, but I just feel I am letting him down.
I have no more rights than anyone else to be there so I'm pleased his dad is going to actually support him, of course it will also be in his official role as First Aid Volunteer, he has done it every year and always looks forward to it so in my angry sulky moments I ponder on his motives. But at the end of the day the winner is my 9 year old who thinks his dad is showing an interest.
Oh the joys of being a single parent..........
xx

Went to my Domestic Violence group today, was actually feeling pretty crap, tired, worried about a few things and issues and sat down.
It was more a summing up today as this week is the end of the 12 week course, although I have been invited back to re do the course, as they think it is helpful to do it again with the "shock" aspect being removed. So thats what I am going to do, I was already thinking about it so to get an invite from the co ordinators kind of told me I needed to.
So I'm sat barely listening as I have everything else thats going on whirling in my head.
So imagine my suprise when someone commented they are been watching me over the last few weeks and they had noticed I had started to "glow" and when I talked there was life in my eyes, instead of the dead flat look I had when I joined.!!!!!
Wow!
I guess bad days are good too (hee hee hee)
It was a lovely thing to say though
So I guess I really am coming back to life!!!!!!!!
xxx

Just wanted to say hope you ALL have a fantastic day, I'll be thinking of you all
Relax and Enjoy yourselves
Love
Helen
xxx
Big Hugs to You All

I work at two small jobs and I try hard to keep the hours I do to work around my boys who really need me around at the moment. One of my jobs which I love is to be a distributor for Bounty UK going to the local Maternity Hospital every day and giving new Mum their pack of freebies!!!!
Its a great job and I get to meet all the new babies too
My other job was a cleaner at a pub/restaurant I worked a couple of mornings whilst the boys were at school but I also do the weekend shift, this means doing 6am to 10am Saturdays and Sundays. Now the weekends the boys are with their dad I don't have a problem but the weekends the boys are home, means we can't really plan anything, now with the added complication of my daughter not being home whilst I do the early hours it also meant that the weekends I do have the boys they would have to sleep at their grandparents
Anyway last week I took a step of faith and quit my cleaning job. My last day there is this Sunday, I was more than a little anxious as I need the income.
Today I had a job interview at one of the local schools to work a few hours a day mid morning to early afternoon.
I am so thrilled to say that tonight they called me back offering me the job
This is amazing for me as not only will I not lose out on any income as they want me to start asap, but the hours are perfect as it won't interfere with my time with the boys. My weekends will be free other than the time at hospital and I am also not going to be working during the school holidays.
I Am SOOOOOOOOO Excited
Can you tell LOL
xxx