First off I havent been online much so will get back to some ppl later, sorry havent forgotten you or ignoring you

well not feeling much better at the moment, I have actaully emailed a mental health facility in my home town and asked what they recommend me to do for help, havent heard but back hopefully I they can recommend a support group so i can actaully get out of this house or soemthing.

I dont mind if they offer me some councelling, better out in the open than bottling it all up, i just wanna feel "normal" again.

ANYWAY onto other things -

Bub seems to be well, it is a lively little bub lol I am so happy I can feel it moving so much! plus gotta think of a nickname better than "it" lol

I have abit of a problem, well it could be normal for all I know, but my bladder isnt letting me know it is full, hmm I can drink and drink and dont feel like I need to go to the tolilet but when I sit down i always go, alot lol sorry TMI I know but I havent been egtting a full feeling for a few days, either I have the worlds largest bladder, something is wrong or I am worrying over nothing and all is normal lol

Ok here is a belly pic - (19 wk 4 days, a day late)

I think my bladder is pushing my tum out abit, but getting a nice little bump hey.

well I have wirttne enough for the moment, maybe back later always think of something once I publish lol

Ok these are my 18 wk 4 day belly pics, kinda a few days old gonna be 19 wks on staturday (9th/9)

If ur a member of bub hub you may of seen these before, I am a member of a few other various forums

HeHe you can see my belly button pointing out lol

Just a front on view, I look bigger from this view

hmm I dont know how I am going for size alot of ppl say I am small but that is cause the rest of me is small (still have thin arms and legs lol) might pop out belly wise very soon lol

Hope ppl like them

why is this so hard for me emotionally? I just think cause I never got morn sickness I am getting other things worse and the depression part is one of them.

argh I have gone up and down so fast emotionally that it is making me think that I might have something else wrong with me.

I guess the lonilness has played a big aprt of it all.

To the ppl who have sent me messages/commenetd etc sorry will get back to you, as I havent really been onlione, I mean I use to be able to sit online all day, but am now bored of it, I need a hobby or a friends lol

Plus I got back from an interview with OEC employment today and they pretty much told me to just get a doctors certifivate and quit looking for work cause they will not refer me for anything even if it is ideal. Great I dont want to be sitting around doing nothing but that is what is gonna happen,  gonna go CRAZY

Well bub is well, can feel the little bub moving around! which is so exciting, I love it might complain once bub is kicking hard but I am just so happy I feel it, it makes me feel happier about being pregnant now.

more later

I guess last entry was just a relese off everything I felt and it came out in that entry, better out then in I guess lol

BUt that is generaly how I feel most the time, though

anyway I can feel baby moving espeically when I am laying down, it is funny cause I am honestly all baby and u can really see it when I lay down, me being all baby that is.

not much has been happening really, it has finally sunk itt hat I am not as far along as I want and though I was lol but my commneter did bring up a good point that we have just that little bit of extra time  (note - I will reply later)

Later, I have this mad craving for a emat pie so am going too cook one lol