I am absolutely exhausted. I am drained, can barely type but I've got to get this out or I'm going to blow. Today has been a really, really bad day. I had to take Nicholaus to the doctor this morning. I've been worried about him after his immunisations. He's had fevers, he's got a sore throat, seemed to have an earache, his nose was running some yucky brownish green mucus etc. I had plenty of reason to take him to the doctor. So, as usual we have to wait over an hour, we both coped pretty well with this. Except on top of the 45 mins drive into town, it was much longer than I wanted to have my sick bub out of the house and in the heat. On the way home I realise that the car was overheating. I pulled over under a shady tree and luckily there was a bit of a breeze so Nicky was able to sleep in the car with all the windows down while I waited for Brad to come help me. This was a saving grace. It could have been much worse if I had've continued driving, and broke down, rather than stopping where I did (At least I can be thankfull for that). By the time Brad got there at 2:00, Nicky had woken up and was hungry but the cut fruit I had packed for him was spoiled. I hated having to get McDonald's for him, I always pack him sandwiches but was in such a hurry this morning. Nicky and I didn't get home until 4:00 and I barely sat down before getting up to make dinner. Bubby barely touched his vegies but ate his chicken (thankful for that too). Although he didn't eat much, he seemed to be feeling alot better. I started his bedtime routine at 6:30 with his usual bath, play and bedtime stories. When I put him into bed at 7:30 he started crying straight away and I immediately detected a sore throat could be the reason. I gave him some panadol and a bit of a top-up breastfeed hoping that would do the trick. Nuh!!! I didn't want him crying himself hoarse considering that was the reason he was crying (oh what to do???). I tried feeding him off to sleep, he liked this - I was his throat lozenge for half an hour. When I tried to put him back down and he swallowed, more crying (UUUGH!!! What do I do??). I was sure it was a sore throat but I'd only given him panadol an hour and a half ago so I couldn't give him any more. And the crying was making it worse. I used to always rock him to sleep so I tried that, no good either. He's so strong, he was pushing me away and he's so heavy. Finally, I rung Brad (oh forgot to mention - He's out watching his friend's band play in town). Was hoping he might be able to go to the all night pharmacy and get something for bubs to help him sleep and or ease his sore throat (I've never tried Phenergen, so thought pharmacist might suggest something like that). Meanwhile all I can do is rock Nicky. He's slowly giving in, submitting to sleep, oooh finally he's asleep. Bliss, 10:00. Quickly called Brad to tell him no worry anymore but he's already left and is on his way. Not yet at the chemist. The other reason for my being absolutely beside myself is no longer true. Brad's just walked through the door so I won't bore you with the details. Let's just say that Brad's is still clean and serene. Lucky!! I don't know if I could have handled one more thing today. I need a break!!!