Today would have been my niece, Sarah's 5th birthday. Five years ago my sister was pregnant with her first beloved daughter. We were all so excited. Mel already had two boys and longed for a daughter, we all looked forward to a little bubby girl.

The day Mel went into hospital, she was being induced. She had the injection and Sarah was fine. Her heartbeat was strong and everything was going well. Until the doctors decided to give Mel an injection of antibiotics, as a precaution for strep. No-one knew that Mel was allergic to penicillan. She didn't even know. She had an anaphylactic reaction and went into shock. The doctors looked at my brother in law and asked who they should save. Mel or the baby. He had to choose Mel. It was the hardest question I think anyone could ever be asked. Poor Sarah didn't make it.

The doctors continued to work on Mel for two hours before stabilising her. She had to have 16 blood transfusions- her blood was replaced more than twice over because it wasn't clotting and there was definitely something very wrong. I was told that my sister nearly died as well. 

Today is Sarah's anniversary. We all miss her very much. In every family photo is a teddy for Sarah, who couldn't be here. She has a little sister born nearly a year to the day, later on the 30th Jan. I believe that if Sarah were here today she'd look just like Georgia. I miss her. Happy Birthday Princess Sarah. You are in my thoughts and I will love you always. I took beautiful flowers to you today and your grandma gave you a little angel. We are burning a candle for you beautiful girl. We love you