Oh my my my What a life I lead.............. It's been so long since I last logged onto minti and for so many reasons.. but I find Minti again to talk about what I've been facing lately and hopefully deal with it all yet again........ Thanks again Minti!! ......................................................................................................................................................................................Brad and I are finally after all these years engaged!!!!! I've only waited 5 yrs!!!!!! Now we've just recently returned from a trip to Adelaide and Melbourne, our first holiday in 8 yrs to finally see my mum. Brad met her for the first time and she finally got to see our little boy, her first Grandson!!! It was an absolutely wonderful trip and I didn't let Brad's terrible mood spoil it for me............................... While we were there he had an episode and threatened that he would commit suicide, was an extremely difficut and tense night but I helped him get through it..................... Man, what he puts me through!!! He did it again Saturday night, just past..................... I really don't know where to begin in telling that story but lets jut say I had to get the ambulance here that night, he was so bad. Finally he's come to understand, yet again that he needs help ............................................................... It's beyond him. On top of all the dramas that go on between Brad and I, I've had to cope on my own with the thought that I may have cancer. I'm going to have a lump cut out in a month, out of my breast, and i'm just staying positive that all will be ok... It's all going to be alright in the end........................