Well its 2 years today since DP was in a serious car accident. Life has been hell and willcontinue to be tough but hey he's still alive. The anniversary is always hard and DP has gone out to help a mate so I worry about him being out at night.

On the up side I landed another casual job today so I am able to help out with the bills a bit so DP does't feel he has to put up with serious pain to support his family.

Also am trying to lose weight andhave found I've lost another half a kilo this week bringing my loss to 2.5 kg in 3 weeks. Hopefuly if I keep this up I might be down to 60kg by my B'day, That would be good.

This was the first day in 4 years that I have had no children to look after. David started back at Kindy today and Rylee has gone to one day of daycare a week. David should have gone yesterday but I got the dates messed up. Doesn't matter everyone thought we had been flooded in as is most of Nth Qld.  Anyway I was a little bored to tell you the truth. I was stuck in town because my partner had the car. I went to the gym - am going to pay for that in the morning, and I visited a friend but I felt lost. oh well I plan to make better use of my time in future- make sure I have the car so I can go home and cruise the internet(I mean do my assignments) and rest if I can- Sleep sleep sleep.

I was worried about how David would be this year at Kindy (he was the problem child last year) but he was great . he went in a unpacked his bag and helped the teachers set things out. He was great all day. So proud of my big boy. With allt he behavioural problems he has I think that they will be OK and that next year when he starts full time prep he will love it.

Rylee has totally dumbounded his carers who I think weer under the impressiont aht since he is still being breastfed that he was going to be clingy and uupset. No such thing- he didn't even look at me when I left (same as his brother when he started daycare) and didn't cry once. He was asleep when I picked him up.

Oh well must make a move on dinner.

Last week our car blew up (almost literally) so we were borrowing a car from the local car yard (its not what you know its who you know around these parts). I just drove it into town to go to work and a stupid dumb suicidal roo jumped in front of me. I'm driving and slow down becasue I can see it a long way away it stops and then when I go to drive pass it jumps in front of me. the fornt bumper is busted and so is the indicator. Now I have to spend tomorrow trying to get a new one. Our car is costing over $3000 to fix because the whole motor must be replaced and the radiator and now this.

It just seems to be one thing after another- I want a break. I'm so sick of taking one step foward and 10 steps backwards. Stupid animals STAY OFF MY ROAD!!!!

ok vent over!

I planned last year that if I could I would have one day to myself this year. I have been lucky to get David in Kindy 3 days (he sooo needs the stimulation) and Rylee is at daycare on Fridays. So rylees first day was today and he loved it. I was so worried as he is so much more a mummies boy than David but he never looked back and had a ball. the daycare lady didn't know it was his first day at any daycare (she just thought he'd never been there before)until lunchtime.

I thought I'd spend time with David doing stuff we try to fit in while Rylee sleeps, but no all he wanted to do was watch a movie 'without Rylee jumping on me'. we did play memory and did some reading so that was nice but I just imagined that he'd want to do stuff with me.

So come the first week of Feb I willhave Fridays to myself so I'm going to spend a couple of hours at the Gym. May as well use the time for some good since my MIL banned me from working or cleaning my house. I just have to stay away from my house becasue if I'm home with no kids I WILL CLEAN!!!!