Well last blog was bout my health found out I have gall stones and fatty foods will inflame them making me sick so have been eating my veggies and have had less trouble woo hoo was feeling good for ages there until I got to the top of the government dentist list which means I get dental treatment for whatever I want eg teeth cleaned where as before it was only for emergency. Anyways went for a consult to see what work needed to be done and . . .

She found something in my mouth that was not ment to be there a white lump and as a smoker she sent me to perth for a biopsy which they had to remove owww I get the stitches out on wednesday and results on Thursday so fingers crossed it was just a sore but before it was removed some guy come in and took photo's of it for study / lecture purposes the dentist that took it out was a student I felt like a guinea pig they seemed nice enough and have been dentists for a few years the guy that took it out must be wanting to become a surgeon like tooth removal etc I was a lil uncomfy knowing he was practising on me.

So this thing in my mouth got me all worried and I am now trying my darndest to quit but I only went one whole day without a smoke and buckled buying a pack today, I feel guilty as bub knows what a smoke is and he sees me smoking them and I really want to quit but how??? I don't think I have it in me to stop how can people just stop? I honestly was feeling quite crook without having them having one today has made me feel much better less ill in the tummy and way less angry. Any tips? I can't stuff my face apart from it's a lil hard to eat still I can't afford to get much fatter! Has anyone on minti quit smoking and if so what did you do what was your motivation and support ?

well today centalink has been on my back coz bub's dad regularly comes by and will some nights sleep over. He does not pay me anything but his help is much appreciated esp latly as I have been sick and have been having tests etc to see what's going on. I just can't deal with bub at the moment as he is soo active and Im not. Not happy as they phoned me bout 10am - I was still in bed as having trouble getting a good nights sleep and I palmed my phone off to bub's dad who had arrived earlier anyways it was centalink asking for me great how bad does that look. Arrr why now why not when I was feeling better anyways the woman on the other end asked me a bunch of questions and then asked me if the guy that answered was bubs dad to which I replied honestly yes then at the end of it all she said that my payment has been suspended pending further investigation! Oh crud great what I really need as have an upper abdo ultrasound next thurs to find out what is wrong with me and it's gonna cost $135 not to mention rent etc! not happy hey.  She seemed nice and I guess most of the workers at centalink are but it is the worst time to stop my payment, hopefully when all this new paperwork is sent out I can explain better that I have been unwell & bub's dad has been helping me out. The last form just wanted the facts like name address any kids + ages any people living with you etc... to which I answered honestly all questions even phoning the helpline at centalink for more clarification.  I did put down on my form that bub's dad was ere 2 nights a week and sometime more in the past fortnight but as they wanted no clarification I didn't go into details of my vomiting fits and stabbing abdo pain for which was so painful I had to take myself into the local ED for.  Being a single Mum is hard you really do need eyes in the back of your head but when your sick with a toddler I think it's only fitting that the guy who helped make him chips in.

I went into Harvey Norman today for their promo 15c prints for 15 days and was shocked to find that without any extra copies I had taken 104 photos of my presious bub, as a maticulas mother my photo album is in order of date from hubby and I as bub's toddlers etc.. to his lil ultrasound pic's and baby pics, now I have to add 104 pic's I am going to be so swamped writing the date his approx age and where we were etc on the back of each one.  Are all mums like me?, I only have one child and worry that I may be going a lil far as if I have another child I might not have the time to do that for the next bub. But my gosh $15 for all those pic's is great and the time it will take is nothing compared to keeping costs down.

I think all parents get so busy it is near impossible to have any "me" time but tomorrow for me I will be having the day off like it or not ;) no cleaning or cooking no whinging and finally acknowledgement of how much my bub is loved. He can't talk yet but I am sure there will be the dreaded I don't love you and  you don't care about me comments in the years to come but on one day I am treated to handmade gifts and cards with hugs in the morning I can't wait for tomorrow hope all mums have a great day