Im so nervous and sad at the same time.. Dominik is going to be 6 months next week.. time has just flown by and im really sad i dont feel like he or i got to enjoy his first 6 months of life because of everything thats gone on with him.. I love how hes moving along, growing up, and developing, but a part of my heart breaks because hes doing it so quickly.. Is this normal for a mom to feel?? Like i know that everybody wishes that their baby was smaller again but my heart breaks when i think about his first 6 months..

He gets his 6 month needles on the 27th.. oh joy : ( but then thats it until a year old.. Theres also another part of me that cant wait until he gets older and is starting to walk and starting to talk.. I mean he says mama, papa, baa baa.. Its soo cute.. but obviously those are just sounds for now. I think ive just got mixed feelings..

Ive gone back to school now.. Aparently its fulltime... But its only 3 hours a day.. I feel like im cheating dom out of mommy and dom time.. I wanted to stay home for his first year, and i would really still love to but ive got 4 credits left and i want to get them done and over with.. Is dom going to be affected by this positivly or negatively?? ive gone over it in my head a thousand and one times.. i just feel really bad that im "leaving" him already..