well sort of...

justin return to work today and boy did i miss him all day long it was weird you would think that due to having him home for nearly 9 weeks we would have been sick of each other but i truely feel it brought us closer even though for a good part of his time of i was so very ill but i liked having him home and he liked being home. here in lies our current problem you justin didn't want to go back to work he wants to be home so what we have proposed as one of has to work and he is currently the one imployed while i do uni is he'll give full time work a trial for 3 months and if he's hating it we're going to look at both of us working part time and so they days i work he is home and the days he works i'm at home with both of us working 3 days a week each. at this point i'm not sure how i feel about this as i have been the one to be at home since we had the little ones. i did return to full time work about 2 years okay only to hate and i mean HATE  it so returning yet again scares me plus i don't know how i'll manage studing on top but then i think well who am i to say that justin can't have what he wants  simply because it messes with my plans so here we are waiting out the 3 months to see what happens the pluses of me returning to work is that it means the kids get to grow up knowing both justin and i equally and it drops how much child support is paid to justins ex which would be most welcomed.

anywho  i felt my first day back at the helm went very well i got my house work done time with the kids done and some studies dexy had all his naps and was very well behavied minus one hell of a power chuck which grossed even his big brothers out we did very well .

hoping to continue on this positive up and to work out the work issues soonish.

hoping this finds everyone well and peachy...

 well bubs is coming up to 6 weeks, another round of holidays is here, my course is coming to a close but not with out a few exams mind you amd justins due to return to work shortly .

it's been weird as we've been trying to adjust to having a new family member but really he only sleeps barely cries and when he does hes easily settled the werid factor is having justin home all the time and not having to do everything by myself. he is due to return on the 6th of oct which i'm scared about as i'm worried about not coping once hes gone as hes been such a wonderful help but i also worry that due to having nearly 2 month at home hes not going to want to go back and will feel resentful at me and he wont work hard once hes back due to not wanting to be there. i'm also worried about passing this course at uni an whether ill be able to do my course next year i'm sort of freaking out. otherwise i'm doing fine. i just have these 3 concerns which im trying to work my way through. on a positive im feeling the best i ever have in the past year just trying to adjust my sleeping but it seems bubs is sleeping through from midnight to 6am now so thats making a difference. i just wish my big boys could behave a tad better their not being hugely naughty more so annoying but with our holiday visit from charli due im concerned for an esclation in bad behaviour although this will be the first time justins been home for school holidays so it shouldnt be to bad i hope. 

well i hope everyone else is peachy

hay all sorry about no updated pics of bubs but my computor is having a fit at the moment and wont up load hope to have this fixed soon

hi all,

wow what a month...

well our not so little bundle of joy arrived via c-section on monday the 18th of august at 10.15 am weighing a HUGE 10 pound 8 and 50 cm long with all 10 toes and 10 fingers everything absolutely beautiful, a boy named dexter riley. he sleeps  a lot and feeds every 4 hours but for some reason likes to be awake from 4am till nearly 6am doesn't scream or anything he's just awake it's weird. he's very plasid and easily comforted very unlike all of his older siblings. the surgery went very well we had our tubes tied at the same time so we are done and dusted in the baby department. as for being sick that has all gone and i'm feeling better then i have in a long time just mildly sleep deprived but what parent isn't ? everyone is getting along swimmingly no issues thus far with the bigger kids they all adore dex and have been surprisingly helpful and loving. justin is having a ball being home he's got still a further 3 weeks to go til he's back at work as for me i'm already back to hitting the books but seem to be faring well still getting good grades even while lacking sleep and a functioning brain so can't complain.

i hope everyone is doing well