hi all,

well we are now 35 weeks as of today and frankly i'm completely sick of being pregnant and just wont bubs out now, today, this very second! the last 2 weeks have been stressful enough as it has been school holidays with all my beautiful little darlings home week one is fine their happy to relax and be at home the second week they were nuts and the fact that i became very ill didn't help at all.

now i bet your wondering what more could go wrong this pregnancy as it's not been pleasant at all ( the only comfort is knowing fu is okay and a strong little tacker) well for a few weeks now i've just been feeling off , vomiting, headaches, a tender spot above my uterus and just not a happy camper well last thursday i had a check up with the dr. who was due to book my c-section and check bubs tell me the risk we were at with having polyhydromnus ( extra amniotic fluid) and then we would be on our way. um no as it turned out i had high blood pressure and was rushed off to have bloods and urine samples taken and told to be back at the hospital first thing the next morning. as it turns out my feeling off for a few weeks and high blood pressure along with the results from my samples show i have mild on set of pre-eclampsia and now need close monitoring every few days yay me!!! so here i was thinking it's the home stretch not long we can make it no dramas and now i have to hop off to the hospital every few days to have monitoring which involves sitting around for a few hours while they take my blood pressure at regular intervals and take samples to test and they pop bub on a cg machine to make sure he's still a happy camper. oh did i mention i'm not allowed to drive anymore until bubs is out so these days i have to go to the hospital justin has to have off work to drive me that or public transport.

well with all this back and forth over the last week and still not feeling any better i finally got around to asking my midwife what i need to take for the hospital stay for both bubs and me this was fine until i told her my intentions to bottle feed from the get go due to my negative past experiences of trying to breast feed after a c-section and my midwife who has been lovely up to this point turned on me and started lecturing me about how it's the hospitals perfered method of feeding and why do i feel the need to artificaly feed my baby etc etc well this got me peed off as i felt it was my choice as to how my baby was going to be fed not hers and the conversation didn't progress to well after that so more stress.

i've had enough of being "adviced" to do things a certain way yet told at the same time i'm free to choose what i would like to do and then when i do chose i'm treated differently and not so nicely as i didn't do what both my midwife and doctors want ( mind you they both usually have the opposite advice so neither is usually happy anyway) but i'm sick of this whole deal at the moment i just wont bubs out saftly and healthy and so my family and i can then be left alone this has not been a pleasant pregnancy at all health wise or from the care i've recieved i'm so glad this is my last bubs as i couldn't do this again even if i wanted to.

i hope all you other lovely preggy ladies and their families are doing nicely with out drama