I am so sick of waking up feeling pregnant still I thought once you micarried the pregnant feeling would go, but I my (.)(.) are getting sorer and are still growing, my belly is still showing as much as it was before I lost it and I still have morning sickness . I find it harder first thing in the morning at the moment as I still have the symptoms but as the day goes on I am able to cope better.
The one thing that is giving me a little strength is that my little Princess is in Heaven and she is in a far better place than here (although I still wish she was here ). I also know I can deal with it as God only allows things to happen that you can deal with. I have no doubt I will never get over it as such, but I do beleive th grief will get easier as time goes on. I am also trying to find good things to think about also and am finding it is makng the grief process a little easier.
I went to the hospital yesterday to visit a friend who has had a baby. I was REALLY nervous going up as I wasn't sure how I would cope, but I did well no crying and genuinly happy for my friend even when other babie started crying. And then when I was out shopping I only saw 1 pregnant lady and TGoodness I idn't cry. |