Well today has been an interesting day. I think the holidays are wearing thin and I am now eager to set up at least a few holiday activities for Codi, when it's holiday time...Was very bored and wingey today...mummy had a very tough day...I need to practice my deep breathing again and distraction techniques. I really felt like I had one of those "bad mother" feeling days. Reminds me that I am human and make mistakes. I just don't like getting cross at anyone, let alone my little man (whom I think I spoil), but I am making sure I do lay out boundaries. I just find it very difficult to reason with a very angry and upset child, even if it's only over getting angry with a toy that won't work they way Codi wants it to...I have such a well mannered boy that when he's not, it's like he is unleashing the flood gates and its a big upheaval.

Oh well, I blew off steam inside the the linen press cupboard - funny now that I look back at it...couldn't help but go and give him a kiss once he was alseep, I think he was just exhausted from the heat and not being able to go and run off steam in the park as he usually does. Oh well, daddy was very much the soother today for both of us...but today felt like I was the push over and Codi was the boss. I think I should have spent more one on one with him today...he really loves his mum...to the point of having a little shadow around me all the time and acts up when I am tired....oh well, tomorrow is a new day and 99% of the time he really is gorgeous and a funny little chatter box...who said motherhood was easy, it is when things are going well and it isn't when things aren't. I just know running a business by myself was so much harder than having a child, so I am grateful for being a mum...i guess - lol