Had a great counselling session friday as a check up. I must say a friend of mine, used the right words to describe the result I was feeling and that was "empowered"... great word. I must say finding the right counsellor that clicks and gets you was extremely helpful. I feel a sense of trust which is nice and that she is helping us with the process of saying goodbye. We can plant a little rose plant and plant underneath our babys ashes and encouraged us to find a name. I also really like the advice she gave me on talking about this event with my son, in simple terms. I did sense he knew something was up when he came to the hospital. So I will put together a light and simple story down on paper. I agree that it is good to let kids know as she said, that loss is a part of life as well as death. But in age appropriate words and concepts.

So, I do feel happy to live in the moment and not try and hurry the process. The place I am in now, is a very happy and relaxed place. I get tired like every mum/mom, but I am myself which is important.

My little man is really into laughter and humor at the moment, how wonderful.