i feel like screaming so loud just screaming. the baby is refusing to nap and is super super clingy all day i just wanna scream i feel bad i put him in his crib and i'v been letting him cry for a while. i know hes got teeth coming in i've given him meds to sooth the pain and chew toys to chew yet hes still upset i know hes not sick and i know its just the teeth coming in but gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh is all i have to say i'm  fustrated i dont care if i spelled it wrong. and i'm upset and i just want my baby to not be so uncomfortable. not to mention this week has been a bit hard for me due to lack of energy with my spouse he and i have been fighting non-stop makes me wonder if guys have a period or something. also i have only had one child this whole week my ex-husband took our son for a week. sometimes i feel its so unfair he only sees him one week yet i have him all the time then i hear him complain about moneys and what have him. yet i still have to fight him for child support. so in all i geuss i've been just stressed i did however go on a vacation. i went to see some exhibits at a museum and i went to a baseball game did some local things and traveled to another state for a day. i feel a little bit better lol the baby has fallen asleep finally i'v only been trying to get him to nap for two hours

ok thanks to some helpfull people today was turning out to be a pretty bad day untill i hoped on the treadmill and run my problems out and my anger. i was so mad at him today i dont get mad like this especially not at my man. i dont like to show my anger much today he said some hurtfull things tho and i started crying i went in the bathroom to hide it from my kids i wouldnt want them  to see me cry. but as i said i got on the treadmill and now i feel like i have a clear mind. kids are fed and happy my mind is free and clear i can be a better person this way i know when i am angry i cant be a better person. i made the kids some oatmeal for breakfast and lunch i decided to make fried noodles always a fav in our house. now in a bit i have my aunt driving up to come see me for a lil while and mainly to talk because i needed it a nice cup of coffee and a warm hearted person. the kids hopefully will play outside if it stays "nice" and then i can make dinner tonight its just soup and sammies not really feeling to much like going out. well everyone have a great day even tho it was arough start i know i can pull out of this fog
 

I am so bored today i dunno this whole like rain weather needs to go away

i hate feeling cooped up inside not to mention we just moved to this area and me being a stay at home mom not knowing anyone and i mean anyone i am getting so lonely  and yes i have my kids but i so need adult people i looked for play groups in the area but the moms seemed so uptight that maybe i'd rather not try to fit in with there uptight groups. eh it'll get better i really really really hope.