please excuse this i`ve been drinking and am drunk LOL.but this is how i`m feeling at the moment.i should be due to have my 3rd baby on the 26th of this month.we are currently trying to get pregnant again at the moment so i have that bit of comfort and hope that all will be fine this time.i can`t help but feel and think of what was supposed to be.i should be finished work now and just be waiting for the birth of this baby girl.instead i`m dealing with the pressures of work.especially working in retail with christmas coming in 6 weeks.i`m just over the whole work issue and being in charge of my department.my boss keeps doing and saying things and i just don`t care.i`ve even told him that and really i think he knows this.in fact i think most of those i work with know this.you know as soon as christmas in over we start on hot cross buns for easter.and i don`t care for this either.peole will say things and i just turn around and tell them i don`t care at the moment.i`m too busy dealing with my feelings and my family too care about much else.my little girl who turns 3 on the 30th of this month is sick tonight.she has a bout of gastro i think.because she is going from both ends.do you know she turns 3 the week i was due with my 3rd baby.26th november.i`m hoping my girls birthday distracts me away from this.i`m sorry if it`s like i`m having a big whinge but it`s just how i`m feeling at the moment i i want to vent my feelings some where other than speaking to family  and friends.thankyou to those that read this.

footy grand final today shame the eagles didn`t make it again.but hey i hope geelong flogs port adelaide next to collingwood i hate them the most.GO GEELONG.

hi all i haven`t been online for a few weeks just haven`t felt like it.well to start off i ended up having to have a D and C on the 15th september as there was retained placenta from my angels birth.i then spent the week doped out from these horse pill sized antibotics LOL next time i`ll make sure i read the side effects.i`ve got a week off i`m one of those mad woman that take holidays during the school holidays to spend time home with the kids then end up wondering why i do it LOL.getting close to christmas we start baking at work on the 8th october yay(not) so everyone be ready christmas is coming fast.hope all is well with everyone.

ok my 9 year old son was playing hiswlast game of the footy season yesterday.there team was playing on of the best of the season and so was my son he kicked 5 goals and absoultely beat the kid that was playing on him.anyway not long before the game finishes the ball is up the other teams end and the kid on my son was elbowing him in the back knocking him around and on to the ground he did this a couple of times and my son pushed him back and tried to just stay put but this kid wouldn`t let up and in the end my boy ended up punching him in the face more though fluke than acutal aiming.this kid had also bone something to him just previously in a pack situation as well.any way the other teams coach came on the field to get the kid(which is allowed) followed by the kids dad.well we all when what and told him to get off the field he did after he threw some kind of comment.then the game finished and we always go out to the field after the game because they present certificates for kids who play well.and the father comes up again and starts srpouting crap i then had a go at him for going on the field in the first place and told him his son should not have been doing what he was doing but no he wanted to keep going (my other half was at work so i was alone with both the kids).this idiot nearly caused a big fight because some of the dads from our team were defending my son because they had also seen what happened.in the end the idiot walked off. but one of the dads from our team followed him and was talking to him while this guy was still carrying on.this is a 9 yr old football game.the idiot has no right to go on the field and say or do anything.it is in the parents behaviour booklet they give you to read at the start of every season.plus he needs to teach his kid some good sportsmanship.i did say to him he is lucky my sons father wasn`t there because he certainly wouldn`t have walked off the field.we have already had one case this year of a parent punching a 13yr old on the footy field do we need more?these morons should be banned from attending games for life.i don`t condone punching etc on the footy field.maybe this kid picked it up from watching afl games the way they do it to hassle opponents and this time he picked the wrong kid to try it on.or maybe judging how his dad reacted his dad has given him some tips and it back fired.