Six months of waiting & finally we went to see a Doctor about Michael's  'lazy' eye (s).  After having a couple of tests, we found out that he is long sighted & has to temporarily wear glasses. The Dr's are not sure if these will rectify the problem, but we are willing to give it a try. They will review his progress in 2 months, whereby he will then have to wear an eye patch over his good eye, to make his bad eye try to work properly. Trying to get him to keep his glasses on will be a challenge, but it is something that we are prepared to perservere with, for Michael's sake. Ricky is concerned that they will make him look like a nerd & that he will be teased ! At 23 months of age, I'm sure Michael will put a stop to any teasing, as can already stand up to the 'big' kids if they start to play 'rough' with him!

Things with Ricky & I are improving (touch wood) ! I think he was a bit jealous of all my attention going to Michael. I try now to busy myself, so that Michael & his daddy get to spend a bit of 1:1 time, without me. So far so good ............!

Why do people always come to visit, when they are sick? All of our family + friends know not to come near us if they are unwell, due to Michael's low immune system, as he can pick up the slightest infection & 9 out of 10 times ends up in hospital with even the smallest 'bug'. Yet, my sis in law & her boy friend still came over, 3 days in a row. It wasn't until on the 3rd day, when I asked if they had a cold, as both were coughing, that they told me "Yes, we've had this 'bug' since last week & can't seem to get rid of it!!!! I tried not to get upset & simply told my sis in law, that if michael gets her cold & ends up back in hosp, then she can have the pleasure (NOT) of sitting with him for 24/7. She obviously had no idea as to what I was talking about, because she quickly said that she'd be glad to sit with him !??? So I told her that he wouldn't be having a holiday in there, depending on how sick he was, he'd have an IV line in & be on oxygen & require suctioning of his one lung, like every other time he has ended up in there. This must have convinced her, as she & her boyfriend apologised & quickly left. i don't mean to be rude, but we almost lost Michael once before & after everything he has been through, I am going to prevent it from happening again, if I possibly can, especially for his sake.

Things look like they are finally starting to improve with Ricky & I. Unless as they say," It is the calm before the storm". here's hoping it's not! I thought I'd try & impress him & made puddina, a maltese dessert. I made it exactly how the recipe said to & only added the sultanas & halved the quantity of rum. It tasted okay to me,but, then I'm not Maltese. I was told though that next time I make it, I have to add cherries/coconut & nuts to improve the flavour. Oh, well, I'll try again in a couple of days when the bread goes stale & see if I can improve the taste. I'd better stop for now, as Michael is awake ! We hope that you all had a lovely easter !

After many months of 'waiting' for Ricky & my father in law to build our play area for Michael, they have finally started it, just as Winter is approaching !! Oh well, better late than never, I suppose. So today Michael & I were supposed to be shopping for more play equipment. He already has a swing/slide set, rocking horse & sandpit (still awaiting the sand). But instead we went Easter Egg shopping & got some really great bargains. I did not spend the money Ricky gave me for the play equipment on chocolate, the little bit that I had saved paid for that. Surprisingly Ricky was in a reasonably good mood when he came home, which soon changed when he saw I had not bought the play equipment. I tried to explain, 1. The sale starts tomorrow (thurs) & 2. How am I going to carry a seesaw & outdoor setting with Michael, all by myself! Thankfully the phone rang & he became distracted & by the time he got off the phone he had forgotten about our 'heated' discussion.

A close friend sent me this info about men, I know all men are not like this, so I apologise if there are any men reading it. But I thought it was quite entertaining. And it's a change from all those women jokes that we regularly have to listen to !!

For all those men who say, 'Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free'. Here is an update for you:

Now days, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY?

Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire PIG just to get a little sausage.........

Men are like.......

1. Men are like .... laxatives..... They irritate the c*** out of  you. 

2. Men are like ...bananas........, The older they get, the less firm they are!    

3. Men are like weather . .....Nothing can be done to change them!                                                                                 

4. Men are like .....Blenders......... You need one, but your not quite sure why! 

 5. Men are like .... Chocolate Bars.... .....Sweet, smooth & they usually head right for your hips.

 6. Men are like commercials ...... You can't believe a word they say!

7. Men are like Government Bonds .... ....they take soooooo long to mature!

8. Men are like ........Mascara......They usually run at the first sign of emotion!

These are just to name a few!                                                                                                                                   

Yesterday (3/4), I 'pushed' myself to go out to lunch with an old work mate whom I haven't seen in 5 years & I'm so glad I did ! I actually had a lovely day & Michael behaved in the restaurant !!!!  As I was so close to my old work place, i also went in to say Hello to some old friends & some of the residents that I used to look after. I was really quite surprised by the warm welcome Michael & I received, which was nice to see. Most of my favourite residents had passed on & there were a lot of new faces, but I did get to catch up with a couple of old ones that were left. It's amazing what a 'good' day can do to lift your spirits & it also helped me to ignore hubby's whinging about ?getting the flu & how sick he was. He must have got the hint, because he was last seen retreating to bed mumbling something about how he was dying & how no-one obviously cared!

Firstly, thank you to those of you who left me messages on my J & H blog, I really appreciate it!

I miss my Minti friends & lately haven't been able to have any 'me' time. Even this blog is going to be rushed.I have been feeling really tired, yes ok, i have a young child, so basically I have to put up with it (like we all do), & i know the stress from J&H doesn't help. I have been trying to sleep when Michael does as am finding it really hard to keep up with him. I finally went to the Dr today about an excema rash that has been annoying me for a while, down my left side & also noticed another type of rash, a bit like chicken pox (which I got at age 30!), 'popping' up here & there across my tummy & sides. Apparently it too is stress related & it's my body's way of saying I'm run down. Great! Not! And surprise surprise I have to go back onto a mild antideppressant. She also said I have to find time for me. Um, how do I do that, when all of my friends are busy with their own families, my mum lives in a nursing home & my mother in law, cannot mind Michael by herself (due to eplilepsy black outs) & J+H hubby is always working & is tooooooooo tired himself, to give me a break. I probably could have gotten away with hiding how I've been feeling, if these stupid rashes didn't come out. I've tried taking vitamins to give me a bit of 'oomph', but all they did was give me really bad nausea, like when I was pregnant with Michael. Maybe I need some Berrocca to give me back my bounce !!

Just when I though things were looking up (apart from my health), as in my relationship with ricky, something goes 'pop' & we are back to square one again. As i mentioned above I feel like I'm walking on egg shells. I wait with baited breath to see what his mood will be like when he walks in the door. The last four days were good, it was like having the man I married back. Then all hell broke loose, when he came home today in a bad mood. Thankfully Michael was nearly asleep, when he eventually came home, and he had nothing to whinge about as the house was clean, his dinner cooked etc... etc.... so after having him snap at me & get no response from me, as I couldn't be bothered arguing, he ate, had a shower & went to bed. One of his friend's rang me tonight to say he was very worried about Ricky, who was not his usual self & that he needed a holiday away from everything. i told his friend that I agreed & if he wanted to take Ricky on a 'boys weekend away', I'll start packing his things now!! I think by the silence, he was a little shocked. Maybe that IS what he needs to do, go on a holiday from all of us. I'm a bit confused too, I don't know if I love him any more or I'm just really angry at him. I don't see the point of me moving out, when I have no money behind me to back me up. Ok, so yes, I'll get a job straight away, but I'm not leaving Michael with strangers & don't really want to move from a house I love. Whilst I hate being back on the AD's, I do want to stop stressing about the certain things he says to me & get my confidence back again, so I can speak up for myself & NOT worry unnecessarily. Ha, this blog was supposed to be short.  Okay, so my fun time has come to an end, as Michael's awake yet again & I better go & settle him before he wakes up daddy. (Heaven forbid, if that happens). Goodnight to anyone that is reading this. & I promise to catch up with my Minti friends soon.