Dont know where 2 start but will do my best.....not much sleep last night but with an 8 week old bub that is expected. I went to toddler time today which was my first proper outing with tom. It was okay...but still felt a bit anxious and nervous..i couldnt wait to get home to be honest. It was good 2 catch up with my mate though. She came back to my house for a coffee and her gorgeous daughter, who looked lovely, stepped in dog poo.aaaaargh!!! So had to hose her off as well as the back porch. If its one thing that makes me sick its dog poo so hgave the kids a ribbing 2nite...that is their job.

Iwas invited to a bbq this friday night  as my friend had a baby boy on sunday and was hoping hubby could take the night off so i could celebrate. I havent had a drink for toms birth and she had a baby born on sunday so thought it would be nice to wet the babies head cos hubby has had his turn but.....he cant get the night off so once again i am stuck home. Dont get me wrong i love being with my kids but it would be nice to do something for me sometime...even once a month would be nice.

I am not happy with my family members as none of them have bothered to give congrats on the birth of tom and he is already 8 weeks old. I am the only one in the family who is not psyco, i dont do drugs and im not an alcoholic yet i still get treated like i dont exist.

Have just found out that my hubbys nephew has been giving my daughter a hard time at school. They are both 10 and i know that kids will be kids but he has been teasing her because we rent a house and he owns a big property etc.....i am really not happy and will be having a chat with him.He has also been saying that she has holes in her head...which really isnt nice as she gets hurt quite easily.Grrrrrrrr.......

Anyway am feeling really down and alone at the moment.....i might go play with the kids...they always seem to put a smile on my face

Tom is going well after his circumcision. By the next day he was all smiles and back to his usual happy self. My 2 yr old daughter has started going to the toilet, although has had a few accidents, but cant complain. Im so proud of her!!!

I am actually heading out of the house tommorrow with tom. I havent really done it yet....ive been too anxious for some reason. I have a date with a very good friend of mine and i have to admit i almost called her to back out but i have to go back out into the big wide world sometime so am going to force myself to walk out of the door with kiddies in tow!!

Today has been my most emotional day to date. After much debate we decided to have tom circumcised. I decided to leave the final say up to my partner and he wanted it done so.... it was done 2day. The worst part was that my partner had 2 stay in the room while it was getting it done and im sure he was in a bit of shock....but im sure tom suffered a bit more. I stayed home and was a blubbering mess. So far that has been the hardest decision ive ever had 2 make! Tom was quite unsettled for a while afterwards but is now in a deep sleep. I might go join him...

I thought having just one more child wouldnt have much effect on lifestyle but OMG how wrong i was. Dont get me wrong i am loving every minute of it but am struggling to find a spare few minutes for myself.(as im typing i have my 2 yr old hanging off my arm lol). Thomas is thriving and my 3 girls have adjusted really well to having a new addition to the family. For the last 7 weeks i have become a recluse but its been great bonding with Thomas. I hear crying.....

Thomas was born on 27th August. 2500 grams so a tad on the small size. He is now 7 weeks oldand weighs 4600 grams so is thriving. He is as cute as ever and the girls adore him. Anyway, i will try 2 get on here more often and say hi. Until then, thanx to those who popped into my lounge while i was away.