After almost a month of being sick and getting better and getting sick again I am finally getting better. I think it has to do with the weather as well. I am praying that this lovely warm weather stays with us. I love the rain but when I get sick I need sunshine to get better. LOL

This cold is a monster one. I honestly havent been this sick since I lived with my mother and I used to regulary get pnemonia and chest infections (I honestly think it was due to her chain smoking in the house that was always locked up and the house was a tiny house)

I have had to start using ventilin atm cause I am finding it hard to breath and getting in to see my gp atm is very hard. I think most of where I live have this. it seems to work so I am not going to knock it.

I cant believe that the chesty cough medine I am taking is so gross. I mean they make them for kids and it is so yuck. I gave it to Charlie and even she complained about it. LOL

I have been so bored lately with being sick. havent been able to go out or see my friends. :( even the poor kids have been down about it too.

Have a heap planned for the school holidays. YAY. they have swimming lessons everyday from tuesday to the last friday where they graduate. Then we have Aunty Sarah's on monday. that will be cool get to spend time with my SIL and new 2 neices again. might even get to see my BIL if he isnt at work... at lest he wont be far away as he works at their local station. :) Then tuesday we are going to see a lovely friend K. (mintythistle79) finally get to meet her beautiful new bubs who isnt so new anymore. LOL thats going to be great. I cant wait for that. We are going to be going out to parks and day trips too. promised Charlie we would go tot he beach at some point. I think she wants to get some shells and that.

Chris's mate G is starting a machanics business and wants Chris to help him a few days a week driving a tow truck. its going to be interesting. not 100% sure how I will go but I have to learn to be ok. its good for that Chris will be dealing with cars again, going to auctions and buying cars so they can do up and sell or use for parts on other cars (thus the need for a tow truck) plus we are doing the race cars (FINALLY) so it is going to be fun.

I applied for a part time job with G's aunty the other day. its at a book store so that should be heaps of fun. I love books, just havent had the time or money to get any until recently. ( yes I know there is librarys but i like to buy books.)

wow is all I can say...... another would be " if it isnt raining its pouring" LOL I swear it is drama after drama here atm, if it isnt directly with me and my hubby and kids it is close friends or family.....

on a rather good note to start is I have seen my Dad consecitively for the last 3 weeks, it has been really good seening him so much. I wish he came over more, even if it was every sundaya nd just for a cuppa and a play with the kids. I miss he alot and he is always working or with his 2 best friends. Dad bought us (me and him) a motorbike as I went for my learner. I wanted to get a Honda as I am a small weak framed person (fat but small LOL) and Honda are the only people that do a realitively small sports bike (dont like cruisers) so I went and looked at a few and liked the CBR125R and the CBR250R the 250 was a tiny bit too heavy so I opted for the 125 and went to an action and got a 12 month old bike with 1700kms for $1800 (to buy that model new it was still $4990) bargin I thought... yeah there was a reason it was at action, it was a repairable rightoff, ie too much bother for the insurance company to bother about. all up it cost us about $500 to fix the damage, side fender, front mounting bracket, indicators, new keys and then the $200 something to get it registered. LOL funny thing now is I had a lesson last week and scared myself. LOL stupid helmet made me clostrophobic. hahahaaa

Drama at home..... our mate who was living with us has left, I am happy I have my house back but sad at the same time. he broke up with his girlfriend of 2 years and had a road rage incident where he is now facing a few charges and fines. his mum is also putting him into anger management. dont blame her as he has a huge problem with anger.

mmmmmm the interesting part. me. LOL

I started counciloring with a psycologist a month or so ago and its really cool. she is doing a lot for me and its really good and helpful. she has taught me that BPD is controlable without medication and it isnt as bad as people have made it out to be. aswell as the bipolar. she also thinks that i may have been misdiagnosed aswell. will see how the next few sessions turn out.

Well at almost 3pm tomorrow, Chris and I have been married for 8 years. Man has time gone by so quickly....

just some pics. :) top to bottom.........

me and Chris this year, Alex's birth, Chris and I just after Alex was born, About 6 months oldish, Chris and I 2 years ago just after I had my labret pierced, our wedding day, 8/9/2001 and Chris and and Charlie last year.

I would totally be lost without my husband. he is the most understanding and caring man I have ever met. He has shown me that even though I am a nutter (both in the sence and taking the piss out of my mental health) that I am worth the love and caring of other people. He has taught me things that parents should teach you and puts up with my massive ups and downs and yet asks nothing in return. I love him unconditionally and am truely thankful for everything he has done and does for me, I understand having a wife like me who is both mentally challenging and physically challenging can be hard. He truely is a awesome Man.

I love you Chris. you are my world. Happy 8 year anniversary babe....