After almost a month of being sick and getting better and getting sick again I am finally getting better. I think it has to do with the weather as well. I am praying that this lovely warm weather stays with us. I love the rain but when I get sick I need sunshine to get better. LOL

This cold is a monster one. I honestly havent been this sick since I lived with my mother and I used to regulary get pnemonia and chest infections (I honestly think it was due to her chain smoking in the house that was always locked up and the house was a tiny house)

I have had to start using ventilin atm cause I am finding it hard to breath and getting in to see my gp atm is very hard. I think most of where I live have this. it seems to work so I am not going to knock it.

I cant believe that the chesty cough medine I am taking is so gross. I mean they make them for kids and it is so yuck. I gave it to Charlie and even she complained about it. LOL

I have been so bored lately with being sick. havent been able to go out or see my friends. :( even the poor kids have been down about it too.

Have a heap planned for the school holidays. YAY. they have swimming lessons everyday from tuesday to the last friday where they graduate. Then we have Aunty Sarah's on monday. that will be cool get to spend time with my SIL and new 2 neices again. might even get to see my BIL if he isnt at work... at lest he wont be far away as he works at their local station. :) Then tuesday we are going to see a lovely friend K. (mintythistle79) finally get to meet her beautiful new bubs who isnt so new anymore. LOL thats going to be great. I cant wait for that. We are going to be going out to parks and day trips too. promised Charlie we would go tot he beach at some point. I think she wants to get some shells and that.

Chris's mate G is starting a machanics business and wants Chris to help him a few days a week driving a tow truck. its going to be interesting. not 100% sure how I will go but I have to learn to be ok. its good for that Chris will be dealing with cars again, going to auctions and buying cars so they can do up and sell or use for parts on other cars (thus the need for a tow truck) plus we are doing the race cars (FINALLY) so it is going to be fun.

I applied for a part time job with G's aunty the other day. its at a book store so that should be heaps of fun. I love books, just havent had the time or money to get any until recently. ( yes I know there is librarys but i like to buy books.)

wow is all I can say...... another would be " if it isnt raining its pouring" LOL I swear it is drama after drama here atm, if it isnt directly with me and my hubby and kids it is close friends or family.....

on a rather good note to start is I have seen my Dad consecitively for the last 3 weeks, it has been really good seening him so much. I wish he came over more, even if it was every sundaya nd just for a cuppa and a play with the kids. I miss he alot and he is always working or with his 2 best friends. Dad bought us (me and him) a motorbike as I went for my learner. I wanted to get a Honda as I am a small weak framed person (fat but small LOL) and Honda are the only people that do a realitively small sports bike (dont like cruisers) so I went and looked at a few and liked the CBR125R and the CBR250R the 250 was a tiny bit too heavy so I opted for the 125 and went to an action and got a 12 month old bike with 1700kms for $1800 (to buy that model new it was still $4990) bargin I thought... yeah there was a reason it was at action, it was a repairable rightoff, ie too much bother for the insurance company to bother about. all up it cost us about $500 to fix the damage, side fender, front mounting bracket, indicators, new keys and then the $200 something to get it registered. LOL funny thing now is I had a lesson last week and scared myself. LOL stupid helmet made me clostrophobic. hahahaaa

Drama at home..... our mate who was living with us has left, I am happy I have my house back but sad at the same time. he broke up with his girlfriend of 2 years and had a road rage incident where he is now facing a few charges and fines. his mum is also putting him into anger management. dont blame her as he has a huge problem with anger.

mmmmmm the interesting part. me. LOL

I started counciloring with a psycologist a month or so ago and its really cool. she is doing a lot for me and its really good and helpful. she has taught me that BPD is controlable without medication and it isnt as bad as people have made it out to be. aswell as the bipolar. she also thinks that i may have been misdiagnosed aswell. will see how the next few sessions turn out.

Well at almost 3pm tomorrow, Chris and I have been married for 8 years. Man has time gone by so quickly....

just some pics. :) top to bottom.........

me and Chris this year, Alex's birth, Chris and I just after Alex was born, About 6 months oldish, Chris and I 2 years ago just after I had my labret pierced, our wedding day, 8/9/2001 and Chris and and Charlie last year.

I would totally be lost without my husband. he is the most understanding and caring man I have ever met. He has shown me that even though I am a nutter (both in the sence and taking the piss out of my mental health) that I am worth the love and caring of other people. He has taught me things that parents should teach you and puts up with my massive ups and downs and yet asks nothing in return. I love him unconditionally and am truely thankful for everything he has done and does for me, I understand having a wife like me who is both mentally challenging and physically challenging can be hard. He truely is a awesome Man.

I love you Chris. you are my world. Happy 8 year anniversary babe....

Well after a brief conversation we decided on getting a bird. We really miss our cats and really wanted another pet. So a hand tamed bird sounded great. They live for ages 30 years we were told.

So we got 1. his name is Sado "Chad" named after the charater from Bleach (anime) as he finds a werio in the begining of the anime ( name avaides me atm of the bird) and this bird looks very similar.

All up it cost $280 thats bird, cage, stand, food and the green thing in the cage you can see ( thats for him to sleep in apparently) so I thought that was great.

He is a very friendly bird. doesnt like the PC but. HAHAHAA. he was sitting on me when I uploaded the pics onto facebook and kept jumping on the keyboard. LOL

Well things are going some what ok atm. I have had a massive high and a massive low all in a matter of 2 days. :(

I am seeing a new phsycologist and hopefully it will work out. I have 18 sessions this year and then can go and get another 18 next year as well. So that is a possitive. it really upset her about some things she asked about my childhood and said it was the worst abuse she can think off. that was really sad to hear. she also said  ( and it wasnt to be hurtful) that it was cause of Charlie that everything has come up like it has and that it is common with that type of abuse specially when the parent and child look very similar (in my case almost identical). So will see what happens.

good thing is I got my L's today for my motorbike. YAY I got 100% in the test., but I do gotta say if you get any less than 100% you shouldnt have your L's. I sadly just have to wait for a medical report from my GP now ( so I cant even drive) as I just found out today that there is a law that the DPI need to know of any medical conditions and have to have a medical report. So I have a doc appointment tomorrow.

Had an ultrasound on my left breast yesterday and they found nothing so that was great but am still stumped as to why they hurt so much. the lady who ultrasounded them said it could be my body reacting to lack of uterus and and now that I would have more hormones about my body now and that I am no longer on the pill. So I will find out that tomorrow as well as my glucose tollerence test. I think it will be not so great as I did passout a little from that drink.... yuck and not so good. I wasnt too good for a few days after it either.

yesterday I took my best friend Becca (kathryn-solaris) to get her eyebrow pierced. I have had numerious piercings before and was very intereged as to how they do it.... it was fun to watch. :)

Hope it dont hurt to much my chickiness. :D

Clamped and needle going in.

Tubing in and ready for cutting and jewlery

Jewlery in and done

Close up.

She did really well. didnt flinch or anything. :)

I am crying atm cause I just showed Alex how to tie his showlace. For the first time he actually did it. I am soooo happy.... I am not going to hold my breath that he wil be able to do it again, but I am happy that he followeda few simple steps.

its funny how you read on here things and then make a comment and then a hour later that person calls you out of the blue.... heehee.

Well I noticed today about our lady daft is returning to Minti YAY!!!! So I commented on the post and then sat here and thought about how much I have missed our lovely DA. I miss our 1 am chats ( joys of insomnia on both our parts) miss her help when I have crashed and missed the butt whipping when needed. heehee.

then just before my alarm goes off to get my kids the phone rings.now this is a odd thing in my house. it hardly ever rings. most ppl txt us or call the mobile (our friends are on 3 so it is free to call them) and OMG it was DA. letting me know she has a new phone number and it is on and I can call her again now....YAY..... I was so excited to here her voice again. sounds so silly. excited to talk to someone I havent physically met yet... LOL

So I am now so looking forward tot he weekend when her net is connected so I can chat to her online...

It was such a lovely surprise I got today. made my day. :D

xxxxxx

I am offically saying this.... I hate school holidays. I am so glad that they are back tomorrow..

I know that it sounds bad. I love my kids so much, but having a mum who cant go out and do a heap of things is hard on them. + most of the holidays have been filled with storms. the other day we couldnt open the front door as it was raining so much.... but hey we need the rain.

poor kids have been inside the house all but 1 day this week and went stir crazy. I caved in and bought 5 xbox games (yay harvey norman and you 50-75% off games) and they loved that. went to Scietech too and OMG dont go there in school holidays. the kids were so freaking rude and the parents OMG I cant put into words how disapointed and upset I was with that. both my kids were pushed off things. It wasnt until Chris took 1 of them and pushed other kids off that Alex was able to do anything. thank goodness Charlie was fine with just looking about the place. Mind you in saying that she has asked some very great questions about science stuff since then. today she asked about how metal is made... Yay that I have a hubby how a: is a science nerd and b: knows alot about metal as he has done his cert 3 in metal and fabrication, fitting and turning. So yeah he knows a bit about metal. :)

So the nightmare..... ahhhh. Chris's mate is staying with us for some time. basicly till he either finishes his apprentiship or gets sick of us. he pays for food and thats it. will chip in with bills, gas and electric so am happy with that. actually like having him here. is nice to talk to other ppl other than hubby and his GF stays over a bit and she adores my kids. so it is a plus. also getting social interaction for me is good. But having just that extra load of washing my poor machine decided of all times to pack in. grrrrrrr not happy.... So being a electrican I asked Matt what he thought and he said chip.... grrr $400+  and call out fee of $200+ grrrrrrrrr so I call Dad. " Hey dad, we have similar washers right??? yep....... Hey Dad, remember when yours broke did it stop and you have to turn it off and on to get it to go for a bit...... yep... SHIT....... how much was it to fix?????? under warrenty sweety why???? SHIT SHIT SHIT.... mines doing that now..... Dad...... can I please borrow $500 to get the fisher and pykal washer...... No... Oh ok. I would rather you have a front loader adn at lest a 7.5kg one. Find one by monday 4pm and we will get it. look at rick hart and the good guys....." Huh!!!! WTF.. did Dad just say yes to buying me a washing machine.... SHIT.... (BTW Thanks a heap Arna, got the LG direct Drive. Showed Dad and he said yes and couldnt find a better 1) So my new washing machine (which BTW I got for $840 that was ticketed for $1400) on wednesday. YAY I am so happy.

Ended up this last week with a ear and bladder infection too. not pleasent at all. dont wanna try that again in a hurry. PMSL.....So needless to say, mummy felt like shit and everyone in the house coped it without me even realising til I had a huge fight with Chris. poor man. love him to bits yet treat him llike shit and not know it. :( So I crashed big time and really should of put myself in hospital but I see my shrink tomorrow morning and thought I can hang out to see him then.

Got a few tcxt messages from my mother asking why I dont see her...So I handed the phone over to Chris and asked him to please deal with it cause I knew I would end up a mess. ( thanks hun and Becca, I owe you so much) so after a few days I decided to write her a email of why I dont want to see her EVER AGAIN. and after a night of her abusing Chris on MSN I emailed it to her. havent heard back so I think she got the point. sounds nasty and mean I know but I am happier adn better for it. I am sure I will cop it tomorrow from my shrink...

Oh I have to share these pics with you all.

Matts GF Katy has a horse named Missy. We went and helped her clean out her stable and then Katy decided that Charlie could have a ride on her.

So yeah she had a ball. was on her for a good 20 mins. She has natural talent too Katy said.....