This might be a bit sensitive to some people on here so i apolagise. well one of our two dogs "midnight" has just got to go. yesterday she was chaseing our sheep again!, and they are pregnant too. she chased them all over the wall of the dam, so i freaked out cause i didn't know if she had hurt any or not. it certainly looked like she did. anyway she never comes when you call her either. so i was yelling and yelling for her, but she wouldn't stop. i had to run down and grab her and drag her back up to the house. the other day she chased our neighbours new born calf into the dam eek!, she just chases everything. she got hit by one of my day care kids parents car the other day. everytime i tie her up she chews through the rope. so i put her on a chain yesterday, and she may have strangled her by now, as the last time she was on it i took her of cause she kept raping herself round and round stupid dog!. i am just so over the dog. i do not have time to keep chaseing it, and worrying about were its going, and if its going to kill our livestcok or the neighbours live stock ARGH!!. i want the dog shot now! i am so over it. ok anyway thats my problem at the moment. hub won't be back for a week still, so i'm going to have to keep her chained up till he gets back. its sounds so cruel, and i feel so very bad. its just something that has to be done though. i can't have her killing our stock or the neighbours stock and there is no point haveing a dog that has to be chained up all the time. plus no one else wants a dog like that either, so i can't giver her away.

On another note i've had a great week. had a friend come round yesterday morning for coffie. then spent the rest of the day getting anoyed about the dog lol. i have enroled in doing cert III in childrens services, but i'm not sure when the paperwork will arive. i really wanna get going on it now and get it out of the way. i really can't make up my mind about what i wanna do in the future. i feel like perhaps i would still like to have a couple more children, but then again, i'm really not sure. i really enjoy doing family daycare, but maybie becomeing a teacher would be better for later down the track. or..i could become an acountant which i started some years ago. i started with cert III in financial services, so then i could go on to do cert 4 and work up to get my diploma ect. i just really don't know. i can feel myself getting bored, so i need to get a firm goal in my mind, so i can stay focused. its funny though isn't it. its hard for teenegers to make up ther mind what they wan tot do with there lives and here we are much older and still so many of us can't make up our mids exactly which career path we wanna take. i think it ends up being whatever works at the time, whatever fits in with what your doing at the time i think. originally hubb and i decided once we had moved here, that we would have a couple more kids in about 2 years time, but now i just don't know. i could deffinatley cope with more children, and i think we could afford it, but i'm just wondering if its really something we want. everything is going so well right now, and getting so much easier that maybie i wouldn't wanna make things harder for ourselves. life seems to be so easy now days.