The kids have gone. We havae had them 2 weeks in a row and for about the last 5 weekends. Im at my wits end i dont know what to do. I have tried so hard with them but dont seem to get anywhere. They have their mum and dad they dont need me and they make that clear. I no it sounds silly they r only young but not stupid. When they want something toys, things like that they come to me, when it comes to cuddles playing they go straight to ryan i no its instinct but i been with ryan for over a year now and they treat me like i dont no. I have spoke to ryan about it i thinkhe understands but nothing gets done i dont know what to do i have tried the talk im not your mum but im here 4 u and it dont sink in Jake the youngest ok he is 2 so dpont really understand but connor the oldest he 5 he knows better he isnt stupid i dont no what to do i feel like giving up!!!

i put in my family bit on my homepage jake is 3 he isnt yet he is still 2 lol

Isnt it a bummer when your trying for a baby and you come on nearly a year now must be something wrong. Ryan just dosnt seem as bothered as me maybe he just isnt showing his feelings like most men he does not like to show how he feels or mabe cos he thinks well i already have two so there is no need to worry but i guess i need to ask him that hey. The weather is misrable oh well thats our summer gone lol x

The kids have gone at last what a week! now all i have to do is prise my husband off from the telly, he is so diffrent since he has got back from iraq so withdrawn and quite i know he must of been threw a lot just wish i could help him but i cant if he wont talk to me hopefully things should get better soon just gotta give it time.

I had a lovely lie in this morning and its a sunny day. Going to a bbq today so i hope the weather stays nice.

Well i say better but have a bit of a hang over lol. Been up sice stupid o clock with the kids great fdun lol.