J is a lot better today. He is at day care now. J was bugging me at 4am this morning to go to daycare and school so I let him go. The day care staff know what has happened and are going to keep an eye on him for me.

The bump on his head has gone down quite a bit and doesn't look so red and angry this morning. So hopefully it will be okay.

The doctors aren't sure what the lump is under my scar. They are thinking it may be a congealed blood clot. If that is the case it will go down in time. The antibiotics they have me on are pretty strong and will help to keep the infection at bay. But if I start feeling ill with a temp and nausea etc I have to go back to the doc. I'm just waiting on an appt to go to the outpatients clinic to have a needle put in to it under ultrasound to have it investigated further.

At least the docs have stopped talking about a hernia! If that is what the lump is then it would mean more surgery and an extra 8 weeks off work. That would mean I would lose my job. The staff can't keep covering for me for much longer. They are exhausted and want off. I am so grateful to them for taking my shifts and I want to get back to work as soon as I can. Being at home is driving me crazy!

So here is hoping my 'cycle of suck' is nearing it's completion and life will get back to normal!