Definatley spoke too soon when I said things had taken a strange tern for the better...... oh yea!  today things became back to very very crappy :( went to see if...? now we dont own a house, i cld get some help we poll tax n ren?????t ermmmm no!

Well 97p a wk off polltax so thats a bummer as i now pay an exra £600 a year and the rents £300 a mnth more than the morgage was...this is not how things were ment to be!.

But maybe i sldnt complain were ok we dont have to move but it wld have took some pressure off bobby working 44 hrs a week and dreading anouther unpaid day off when bailey needs hospital appointments and admissions, and y'just never know whats rd the corner.... we were just over on bobbys income so were gonna get some advice n see if he can drop a few hrs and then we'd get £85 a week towards rent and he cld come to baileys therapy that wld be ace as i have routines for bailey that bobby just doesnt get,.... theres techniques for encouraging his posture etc that just go in one ear and out the other coz he doesnt see them do it with him and se the results like i do.

Feeling like everytime somethings going well, something else is rdy to bulldoze me, honestly i must be the unluckiest person everything bad thats happened has just happened its not like i brought any of it on myself or someone hates me infact id rather someone hated me compared to the crap lifes been throwing at me lately i think id rather someone smashed the car window or bad mouthed me least that kinda stuff u can deal with on face value, how am i suppose to react to ur child needs half his brain removing but u have to watch him fitting daily for nearly 8mnths then the op wont work and he'll be in icu after a blood transfusion, then we'll tease u with a taste of its a miracle hes ok to change tactics 4 mnths later and oh more surgery urghhhhh, i just wanna explode but what do i do drive the car into the tree hit the nest person that pees me off right between the eyes trash the house???????????? noo coz it wont help and there is no easy fix is there? just gotta tk what ever life gives me and hope theres some mercy soon x

oh winge ova now to ring rd dog kennels for koko whilst baileys in....so far were on £10 a day he cld be in 2 wks + sob sob there goes anouther 140 quid sob sob.....he definatly wont be in 48 days they cld have kept the flammin dog

(((hugs)))