Last night I took a deep breath and tried to handle things like him, you know how men just manage to forget things pretend nothings happend he knows he upset me and I'm really too tired to argue so had his tea ready house tidy Mackenzie sorted. Then as usual he carried on without a thought for me buggered off on xbox after an hr I was getting really annoyed and dragged everything up in my head I know stupid but I'm just so fed up at the moment we agreed Macs bedtime would be 8pm so he cld get home have tea relax then spend an hour with Mac but he;s not then he;s annoyed because I did'nt tell him he walks with you room to room. I can understand that he misses things he doesnt get to spend alot of time with him but come on he's going in other room and shutting the door so Mac's with me all the time he rarely says dada now always mum mum its not easy for me being the mum on call 24/7 anyway I asked him if he would bath him for me as he didnt do it sunday with the ? sis coming round and then he went mad he was relaxing whats wrong why cant he see he cant have it both ways have you ever met a child that will only do something new on cue so we can both see it ....nope? Anyway after a fuss he bathed him it took 15min then he shut him in front room with me again I took him to bed at 8pm came down and sat alone untill 10.30 before I gave up and went to bed. He soon followed and suprise he had no idea I was upset....grrrr bloody men

We ended up talking for 2 hours about things hadnt turned out how we thought and now hes got to see it from my point of view we decided to have a baby Ive picked up the slack my lifes changed so much being a mum and he carried on as normal I cant think of one thing he stook to atall so when hes saying how its going to be with no2 i just think yea right!!!! The truth is im having anouther baby he'll tell me how tired he is what a had day hes had at weekend its his weekend time off is his time off because he works me i get a brak when mac naps emm I dont know about you but thats me preping his tea doing the washing cleaning the house putting the rubbish out sorting through all the bills so when he says weres this?? i can say front room cupboard 3rd draw down left hand side if i dont ......well you get the picture.

Im so annoyed he's great in so many ways i think right now im that dam angry at him i cant think of one like i told him last night i respect what he does i respect he works hard earns the money pays the bills and ive nothing to wory about but me i spend hrs doing his ewashing and drying and ironing which i get told off for putting away so to mk it easy i lay all his clothes on the bed jeans tops jumpers shirts work clothes so he has piles ready to put away his self and he piles them bk up into one and puts it on the floor then drags a garment out of the pile as he needs it emm nice hes tired i run him a bath he leaves it i clean it hes stressed at work i mk sure house is tidy his meals are ready fill the fridge with his beers and he leaves his emptys were he finnishes them....so basically he undoes all i do he does nothing for me  never runs me a bath so does that give me the right to say well stuff you im gonna go spend all your hard earned dosh on crap for kicks nope......arghhh

sorry guys i really need to get all this out even after we talked i know he just hasnt got it he says hes sorry he says he'll try but im just sick of hearing it

is it me am i hormonal arghh dont answer that i know the answer because this isnt me but untill his mother visited there was no problem ok he was still annoying but least he wasnt moody and nasty with me i asked him what else his mum said coz i wasnt there i was upstairs when he told her i cld here bobby but not her even tho i cldnt tell what he was saying i know theres something else with the way hes been he was talking too fast and too much he usually says very little to his mum.....what is it with men women tlk get it out sort through it men nah lets be stupid idiots if i upset her enough she'll work it out if i cld turn the clock bk id have put a glass to the floor i knew some thing was wrong and now im getting it again

sorry i know im going on but i was so close to ringing my dad last night im so tired i dont want to argue i just want it all to stop life will never be perfect but 36hrs ago it was a whole lot better than this, not a dam word to that woman in 14mnths but me ive had it all now i feel like i cant even say anything he doesnt bk me up and im that hormonal pregnant woman thats trapped her precous son great....

thankyou all for understanding it was so nice to log on and see your support form yesturdays blog xox

hugs jo xxx