Been kinda a tuff wk since wednesday I dunno why i didnt just get checked out I guess I just did'nt wanna admitt anything was wrong but 3 times I had really bad contrctions, its weird how many things are different with a second baby even tho my pregnancys gone reasonably well things have happend so quick I don't rem alot of the lil glitches like braxton hicks now knowing the signs of labour its hard to distiguise...but I plucked up the courage to ring and mk sure today, I spoke to help line last wk but its diff as they dont know your history today i gt my midiwfe and im normal....lol i am!!!!

as im going hossy on wednesday they'll check me over but she doesnt see any major problems occuring before then they think the mucus might just be with me carrying quiet big babies and having a tilted pelvis the pressures mounting, they'll just mk sure my cervix hasnt started sofening and for infection

i know i souldnt but i kinda hope my cervix is, not that i want a prem baby just it might indicate he'll be sooner rather than later and im thinking natural wld be nice this time

I rem my ant saying to my mum that she felt cheated having had a section were as my mum had me naturally she thought shed missed out on the final herdle, i never really gt that i was just pleased as punch to be a mum how the baby came didnt matter but i can see now it will be easier having a toddler lets just hope my body is totally screwed having a tilted pelvis and womb causes certain prob if there tilted against each other im effectively blocked.....?

This weekend my sister who was a great help with mac is being alkward id asked her right at the beginning if she'd look after mac whilst im in labour all of a sudden she isnt bothered whats happening infact she was plain nasty this weekend she didnt wanna know what was happening what we'd gt for bub it was all about her and then she announces shes booked her holidays for wk before babys due meaning she'll return to work if baby arrives on due date so thats leaves me stuffed!!!!

I think shes a bit niffed because I havent asked her to be there at the birth,  but for all any one knows right now anouther c section cld be on the cards and only bobbys allowed in theatre what does she want me to do, puch bobby out? i didnt really want her there last time she rang to see how id been getting on morning i was in labour found out i had started at home before they cld induse me and arrived of her own accord....and did i mind no i just let it all slide so now i think shes being completely unreasonable and selfish arghhh

but on a brighter side my brother came up the weekend strange i know lol risking his presious bmw in this naighbourehood lmao!!!! his wife has been having ivf again hes so hopefull talking about what he sld buy asking loadsa questions she hasnt been inplanted yet and hes ready to spoil this lill baby, so nice to see him so happy, i really hope it works for them this time his wifes lovely and it cant bea easy trying again and again for it to fail, hes even picked out a bmw car seat from dealership well untill i pointed out his wife drives a punto but its fine he'll buy one of them too...lol this kids gonna hve so many gadgets i think she'll be needing his car haha

oh my darling son is awake i hear, lets see what he can do now this morning i found him loading the washer so cute i just stood there watching him when he pulled it all bk out again lol he did help me do the washing later tho...bless how long do you think it will be before he can do pots?..........................hahahaha

ciya xoxoxoxoxox