I was a little tence after the hospital yestureday I forgot about the good bit's, I may have gotten no were, but Mac, he had a great time, and made me so proud sharing toys and his sweets with this adorable little girl who was a yr older than him ...tut tut... lol... just like his daddy hahaha

I noticed his behaviour was better afterwards too I suppose he gt some contenment from the experience hes been lovely today too although it must have tired him out yesturday as he slept till almost 11am, he wasnt happy about being got up yesturday, he gave me this scunchy face n threw his head back down..... as if he was saying "yer right you know what you can do if you think im getting up at this time" lol

I just wish that I cld take him out more but right now I cant after yesturerday I feel a bit scared of going to far alone, told bobby last night and he thinks it cld have just been a stitch but then you worry about it being worst dont you, and anxiety kicks in because like he said im fine at weekends rd town centre in supermarket etc its just happing when im alone and i have to admitt i do worry if something happend macs reasonably safe in house with me but if we were out he aint gonna be ringing daddy for me and you cant guarentee someone will be around to help....god its sounds daft outting it all out there, but there it is ....