Well following my check up guess what im admitted yet again fearing that my scar from the c section with mac was opening up 19 mnths later arghh, thankfully its not feeeew!!!!! could you imagine?

In my case it was much simpler thankfully, when id had my check up she'd had a feel to see were bub was and if the head and started engaging it hurt now i hate that midwife anyway and i told her she hurt me she didnt apologise just fobbed me off with the usual "well it is goin g to be tender etc etc" that night i was still sore really sore and noticed my undies seemed to be stuck to my belly omg infection.....it looks like when she dug in like she was digging for gold her nail had cut into me....now im aware that there over worked that it was prob accidental these things happen but when i was at the hospital they tried to make out it was my fault that such an infection wouldnt have broken out so quickly therfor it must be downto my personnal hygien...what? they really got there backs up about this all im saying is this happened and maybe if they just reminded all there staff to wash there hand between each patient we all mk mistakes but to blame me and be so rude really pees me off, to mk it worst id been worrying hes returned to breech position after feeling a shift that stopped me in my tracks so the night before bobby took care of mac whilst i got some time to pamper me i came out of that bathroom like a bloody prune im pretty sure my personnal hygien isnt an issue but especially after a bath and shower in less than 12 hrs arghhh....now i feel like making an official complaint the gits.

Any way its getting better just have to hope she lisened to my wishes to see my prefered midwife im getting really peed off with her making sure its her ev time when she knows id prefer the other, she doesnt like me and i dont like her so why go out of her way to piss me off all the dam time?

To top all that off macs been really ill, this cold hes got just seems to get worst by the day not better he has one really good hr every night were he goes crazy but i think thats the effects of a day on calpol and tixylix, on the one hand seeing him ill is horrible but ....i get cuddles all day, i dont really get much else done...lol.... and hes now given it to me aswell but i have enjoyed him being close very rare from mac hes such an independant lill boy, he seems better today were hoping more so in the morning as he sould be going to his cousins birthday party...?

well best get myself to bed i suppose wouldnt wanna be running late tomorrow might forget to shower who knows i might turn purple if i neglect my hygien routine....lol

take care ladies ill try to catch up soon xox