Well as you read I was in a foul mood tottally pissed off with everything and i woke up stressed moody too I sat here practically in tears getting more and more wound up about everything feeling pretty alone really, you dont relise kids pick up on these things we all know but you forget when things are on your mind but i gt a little reminder .... mac he just came over with his cheeky smile and touched my face bless him hes never done that before but it was lovely and gt me to snap out of it, we got ready to go rd to the shops to get all the things it forgot like macs cordial plus i wanted some rasberry tea but they didnt have any hes had orders to get some on his way home from the main supermarket.

When we gt bk mac carried on being his usual lovely self so hes been spoilt with strawberrys and choc, and the post was behind the door the long awaited house valuation has arrived OH YEA!!!!!! in just under 5 yrs weve doubled the house value so all im gonna say from now on is "i wanna move i wanna move" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

ok so hes still a prize prat but he cant help it hes male and looking at the witch he came from i suppose hes doing quiet well lmao

i dunno sometimes i think ive done it myself if i hadnt done it all for so long maybe he wld help more to be honest i rather do the house work but id like to think hed spend that time he has then we mac not being a dogs body for everyone else coz i know he'll regret it when macs grown up he cant get the time bk and as many diff ways i try to tell him that it doesnt register....

all i get is do you want this done?...why dont men see it like us of course i want a lovely house who doesnt and hes done everything i wanted him to do, but the house isnt a buliding site any more the finnishing off jobs cld have been completed long ago if he wasnt for ever getting distracted with favours for other ppl that are never returened i asked him a few mnths bk to give mac 1 weekend a mnth were he spent it with him taking him to the park wacky warehouse or even panting in the house with him all those things he doesnt get to do with him when hes working all week and every dam weekend some thing comes up!!!!

oh well nt alot i can do about it all now i think we need a tlk tonight tho, i think the babys head really dropped im getting alot of stabbing pains down there i can hardly sit forward i just feel like i wanna pop so the vac's still waiting and i gt a shit load of washing to sort out at the end of the day if its not done now hes gonna have alot more running rd to do whilst im in hossy its up to him really...