ok so this year has been all over the place but were good gotta baby on way and bobbys been working his tushy off we the house hes still home he doesnt go bk untill thursday in some ways ill be glad haha but macs loving having his daddy around i think he enjoys that bobbys that lill bit ruffer than me they have a m8t thing going on macs his lill dude but to me hes my baby and still will he when hes 6ft looking down on momma hehe.

Is it just me that reflects alot at this time of year through all the crap mainly we the mil we have had a good year the saddest bits have been watching others suffer, it all mks you relise how lucky you are. we havent been ill we havent lost our home we built on what we had and managed to stay afloat, then were blessed with anouther baby on the way i feared this all going tits up but its looking good. maybe xmas makes you wera rose tinted glasses but i think it shows us what we miss all year rd with getting caught up in petty crap that really doesnt matter.

oh well im babbling you know i think the heatings too high im sure nt drunk lol, its just the mil rang today shes coming rd tomorrow took 2 calls at nap time to get to that conclution grr but it didnt bother me so much i think having 2 weeks mil free well i didnt have to see her hehe getting xmas as we wanted has made me kinda humble plus on the bright side its the last time ill see her this year lol it cld have been longer but hey gotta go we ya got right?

hope things are looking good for 2008 for all ya minti pals xox

hugs jo xxx

Getting really excited now xmas is over the house is so close to finnally being finnished we go to baby clinic on wednesday and we sould be hearing bubba heart beat for the first time, and bobby will be there to he usually only attends the scans with work but luckily he goes bk on ...thursday, why I dunno lol then  by the time I've popped my head outta cookoo land well be off to the hossy for the scan although that makes me a little nervous we have to go to see some specialist about how this bubba's gonna be born. But I've still got finding out the sex and seeing how much my bubba has grown to look forward to.

As we all know iIcan winge quiet alot and unbelievably I dont tell you guys everything which is why I have my mad moments getting stressed out but I dunno some how it feels really good at the moment things are going good we have more than we thought we'd have by this point and it still feels like theres so much to look forward to...who would have thought we'd be doing up houses planning an hol to Auz to see some of you guys and look for a home in the sunshine, maybe xmas was stressful but then the kids enjoyed it and iot made me relise just how many positive things we have going on the stupid mil etc etc ...were not starting now...hehe pale into insignificance who cares soon she'll be a blip at the other side of the world and we can always say to our kids we did everything we could to give you the best life we could.

I hope you all have a very hapy new year I think my moto for the year is going to be "life is what you mk of it" very true don't you think no matter how many annoyences you control your life and we all have to mk the odd sacrifice, aslong as I can tip the balance in our favour for the majority of the time thats good enough for me xox

I don't expect too many changes this year there alot to do but everyday means were a step closer to our dreams 6 years into our relationship I never thought we'd be even half way here my mum and dad bless them have worked all there lives and still there striving to achieve there dreams 30 years on.

 Oh all that babbling I almost forgot to tell ya the baby kicks and does somersaults lol had to start in the car tho I was so annoyed when the lights changed we were having our special moment lol typical isnt it  when yur waiting for the lights to change your sat there in a pile up for a week hehe

yeah i know not exactly how your supposed to feel but i need sleep desperatly we think weve pleased everyone well if not tuff hehe after spending a month dragging mac away from the pressies under the tree he found it a little bizarre to be given them all to rip through even with some help he looked a little bemused..poor thing, and as predicted spent the majority of the time playing with the wrap and boxes although his fav was a tube of milky bar buttons...lol think of the money mummy cld have saved not to mention santas time.

but he got too much as usual the mil didnt lisen as usual and although she phoned like a million times we havent seen her at all, good job really she rang so many times he almost told her to f off with being so busy getting house ready (its late now but i have a pic of my house on xmas eve morn you wont believe we did it ...i still dont) then when we got all the house sorted the buffet cooked too much mum florgot her insulin guess what shes ill today as she wouldnt lisen to my anger whilst shoveling gauteau in after poffita rolls and smarties i cracked i just couldnt beleive whta she was doing its not only her health at steak but our xmas to, all we could think was shes gonna end up in a&e i tell ya what id have dont for a crazy drunk old uncle least they dose off lol

pressie wise we did quiet well got alot of alchol strangly i thought as im pregnant!!!! grr lol but i got clothes smellys jewellery all the nice girly things and my suprise a "i love my mum" pic frame we the cutest pic in it, bobby got same old wallet clothes watch money beer.....and mac dont ask we hit the sales today hes still getting now....

oh and we didnt forget the dog she got a doggie selection box too hehe

right now were just so glad its over the house can get its finnishing touches without all the dead lines i can excape to the sales n spoil my lill man then return to a dust free house for a nice bath in my new bathroom ...believe me 6 mnths we no bathroom really mks you appretiate those lill home comforts...

hope you all had a good one were relaxing till june i may well hibernate for the next few mnths im that tired ..xox

ARGHH WERE RUNNING OUTTA TIME FAST ITS NOW FRIDAY 3PM AND HES STILL LATTING THE WALLS FOR PLASTER BOARDING SO ITS LOOKING LIKE HE'LL HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO WORK TILL LATE WITH ALL THE CRAP THAT DROPPED WHEN WE DISCOVERED THE BROKEN JOIST MY CARPETS ARE BLK MY RUG RUINED THATNK GOD WE HAVE LEATHER SOFAS WIPE CLEAN I DONT THINK I CAN TK MUCH MORE IT JUST ALL SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE IF WE REALLY GET TO THE POINT WERE WE JUST CANT DO IT AT TIME WELL HAVE TO GO TO MY MUM AND DADS HOUSE IM SURE THEY WONT MIND AS ITS ALL OUR FAMILY ANYWAY AND WEVE DONE THE FOOD AND DRINK SHOPPING JUST THERE KITCHEN I NEED LOL.

FEELS SO CRAP RIGHT NOW SISTERS ASKING ARE YOU NEARLY THERE GOOD JOB SHE HASNT SEEN OUR HOUSE SHED FREEK WEVE BEEN PLANNING THIS FOR WEEKS BUT THIS IS WHEN HE HAD TIME OFF TO DO THE WORK ARGHHH...SO WERE PLODDING ALONE TRYING OUR BEST AS WE WOULD LIKE TO STICK TO THE ORIGINAL PLAN AND NOT LET ANYONE DOWN ESPECIALLY THE KIDS REALLY.

AND I FEEL SO USELESS BECAUSE I CANT DO ANYTHING UNTILL HE PUTS THE KITCHEN BK TOGETHER UPSTAIRS I THOUGHT I HAD SORTED TILL HE WALKED ALL THE DUST UP THE STAIRS BUT THAT'LL HAVE TO BE SHAMPOOED WE REST N WHEN ONE OF US CAN WATCH MAC ANOUTHER PAIR OF HANDS AND EYES WOULD COME I REALLY HANDY...LOL

OH THEN THE MIL RINGS ASKING AGAIN IF HES GOING TO SEE HIS GRANDMA WHICH WED PLANNED TO DO BOXING DAY BUT SHE WANTS TO GO...THATS FINE BUT WHY CANT HER FELLA TK HER I SWEAR SHES DOING IT ON PURPOSE SHES DELAYED OUR HOUSE FORSD VISITS ON US AND NOW SHES GONNA RUIN XMAS I THINK NOT.

IT MAY SOUND LIKE IM BEING A LITTLE MEAN BUT IF YOU KNEW THE FULL STORY YOUD GET ME SHES DOING THIS BECAUSE WE ARNT GOING TO HER MUMS FOR BOXING DAY AS WEVE BEEN FOR THE PAST 5 YRS THERES NOTHING FOR MAC TO DO BUT OF COURSE THE WAY SHE SEES IT ITS ME GETTING MY WAY....BUT THEN I FOUND OUT HER OTHER SON THE ONE THAT LIVES AT HOME WITH HER ISNT SPENDING XMAS WITH HER EITHER HE'S OPTED FOR HIS DADS LOOKS LIKE ITS SINKING IN SHES WAY TO CLINGY AND NEEDY AND NEEDS TO RELISE HER BOYS ARE 20 & 23 YRS OLD BOBBY WITH HIS OWN SECOND CHILD ON THE WAY.

OH I DUNNO JUST NEEDED A MOAN I MIGHT NOT HAVE TIME TO GET ANOUTHER IN LOL BUT IS IT UNREASONABLE TO WANT TO START YOUR OWN XMAS TRADITIONS WHEN YOU HAVE A FAMILY ITS NOT LIKE SHES EVER INVITED US FOR XMAS DINNER AND BOXING DAY SHE NEVER HOSTS A PARTY ITS HER MUM I THINK THE POOR WOMAN DESERVES A BREAK.

OH 1 MORE THING MK SURE I KEEP THIS PROMISE NXT YR WERE DEF GOING AWAY I DONT CARE WERE BUT WERE GOING NO ONES COMING WITH RUINING OUR PLANS LIKE THIS YEAR WEREE OFF!!!!!

OH I DO FEEL BETTER NOW ARE YOU READY...SOME ONE PLZ TELL ME NO THEY SAY THERES ALWAYS SOME ONE WORST OFF WERE R U ? HEHEHE

HUGS JO XXX

Well hello I haven't blogged since tuesday because I havent had a min to get online since then the renovations were all going well the schedual TIGHT!!!! but we were happily plodding along when we removed the tongue and grove in the kitchen and some boarding we'd assumed was just covering pipes......oh how wrong can you be?

It revealed the original joist supporting the upper level of the house had broken ...ok the house was built in 1800 and they used wooden joists but the last bright spark had decided no we wont get a builder in well put a length of 3x2 and wedge it in with a brick....MORONS it was right above our head as we entered the kitchen weve been living here for almost 4 years without a clue it could have gone at any time....what makes me so mad is that this couple covered it up payed good money to add a professional attic extention adding more weight and they had kids...and allowed us to carry on non the wiser with a young child it could have killed.

Luckily we have a builder in the family with all the rods to prop the house up asap and a concreat joist is now in place thankfully were all fine bobbys a little bruised from falling bricks and the renos delayed a day not good when we need the kitchen back in place by xmas eve to cook for the party xmas day.

Other than that were good Mac's great I think Daddy being at home's suiting him everyday he does something new yesturday he learned to say dirty! and understands now dirty means dont touch bless I think thats his 10th word I really sould be listing them hes amazing us with his speach all the time, today nothing to great but he puts his finger in his mouth to mk a popping sound we have no idea were he got it from but its so cute, now just to teach him to pout for a kiss the "jaws" impressions getting scarier by the min with all his teeth lol.

And finally me ...Im huge its a nightmare trying to get rd the house with all the kitchen cupboards in my living room and tiny weeny lill gaps to get through its not much fun...if only I could breath in...hehe

So the mad house is still in progress and I hope to get on at some point before xmas but if not I hope you all have a ball!!!!

Hugs Jo xxx

emm am i ...lol or maybe its just looking forward to the house being finnished bathroom is officially done i have flooring woohoo 6 mnths of splinters from floor boards every morning....&%^&^%&^% tomorrow the kitchen well knocking down a wall of the extention blocking up a doorway we knocked through and hopefully ripping out my entire kitchen to have the tonge n grove removed and replaced with plaster board and of course the kitchens to be bk in and looking lovely by xmas eve at the very latest we havent even bought the new work tops yet...hope there in stock!

so that my week im well and truly flat out ...but its nice to see all the hard work coming together finally, macs not ben well today so my ironing awaits me still...he's sleeping peacefully now though so were hoping it was just a 24 hr bug.

other than that im getting fat...well fatter...hehe i swear it happens at night i better stop sleeping nothing will fit on xmas day and a nude host...not appropriate? its driving me crazy i know i showed early but i feel like im 6 mnths gone, had 2 scans and im still not convinced there isnt one hiding behing the other....lol

hope yor all having fun planning your xmas celebrations xoxo

ps im usually very good at takin my alcohol and lots of it too hehe but as im preggie you'll have to drink for me too have fun....xxx

hugs jo xxx

well today or sld i say tonight for me has been rather diss-heartening i came on minti looking for a giggle and were are you all? seems my xmas spirit went flying down the stairs with me and crash landed...

i notice some upset between members not that i really understand what your on about with not being online yesturday and ill thank you all not to tell me i need some hope of my xmas cheer returning you know....

i hope when i return its to a happier more festive minti, although when ill have time to get online is anyones guess ...

oh 1am officially 7 days till xmas here....great that means so much to do so little time

but what evers the matter put it to one side plz soon be new year and time for a new start by the looks of things...

hugs to you all jo xxx

 

Just Bobbys suprise to go and get and he finnishes work at 430 untill after the new year although hes lots to do around the house, but it means he'll be here to tk me werever i need to go, saves me shopping taking buses and taxis plus some one to get up with mac hehehe bliss...lol

Actually it will be nice not to rushing across the landing in a panic macs monitors decided its going to work when it wants too luckily hes happy to play but ill sleep untill when ever not so good for keeping a routine.

There is one small downside no not him getting under my feet although im sure ill be pushing through the door after a week lol its the familiar "favours" can you just....so time to get the NO in practice weve a house to get ready most ppl arnt ripping out there kitchen blocking up doorways layng slate flooring oh and of course the kitchens to go bk in and new worktops to be fitted hes got a week so no time for that "lift"  arghh why did we cancel the holiday? boohoo

so better go gotta get mr grumpy up naps done and ready to go....plz dont let there be ques just hope everyones still at work xx

have a great day everyone and just incase i dont have time to pop in i wish you all the best xmas and newyear xoxo

hugs jo xxx

It's amazing seeing my little baby yesturday has eased my mind so much, I really was fearing the worst that moment were there looking at the screen and you cant see is awful trying to read what there thinking wondefring if there trying to work out how to tell you your worst nightmare has just become reality, luckily for me that wasnt the case, what a relief!!!!!

And I always said I thought I cld feel something from about 12weeks I know a bit soon but its not kicking just a feeling a movement inside suddenly no matter how hard I tried I cldnt feel when I thought I did I put it down to wishful thinking or picking up my own pulse...but now things are fine and I've seen with my own eye's I think I can feel it moving again yay!!!!

We went to his dad's last night for tea his dad cooks yes his dad made spag bol even mac had some little traitor would'nt eat mummy's grr lol, so I felt pretty pampered after yesturday things are as they sould be I did'nt have to cook but then ahh reality......we've got 12 day's to christmas I got my neice visiting tonight with her boyfreind and a house well as you can imagine after the past few day's.....Arghhhhh sums it up and I sould be resting so I've done what I can...quick tidy up leaving the vacuming for bobby to do..haha to be fair he has burried the vac in the cupboard why is a man's way of cleaning up just to pile it in?, don't they think yer but what happens when u need vac?...lol

Any way as you can see things are getting better here even though I did get told off for not letting my sister and my brother know I'd fallen....but I knew they were both working and thought what can they do? just felt odd to ring up and say oh just to let you know I fell down the stairs...to be honest the only person I wnted when it happend was bobby who came home straight away and took me to the hospital.

So as Lui suggested I think some lists might help havent started on christmas cards yet or decided what were having at the buffet great host me huh lol plus theres 101 jobs still to do i guess they'll help keep us on schedual...

sorry havent wrote any cards yet guys but i wish you all the best xmas and you can have all my drinks as i cant hehe xxx

hugs jo xxx

Were fine I'm so happy to say went to clinic today saw my usual midwife she tried again to get the heart beat but like she said its really to soon and the hospital souldnt have raised my hopes....rightly so as she cldnt get it either but arranged for me to vist the hospital i had a doctor with a mobile scan unit have a look and i seen my baby and the little herat beat....after spending most of last night trying to feel something it was great to see i think i was grinning form ear to ear lol

 right now my only plans are to tk it easy stop running rd and be pampered my backs still very sore and ive got a nerve in my leg that keps trapping but being less mobile has its advantages i cant do anything yay looks like bobbys gonna have alot to do nxt week just as he thought he was getting a holiday hehe

so a very happy mummy and bump must go to bed night all have a great day xoxoxo

hugs jo xxx

So things are looking good still in agony with my back, it's 2pm and I feel like I could go to bed for a week, coping with Mac to day's been hard but still no bleeding and no pain tryed to see if baby was active this morning but no... so I'm worried sick right now I'm booked in at 2.15 with my midwife tomorrow I really need to hear the heart beat, I thought I was ok yesturday, but after Mac went to bed I just burst into tears the fear of not knowing, going through losing anouther child terrifies me, I know they said it's early and it can be difficult to detect the heart beat but I really wanna hear it waiting untill the 2nd of january is way to long to not know  so fingers crossed I'll know tomorrow xox

 

had one hell of a day today i fell down the stairs top to bottem and bloody hell it hurts lucky me manages to bounce on every dam step broke the hand rail i finnally stopped when i got to the bottem and stubbed my toe on safety gate, rang bobby straight away to come home, which he did then weve spent an hr on the phone being pushed bk n forth from hospital to doctors surgery when finnally a lady at delivery said ill see you although they souldnt untill 20 weeks but with me in a real state she knew i just wanted to hear my baby. Although as it turns out we couldnt...so were left hoping for the best on wednesday ill see my midwife so she can try again she says not to worry as its very early the babys well padded and i have scar tissue from mac so that makes it that little bit harder to lisen.

so im home very sore covered in buises i went down on my back so thats anouther good sign and havent had any bleeding or pain other than my bruises of course. i just feel like such a fool how stupid mac was crying in the hallway id gone to get him a change of clothes coz hed leaked panicing thinking hed hurt his self and woosh down i went.

but im being pampered lets just hope things are ok xox

ok i feel better now lol, had a busy day shopping again the whole worlds gone mad mad i tell you why is it xmas brings out the worst in everyone they have no manners cant drive or is that just indicate and steer..??? arghh a very crazy day but we got what we needed for today came home finnished the tree woohoo well finnished when i find something to go on top .....is it just here or has the retail trade forgotten about trimmings looks to me like there just too busy getting kids to sceam I WANT I WANT!!!!! lol

Then .....can you guess its sunday so Mil same old story rings at 430pm 6 pm comes and goes no sign or her 645 he phoned mac was soo tired from shopping bless him and grumpy coz daddy accidently hit him in the head with the box from the xmas tree..tut tut, anyway she said she'd set off some arghhhhhhhhh (ill be doing alot or that) gets here at 730 so she didnt really bother with the soon after all i know it doesnt tk that long to get here.........and xmas cards shes been convienently forgetting for 3 weeks arrive and im demoted to partner hum hum excuse me engaged 6 yrs mother of your first and only grandchild soon to be mother of two........arghhhhhhhhhhhhh, then she drags out this cataloge panflet thing says she wants to get mac this err 6 months+ hes grown out of it before she bought it so we asked if shed mind a voucher instead, i stayed very calm (well concidering.....shes a poisen dwarf) and explained his birthday was sept and hes already too much its quiet expencive and i wouldnt want it to be wasted. Still not happy she insisted it wld be 6months-3yrs....odd? i dont think ive seen toys starting at 6 months that go to 3 yrs anyway she cldnt argue with blk and white (ME RIGHT lol) but who knows what she will do...............arghhhh sorry just had to get one last scream in .....oh hurry up xmas time without her i cant wait a xmas i might just enjoy for once 6 yrs its been a long time coming.

So as you can see my day started ok then got worst and worst with one annoying idiot after anouther........oh well monday in the morning some normality and bobby finnishes work friday off till 3rd january ill be sleeeeeeeeeppppppppppppiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnngggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALOT

HUGS JO XXX

Today we went shopping of course its saturday, as you know I love to shop first we went to B&Q in a despertae attempt to get my black and white trimmings but the only shop stocking them is always out of stock but I did get two advent calenders the ones you choose the treat rather than just chocoalte everyday so pleased with them.

But the best bit was bumping into an old freind ive known all my life, haven't seen her since me n bobby moved in together she adopted my sisters dog a while bk and guess what shes pregnant due 1 day before me how weird is that? we then came bk into our town centre bumped into her again lol and again at tesco's supermarket...weird huh weirder i had this sixth sense we'd keep meeting and we did...

Thats not the only starnge experience since ive been pregnant im really tapping into it now after my scan last week id text teshia with the news, then left my phone at home when we'd gone shopping that evening and it had tried to send "nothing to declare..." weird its not a saved message or one either me or bobby had wrote so what was it has teshia something to declare? weve racked our brains and nothing explains it, then i had an odd feeling something was going to go wrong with our dryer, no idea why its 12mnths old and works fine but i knew... at closer inspection £1.50 trapped in the seal saved me a bomb on repairs weird ? then whilst out id asked bobby if we cld go home another way id felt really ill and said forget all that i just wanna go home if you go in right hand lane here we can follow the main rd min later the left hand lane set off and a dog ran across the rd unharmed luckily but we cld see all cars slamming on...maybe wed have hit someone maybe the dog who knows ?!?!

Anyway enough of that me shopping todays been freezing i mean freezing, pouring down all day, lill cherubs takin up a lill too much room for my coat and my new one has'nt arrived yet grr so jumper's need jumper's got 2 and Damien's pressie plus Mac got a hat matching mitts and some sock's, he got 3 tops friday night ,strangly Bobby got nothing emm he always finds something maybe he's saving it for my suprise hehe.

Then weve been to my sister's bless my niece said I've missed you soon as we walked in weve not been rd for 2 weeks i'snt she just so cute Mac had a great time mainly because he was fed for the majority of the time...lol, then my brother arrived so its been a pretty good day caught up with everyone my mum n dad popped in before we left, so family freinds and shopping how much better cld it be?, oh jen my freind coming rd ...seen her around turns out her fiancees bro lives over rd handy or what?

So a good day lets home it stays this way for a while..................xoxoxoxoxoxox

Hugs Jo xxx

ok first of all im not oh so judgemental on the issue of smacking i have smacked mackenzie twice, on his nappy and hand on heart i know even if i had smacked skin to skin i wouldnt have left a mark and the situation left me with no other option...

But what i saw today was just unbelievable more so because other mums defended her behaviour....

OK so tried a playgroup just because they had santa there today our playgroups been shut for weeks now so i thought it would be a nice treat everything was good kids playing mums talking but no-one cld miss this 18mnth old boy constantly going into the tuck shop bit no amount of removing him no's shouting stopped him he found it funny like most kids at that age do, but then he began kinda taunting his mum big mistake...

He stod by door waiting to be told with a cheeky grin on his face so yea she told him no and to come bk and play he stood there repeating no over and over, when his mother flipped she flew across the room ripped his a his pants down and i mean ripped nappy n all and WAK!!!!

She left soon after obviously knowing shed gone too far shouting at this poor child to get in his pram nappy still on floor and pants rd his anckles, this poor child was screaming shed left a bright red mark it was awful but the other mums seemed to defend her saying shes got her hands full hes a bad child...

Is it just me thats thinking are you f*****g mad hes 18 months old!!!! I really think she had other options she hadnt tried explaining just pulled him out of the tuck shop rm and then carried on chatting he was wanting attention which she found highly annoying.

Needless to say i dont think well be going to that playgroup again but i feel for that child im not saying shes a bad mum i dont know if she has support whats going on in her life but it was clear to see she needs some help to calm down and to comunicate with her child better.

MY REGRET FOR TODAY NOT ASKING IF SHE NEEDED SOME HELP XX

Well super hero ,managed to mk it home tonight and with no calls he also managed to mk some progress on my bathroom woohoo !!!!!

I even got some coversation hes come up with cia and jai as boys names although imstill stook on jayden strangly dawn popped in for a brew today and she brought up jayden too emm, so here's me thinking ahh hes takensome notice you know being a member of the family not just a pasiing handy man i cook and clean for and what do you know he drops this.... I wanna new car after xmas....is he mad ?

No not just him my dad too when we got this car my dad was all its gonna cost too much to run blah blah theres no need to change a car just for the sack of it and all the usual stuff so me expecting some support as bobbys only had the car since march but no....i get well hes had it a while ...mad mad mad i tell you !!!!!

Ok so I love our car and I mean love it I feel safe its been 100% since the day we got it plus id kinda like it when i finally get rd to my lessons no chance of that if he upgrades in the new year its will go towards his new baby arghhh, so yea maybe im being a lill selfish but i have reasons...

1/ he drives like an idiot meaning fast

2/ its diesel and he cant get a good tk off speed for proving that 17yr his puntos shit ner..lol

3/ hes had one accident nd your not much safer than in a 4x4

4/ no guarentees nxt car wont have problems he needs car for work

5/ finally me me me me me me me me me i want it =[ lol

his replacement he thinks a suberu or a saloon mg petrol arghhhh like im ever gonna get to drive that nah ill be in some lill 106 anouther pet hate just coz i think in an accident you dont really stand a chance. nd i been in 2 accidents and hit by a bus so im petrified!!!!!!

EMM WHY CANT HE JUST FLY LESS TRAFFIC.........................

yes i have a secret confession to mk, you see theres something ive never told anyone so i hope i can rely on all of you to keep my lill secret, you see my fiancee is not just a male idiot on diy overdrive with hyperactive childish out bursts but hes also a time travelling super hero!!!!! yes its true some how he manages to work full time be a dad and ocasionally hes here for more than 5 min to show off his super strengh, you see yet again anouther call tonight ,anouther favour and woosh off he goes in to the night to save the day. what a guy hey emm good job im not tkin it to heart he came home for all of 20 min made a brew and left me with no idea of his inevitable return....although im having trouble with an old saying "some mothers do have em..." were one for me some fiancees are unbelievably understanding for the second night in a row arghh so weve updated the modern vertion now reads "some fiancees do have em...." dam ill be struggling when we get married i tell ya for better for worst my arse...lol

hope you enjoyed a very unhappy jo tonight waiting for prince charming to come and rescue me if any one see's him heading my way can you let him know he's gonna need a step ladder (sisters hacked my locks off again hehe)

hugs to all jo xxx

What is it with familys a love hate relationship? well lets introduce them all....

We have mum n dad or the rents as i like to call them

mum diabetic works 3 jobs hates anything on credit/debt do any thing for ya but she has a visious temper...ahh cancersarian you see like me were not all that close we clash alot but then im a cancersarian too hehe

dad hes ya cross between del boy and victor meldrew lol (i dont know weather youll understand that in aus...i can explain) general kinda bloke really ,hard working finds hard to show emotion and im his lill girl we never really row at all we tell each other to piss off alot but its all good really.

my brother..emm thinks hes my dad arghhh we dont get on he thinks hes abouve the family all nice cars holidays but you get a good pressie lol just kidding hes kinda like my dad only he has money to show his emotions, he doesnt get on with bobby therefor avoids me =[

my sister ...the royal pain in the ass love her to death shes prob my best freind to but at 35 i think she sld be looking after me a bit more, sometimes i feel like im mum to her aswell. we see each other alot well cant be avoided when she wants something every two min lol

the the mistery sister dads admitted although he didnt raise her like abouve n me he did pay matenance and accepts she is his biological daughter woo hoo who knew eh, doesnt have all that much to do with me we dont share the same mother as i dont with any of my siblings so she obviously feel a lill more comfortable rd them i think she finds it hard with my mum not that she isnt accepted.

then we have oh hang on recount....12 nieces and nephews now i just gained 4 lol

so thats it all summed up shortly now i have a favour to ask plz god if the mistery brothers going to reappear plz be after xmas i always thought i had a normal family now i have a complicated one arghh its driving me nuts and its hard to adjust.

so sorry if this wasnt the most exciting of blogs but hey it got my head a lill more clear i think...lol

maybe it wouldnt all be so bad having a complicated family if one just one had ever heard of sanity there all bonkers,

then we have our lill family me who just wants some peace and if anyone knows were my family left there sanity plz return it soon, bobby the hyperactive idiot who thinks he can tk on the world in a day so far 6 mnths later im wondering how long he thinks 24hrs is...lol and mackenzie mini bobby wed hoped as he look like daddy hes get some bit of me but nope all daddy but i get to be fav hehe.

so there they are my family want emm? any one ? there free?

just thought id share my tree oh and my son lol he's having breakie there not that you can tell he's glued to the box, and he's never watched a cartoon in his life i think that was this morning.And my tree I promise it looks alot better at night.....really!!!!!!!!!

See told you so....lol I did have a child there aswell but he buggered off as usual driving me mad trying to get a pic of him lately there all a blurr....hehehe

RAMDOMLY ASKED QUESTIONS?

1. What do people usually call you? Jo, JoJo, Joanne
2. Do you have freckles? no
3. Have you ever been to another country? nope =[
4. Do you feel comfortable dancing in public? sometimes
5. Have you ever kissed a mirror? probably
6. Do you still talk to your bestfriend from when you were 14? nope
7. Can you skateboard? no
8. Do you own an iPod? no
9. What was your favorite tv show as a kid? rd the twist figures huh? lol
10. Do you still have feelings for an ex? no
11. Would you rather bungee jump or sky dive? neither thanks im not that nuts
12. Who is the hottest celebrity? Vin Diesel
13. Who was the last person to call you? Bobby
14. Do you like to text message? sometimes
15. What kind of music do you listen to? r&b, rap, rock, pop, dance oh anything...lol
16. Did the movie Titanic make you cry? not the first time
17. Have you ever punched someone? yes
18. Has anyone ever punched you? nope not really
19. Have you ever been dumped? yes
20. Big dogs, small dogs, or cats? big & small dogs
21. How many cars have you owned? one yea i cant drive still lol
22. Do you call your bestfriend everyday? no
23. What do you live in? a house
24. Have you ever gotten drunk? yes many times
25. Have you ever stolen anything? nope wldnt dare.
26. Who do you think about the most? my boyfriend
27. What is your most prized possesion? my son
28. Do you like to watch tv? yes
29. When is the last time you went to the movies? about 2 yrs ago i think
30. Do you wear glasses or contacts? no
31. What country would you most like to visit? Australia
32. Do you think anyone could ever really be satisfied? no
33. Are you religious? no
34. Do you live with your parents? no not for long time
35. Would you like to live to be 110 years old? yes if i still looked 19
36. Have you ever approached someone of the oppisite sex? yes
37. Do you kiss on the first date? yes
38. What hair color do you like most on the oppisite sex? dark n short never long hair on a man ewwww
39. When is the last time you took a shower or bath? this morning
40. Have you ever been to a concert? nope god im so sad...=[
41. Do you talk to your parents? everyday
42. How many siblings do you have? 3
43. Do you like to have your picture taken? no i always look like ive excaped lol
44. Do you have more girl friends or guy friends? about same
45. Have you ever played in the rain? yes
46. Ever seen a tornado? no
47. How many meals do you eat a day? 2 or 3
48. Who do you most resemble in your family? my dad
49. What kind of accent do you have? english northern im a lancashire lass
50. How long have you known your bestfriend? oh over 10 years

so do you know me a lill better now?

have a great day loadsa luv n hugs Jo xxx

Sorry ladies nope more of that its all done with cleared up and a lesson we sld all learn anger clouds your judgement, things have been crazy for both me n bel lately things have been missunderstood and yes mistakes were made but for the bestest of intentions looks like tiredness and hormones got in the way and it really sldnt have been done publicly so although im sure you all enjoyed the playgroud fight, its all over we took it offline never spilt a crossed word and hey presto its sorted.

FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO IT OFFENDED WE ARE VERY SORRY

Hope you all have a wonderfull day and me time to sleep tight xxxx

Hugs Jo xxx

What is it mine are really getting my back up lately and look how good ive been have I moaned ? well bugger that im peed off big time now so time for a blurt then i can move on...dam this is good almost like theropy but free...woohoo...lol

Ok so from the top last sunday: THE MIL....

Came rd well actually she rang n got me and I really tryed to politely say no were to busy....see

she said: are you in?

i said: yes but were really busy.

she said: why?

i said: coz macs not been well, im tired, bobbys tiling and im trying to wrap pressies get mac to bed early then i need to clean up( you'd think enough huh?)

she said: so can we pop rd then? (mk sence to you?)

i said: if you do its gotta be soon macs was up till 3am n we need to get him down bobbys slept in his room last night n he cant be doing that tonight when he's got work tomorrow. So we want him in bed for 7pm.

She turned up at 7pm an hour before macs bed time( you know what i was thinking?)

Anyway bobby had to get on with the bathroom as untill the tilings done we have no heat in the bathroom not good in november were freezing! she tolerated me , like she had a choice and asked about us getting prepared for bubba no2, then the pram subject came up....well holy cow!!!!!

When she asked about that she ment us using macs, but were going to buy a double as i dont drive and live an hr from the town centre so walking with mac isnt just time consuming but dangerous crossing main roads even with a buggy board, and yes i said all that to her...

you know what i got?.... YOU DON'T NEED ANOUTHER PRAM YOU CLD MK DO, I THINK ITS JUST A WASTE OF...MONEY, the ...means she paused before bobby slipped out, what a stupid woman!

Yet again she slipped up 1st she thinks im not maternal and warns the family to keep an eye on me now im a gold digger its cldnt be more laughable, when me n bobby met it was me with the money we went dutch on everything or i payed actually, I just worry what she's going to come up with next.

Thinking that was bad enough and ive got to the point i dont tell bobby alot as it sounds like all im saying is your mother this n that n thats not fair but then friday my scan day, she rang spoke to me then wanted bobby then i heard them talking about prams odd i thought ....can you believe it she was telling bobby we sldnt get a double n there unpracticle blah blah....suppose me stuck in the house is best after all i might spend his millions in town.....Arghhhhh

So yes I did tell bobby well I actually blew I called her a too faced caniving bitch aswell as plenty more, I was waiting for his usual excuses but no he agreed finnally!!!!!!!!

Now second family problem.....

My sister yes I LOVE HER TO BITS

But she's getting right on my last nerve lately a wonderful person a fantastic mother but selfish doesnt begin to dicribe her, she's very flighty with her friends its the flavour if the week with her and right now she wasnt my main concern so shes huffed and puffed like a sulky teenager and has really upset me.

I forgive her for so many things like cancelling our xmas holiday it took alot of lies to get our money bk well most of it and the deal was how ever bks out foots the bill weve been patient havent asked once even now when things have got tight with xmas, news of anouther baby, then theres her constantly paying her cataloge money late giving me a bad name with my credit, but do we winge no we sympathise she has 6 kids blah blah, but she still gets her nails done every week has her hair done all kids n them in designer clothing etc and we say nothing.

We say nothing because she does work hard and like us all wants the best for her family but there has to be a cut off point were you cant keep abusing those around you and be fair last week we went rd and her hubby told me while she was out how she'd moaned she didnt like what she got for xmas last yr etc so hes gona and got her a 20" gold curb chain a diamond "N" to go on the chain, poisen perfume like £50 a bottle, clothes you name it she got it coming to hundreds seriously, this is takin the piss, they owe us and my mum money then rub there spending in your face....Arghhh the cheek!!!!

Then thursday she rings being her daughters birthday friday of course i needed a reminder she was saying i had to go up thursday coz shed want her pressie in morning, we got there shed opened everything... the she said she was having a pajama party saturday night and her hubby eldest n jades bf were going snooker bobby cld go he agreed n they arranged for bobby to pick her son up from work etc n i was to go rd n keep her company( not really asked just more told to be there so she wldnt have to be gooseberry).

So hes been tiling again in a hurry coz he knew he'd to pick adz up from work got all ready and while hes parked outside her hubby rings bobby to say she gone my other sisters for night  tlk about angry id cancelled plans for her coz she was already sulking when adz said hed seen my scan pic 1st on msn no call to me no txt nothing, luckily bobby was peed too and ended up not going by the time hed dropped adz off id saved the day n got our plans with freinds sorted. But really how rude not to let me know at all after i never wanted to go i knew i was being used again and all because she didnt see the bloody scan 1st, why cant familys just be happy mum and baby doing well sld be enough but then what do i expect like we mac she kept hinting she sld be there at birth but to be honest i didnt want her there it was my experience then before i knew it i was in labour she was there n that was that i was in too much pain to deal with it all then.

Right now im so pissed off like bobby said familys are shit theres always one to let you down and its not gonna change least i caqn pick my freinds anouther dam good reason to up sticks n get to australia what the hell are we doing if this is it im out. I think a better life for mac n bubba is better than all this crap, don't you?