Well I doubt many of you will know that I have to attend my great ant's funeral tomorow although we never saw her much and im sorry to say she never met mackenzie i really sould go out of respect and for my close family.... problem being transport...

my mum and her sister are going in the family car so dad and my brother are going together but will be bringing mum n my ant bk which means if they take me thats fine but there a seat down for trip home, mums ant was a very religious lady and is having a church service then we go across town to the crem before a reception again across town after, theres no way i can taxi it all carrying car seat n pram with me were ever i go...

so now what do i do? well dads letting me know later today, although he thinks just going to the reception would be enough its a strange family and one peep outta mac and ill get it big time, but even then ill prob still get some remark about how i sould have made plans for him...like i havent tried....his mum who ok id hate to ask working, bobby working, sis working, ev 1 else going funeral....

why do familys have to mk things so hard? theres an uncle come up to whos causing quiet a stir and frankly terrifies me, hes reported ev 1 in the family but 2 ov us to social services its nuts nothings ever come of it they now have injunctions against him so thats gonna be fun when they all need to pay there respects...but it makes you feel so uncomfortable im thinking whats mac gonna wear oh what iof he starts we tantrums as no doubt he'll need his nap ....like thats going to happen with a full packed day ahead....

oh half of me just thinks its easier to send my reguards and leave it there, but then i think why sld i ? i havent done anything wrong and have a right to be there ...grrr obviously some ppl have no respect, this really isnt the time for all this bk stabbing!!!!!!

Yes thats right quake its completly slipped my mind all day untill the news came on and i thought ohh so the bf wasnt having some odd spasum lol it happend about 130am our bed shook i sat up looked around heard what i thought was the dehumidifier and it all stopped before i gt chance to ask him what the hell he was playing at....

weird thing the dehumidifiers down stairs as he pointed out tonight...?

so after the news were looking rd the house thinking well the pics are all straight apparently some ppl had chimneys fall etc we gt away pretty much ok just me thinking id had a mad moment really...but whats anouther?

well off i go again just wondered if anyone else noticed ev here but me seems to have slept through it....

hugs jo xxx

So as many of you know were rehoming our final family pet(the dog not bobby lol), but even tho i been advertising her for weeks was annoyed at a couple who'd made all the arrangements to tk her but decided not to last min after her adverts had been removed.

I cant help feel sad shes going 5 years with a dogs along time its gonna be weird not seeing her every morning or nudging her to one side as shes blocking my way to the bathroom in the middle of the night, even tho i know she sld go we dont have the time she needs with it being no fault of her own i feel guity on the dog and mackenzie too...his fav trick is to slide over her back oh and grab her tongue lol ( before you all freak she is that well trained honestly we planned kids and made sure she wasnt a risk)

oh great she moaning through the door at me now, and i swear she knows whats happening she gives me these looks with the soppy eyes bless her xox

anyway shes being collected at 3pm today by his dad whos taking her to the pub, no not for courage lol he owns it haha he found some one whod like to see her and see if shes ok with there alsation but then she sould be coming home as ther dogs male and as neither have been done he wants his dog to have the snip*ouch* although his dad thinks once they see xena they'll breed..she isnt in season at the moment but she sould be by summer...can you see were this is going....the pups will be born after the babys born? but seriously we couldnt take on anouther dog after baby im taking a break from being preg mummy.

why?... well not only because its been hell, but we'd also like to foster they arnt willing to allow that at the moment as we have enough on with baby due but when he's about 18 mnths we can, were not planning anouther baby till baileys about 3 well try again, im not sure were that leaves us with the fostering i think ill just be doing respite care so its not going to be full time untill our kids ae that bit older...plus moving house is gonna be a bugger as the house we like is gonna have to have a full 2 story extention to ad a garage n dining and two bedrooms but one day as always lol

right brew time i thinks bye

see look at them he loves her

hugs jo xxx

URGHHH NO MSN THATS WHAT I CANT COPE THE ONE DAY I RELY ON IT AND GUESS WHAT IT WONT WORK!!!

OK silly I know but I really need it theres mail I need to get to now well 3 hrs ago actually and it decides today of all days it doesnt wanna play..grr

And yes b4 anyone dares to tell me im hormonal I KNOW!!!! I cant help it I dont know whats the matter with me I can play we Mac tk on anything life throws at me which is increasing by the hr lately but a dam pc has me beat....not happy with being the slowest pc this side of the 20th century and constantly deciding to change pages it does this I MEAN WHAT DOES THE BLOODY THING WANT?

I tryed being nice willing it along as you do lol I even cleaned it!!!! sometimes life just isnt fair is it?

winging off to try n get in once more lol so if im not on you all know why im sitting here very stressed trying to will it to work a little harder....

hugs all jo xxx

Well as you'll be able to see on my latest activity its a far cry from what it once was.... I can see bk 10 days!!!.....amazing I know lol, to be honest I'm just fed up with it all and I dont even know what it is....I saw all the reported's which I ignored so the bits here and there I have seen mk little sence to me....and that's just how id like to keep it thankyou.

My resent visits have been down to a few prob I've been having and thankfully I got some sain answers in all the hulla ballou, the most sencible thing I have seen is Clays threat of time out finally I see logic does exist on minti after all...

Any way I'm hoping thats an end to it and I can once again rely upon minti as before?