i never thought i was intresting enough to have a stalker least thats what i think she is how do you define a stalker?

anyway as you all know im now heavily preg and have been getting things ready and it seems some one is taking more than a passing intrest in my movements, weve been doing the big clean curtains down etc and we are over looked but that doesnt bother me too much if they can see me i can see them i figure its not like im dancing around in my undies what cld they possibly see...? but shes now started making coments things she wouldnt know and shes reacalled things over the past few weeks like us moving round the bedroom and me packing my hospital bag i cant quiet put my finger on it but i think she knows too much...

ok so ive turned rd and seen them walking around in there living room, but i dont stare to the extent i know exactly what they are doing shes obviously pausing and taking notes its worried me that she can re call clothes ive worn comented on items i packed knows the make of my vacume even that i have a green duster not yellow omg who takes that much notice???? she'll be telling me what couler my knickers are next

she told me all this infront of one of our other naighboures st first i just thought ahh well we are exposed with out the voiles up but they only came down a few days ago whats she gt a xray machine or something, i think i was just in shock it wasnt till i looked at my naighboures face, as you can imagine it said it all,...

so short of blking out my windows and living in the dark what do i do? is that stalking behaviour? she likes to compare alot her eldest is 6 mnths older than mackenzie but she has to enforse her son did this that n anything you can imagine first he prob has a phd...lol, she wants to now what plans i have for nursery etc for some one whos just a passing naighboure not a freind i find her very intrusive....

anyway forget that i have my app at clinic tomorrow im getting alot of pressure on my pelvic floor, although im not sure how i feel about that we still cant decide if we want to have an elective section planned or vbac so in one way if his heads engaging its good but in anouther its taking the choice away or atleast it means now i have to mk the choise rather than them making it for me..ahhh its true what they say a girl is never happy...lol

but 34 weeks tomorrow so as soon as 4 wks i cld meet bailey now what can i do to fill the gap i need to keep busy?

It seems my request to alter some advice has caused some upset, and im sorry i wasnt sure if i would be allowed to alter it myself and mailed angie before i even bothered, i didnt really get a yes or no answer i think it was more down to you guys to decide, at the end of the day i have posted around 30 articles for minti non that i am currently credited for i will leave them be as thats no t what this is about but this article was very personal i havent taken it away i just wanted it to read differently more privatly if that makes sence?

so sorry again for those of you that got there backs up over this but thats it i wont be altering any more i promise, and a big thankyou to admin for sorting it out.

and for the skeptics heres a copy of the mail i recieved from angie reguarding my request... To: shhmumstheword Subject: Re: did you recieve advice? From: angieh Date: Mon 21st Apr 2008 3:40am   Hi Jo

Thanks for getting back to me. if it's under your old account which you've deleted you can't change it because once you delete the account you've basically deleted the access to your slate.

If you wanted to alter the advice, you would have to create a new advice piece under your new account (ie this account you're using).

When other people have done this they have deleted the advice under their old name (or anonymous or minti-database - whatever it has reverted to). The problem with this is that people lose comments and votes on the advice.

I hope that helps.

Angie
 

 

ok I think i may have been possesed ...lol, i have a new found energy which left me well yrs ago never mind when i concieved, after weeks of being exhausted and no one taking any notice of me guess what now they think i sould be putting my feet up well uhh uhh no way i like the new me lmao.

Seriously tho its weird im up and ready to face the day before 9 thats quiet something for me, everythings organised even with the dam naighboures trying to put the ky bosh on things i took control its all sorted fingers crossed thats the way it all stays? even a 2 n half hr visit from his mother hasnt ruined my day, ok it hasnt to any great extent lol i told her to f off a few times through the door but hey it helped lol

now i just gtta get all my tel num bk god knows were they went but its driving me mad, i have energy and no were to go  so ill call in at dawns as im out that way in morning trying to get mac in at a nursey 3 afternoons a week, tuesdays i found a stay n play cresh for us all to go to wed im at clinic again just gt thur n fri to fill any ideas lol

right im going to have a quick nosy to see whats been happening then im off to bed nitey nite all xox

no not untill bub .....untill i explode mac had an accident last night and has hurt his finger badly he could have lost the tip so hes out of sorts even more now with him being so upset he stayed up till midnight which youd think would be fine well no as half the schools are closed with this stupid strike the kids are home and have now been beating the shit outta my door for over an hr needless to say macs not getting his nap, i know kids will be kids and they apol well the first time but then started doing it over and over and then knocking on my wondows to say sorry argghhh stick your bloody sorry move then there climbing on the wall, and when the stones come loose and fall on them that will be my fault arghh all i want is a lill bit of piece and quiet in my own home and for my son to be able to rest when he isnt well....so yep as you prob guessed i snapped like some mad woman im fffff in through the window when i see one disgruntaled mother looking at me.... huh .....one of these children is hers......so she gt bloody told aswell sat there blatently ignoring what the kids were doing urghhh they get me so fuckin mad reportin me for ev stupid thing if that was me in a few yrs id have  social services bangin on the door, its not even tea time and there ready to get the cider out they mk me sick judging me when they dont have one moral fibre in there body

Well who ever it was is wrong lol, they come in 3 sets of three by all acounts and in my case always when you cld do without it all

the naighboures are back on my case, there was me thinking this was going to become a family st like it was 4 yrs ago when we bought the house ha fat chance of that a bit of sunshine and i mean a bit the naughboures are sat out kids running wild whilst they blatently ignore then as they chat drink and smoke them selves to death....

i gt reported to the council why? ....well we discovered a lill leak thats trickling water onto the bk street, we had a good idea it was coming from under the footings we'd put in place for that extention they put a stop too when we were half way through, but we coulnt be sure as weve been having heavy rain for over a week, the first fine day and by 2pm the councils at my door informing me there has been a complaint but why its wasnt doing any one any harm and the water was going from our yard and be collected in a drain 3 ft away so the waste of water is minimal? any way after pissin me off the council "ask" that we sort it when we can obviously being bad timing and the fact that its doing no one any harm even if it was they'd have to wait as we cant afford plummers and diggers just yet and have agree's that there wont be any nagging from them but if we could sort it within 6 mnths and def before winter as the cold weather could crack the pipe more ha just wish tha naighboures had heard after they seem to be going out of there way to mk life difficult for me time and time again

then we had to go to the birthday doo mac loved it actually being a kiddy party i wish i cld say the same the mil got right on my wick and mac has passed his cold on to me lill bugger couldnt give it daddy. but bk to the mil winge...

we got there she stodd infront of me for 15 min then she heard bobby asking if i wanted to sit down but i was avoiding one of the guests an old freind of my sisters i just didnt want to deal with then im playing with mac she suggests we sit down bobby said no and why but she puched and pushed to get her own way till i tile her im preg not ill and i dont want to sit down not now and not in 10 min were fine here, so after that i ignored her and was playing peekaboo we mac he cld just get under the bar and look through the gap were the hand rail is, and asked bobby to get a pic of him as he looked so cute playing when she took him the cow ....

now im mad!!!!!!! his lill face looking for me tears which then flared up his cough so she had to bring him bk and it took me 10 min to calm  him down...... but the best is yet to come her fella is 50 on my bday and after last yr i gt really mad that my bdays always put on bk burner to meet there arrangements and we never gwt to clebrate after everyone else were too skint and my bday passed, not relising his 50th obviously but when she tells me she thinks it best i "choose an elective section so i can go to the doo, but then if he comes on your due date you cld get a sitter i suppose" is she bloody mad?.... erm my baby would be 3 wks if i choose vbac 5 if i have a section elective or not but younger if hes late so i have no intention of getting a sitter to celebrate my birthday and least of all to celebrate her bf i may not have even recovered but she doesnt give a dam

maybe i sound like a cow i dunno im past caring but its not bobby's dad not even his step dad they only gt serious about 2 yrs ago so hes never even been a father figure and im fed up with pleasing everyone else and what we want is forgotten so when  she gets her bk up ill remind her that her input stopped me having a 21st  and ev dam bday since

then  his dad who usually lays low he doesnt bother us much he calls in favours but then so do we its a much better relationship but his step daughters getting married last yr when the plans were being made bobby gt ropped in to driving for them but i wasnt preg then.....he took the cover to drive other cars off his ins policy as we didnt need it and to save a few quid of course,..... but the best of that if ....im having a section its 3 days b4 and a 2hr rd trip x 2 for him, so if we say we cant go theyve paid for our places at this huge fancy doo but if we go hes to pay out extra on the car ins (can not afford!!!!) ill be uncomfy( were do i pee???) and exhausted by the end of it all not really whet id planned if im having a section that wk so what do you do???

so there you go the three bad things came and went i think we had one lill bit of good luck and the cycle begins again if this has to be my life can the nxt good thing be the baby im fed up now far too fat and the sooner i get recovered the sooner i can kick my mil ass outta here...lol its just the alternatives are ef illegal....

Well following my check up guess what im admitted yet again fearing that my scar from the c section with mac was opening up 19 mnths later arghh, thankfully its not feeeew!!!!! could you imagine?

In my case it was much simpler thankfully, when id had my check up she'd had a feel to see were bub was and if the head and started engaging it hurt now i hate that midwife anyway and i told her she hurt me she didnt apologise just fobbed me off with the usual "well it is goin g to be tender etc etc" that night i was still sore really sore and noticed my undies seemed to be stuck to my belly omg infection.....it looks like when she dug in like she was digging for gold her nail had cut into me....now im aware that there over worked that it was prob accidental these things happen but when i was at the hospital they tried to make out it was my fault that such an infection wouldnt have broken out so quickly therfor it must be downto my personnal hygien...what? they really got there backs up about this all im saying is this happened and maybe if they just reminded all there staff to wash there hand between each patient we all mk mistakes but to blame me and be so rude really pees me off, to mk it worst id been worrying hes returned to breech position after feeling a shift that stopped me in my tracks so the night before bobby took care of mac whilst i got some time to pamper me i came out of that bathroom like a bloody prune im pretty sure my personnal hygien isnt an issue but especially after a bath and shower in less than 12 hrs arghhh....now i feel like making an official complaint the gits.

Any way its getting better just have to hope she lisened to my wishes to see my prefered midwife im getting really peed off with her making sure its her ev time when she knows id prefer the other, she doesnt like me and i dont like her so why go out of her way to piss me off all the dam time?

To top all that off macs been really ill, this cold hes got just seems to get worst by the day not better he has one really good hr every night were he goes crazy but i think thats the effects of a day on calpol and tixylix, on the one hand seeing him ill is horrible but ....i get cuddles all day, i dont really get much else done...lol.... and hes now given it to me aswell but i have enjoyed him being close very rare from mac hes such an independant lill boy, he seems better today were hoping more so in the morning as he sould be going to his cousins birthday party...?

well best get myself to bed i suppose wouldnt wanna be running late tomorrow might forget to shower who knows i might turn purple if i neglect my hygien routine....lol

take care ladies ill try to catch up soon xox

wow time flys had my 32 week check up today and all is great my bp 120/80 baby's still head down yay!!! so all is looking good for a natural birth, well if he's still there in 4 weeks time?..lol but i think he's got comfy he's been head down for over a month we'll see....

I asked whats going to happen at the 36 wk app if he's turned, they said i'll be booked in for a section at 38 wks but when i get to the hospital they will do a scan before i go down to theatre to mk sure its still nessasary which is fine, the bit i wasnt to happy with is if hes gone bk head down they will send me home so is bobby off work or not? his boss wont be happy getting messed around i think at that point id choose elective section but then she said they may refuse....hum all well and good for them but its his job at stake, plus im scared ill go into labour when im home alone with mac....arghh why is it never straight forward?

But thats weeks away so ill just have to hope he stays were he is, and if this labour cld be better than the last that would be great haha i dont ask for much do i ?

Well thats me updated better have a quick moch around and see what you've all been upto, hey i can enjoy some piece and quiet the st seems to be empty today woohoo if you were here last night you'd know what i mean, he litrally got through the door sat down with a cuppa and the st's kids decided to play ball tig with a tennis ball rd our car hand prints ev were, it was a lill funny he was about to turn green, but in the end it was me that exploded and told them to f**k off what we mac being ill the car them sitting in my forcourt on my window cill peed me off not to mention it made mac jump and he bumped his face.....dont these ppl know not to puch a hormonal mummy?...lol

well i woke this morning to a bloody racket that set me in a mood for the day macs not well at the moment so im nakerd get him bk to work and still got my hands full, but then my dad pops up and jokes what have i done to upset the naighboures now...huh? house up for sale yayayyyyy, before you all assume thats really mean well it is a little there an older couple and this is a fmaily st so they dont like the noice and have complained quiet a bit in the past but they are a lovely couple i just couldnt understand why they hadnt moved sooner if they were unhappy we cant all live tip toeing rd, anyway thats not the best bit the good news is how much its gone up for we expected that min even tho ours has an extra bedroom and attic of course one had to be nosy its so old fashioned so now im crossing everything it sells if it does were still quids in and bk on track who knows we might be able to sell up sooner than we thought but for now it means the re morgage sld go through with no prob as we know the house is well worth it after all that hard work wasnt invain after all feew me feels better....i havent lived in a building site for the past 2 years for nothing. yay!!!!!!

hoping lill mac will be feeling better tomorow took him out to toddle rd outside which he loved only prob is getting him back inside an hrs fresh air and he was bk to him self more than actually hes now taken to telling daddy no!!! i think he thinks he can get away with it we daddy as he's his play mate were as mummys boss im seeing prob ahead.....

things are looking up, well a bit weve got a morgage deal YAY!!!! not what we wanted but then there isnt alot of choice out there anyway we get to bring down our outgoings a little just to tk life easier we bub, he's def bk at work monday if he doesnt go i think i will lol

still not in the position we want to be, but were ok just going no were fast....whats new i get slower ev day hahaha,

but seriously right now we cant afford to move so bummed out there and the choice in aus seems to have gone to, maybe ill just have to accept the kids will start there education in the uk, but maybe not? were wondering weather we sld re-arrange our plans like having anouther bub when bailey is 3 ish, if i go bk to work when he 2 work my ass off maybe we cld move out to aus in 5 yrs ???? just mean we'd have to be 100% focused on the goal and hope and pray we dont get any more nasty suprises like this dam credit crunch, so cld we be desined to have bubba no 3 in aus....i guess thats something else to look into health care???

Well thats enough thinking aloud lol i guess time will tell....

Things are going really well with bub Bobby checks calender every few days like he's suddenly going to find a few days lol,...I'm coming up 32 weeks on wednesday givin me 4 weeks till i know how lill Baileys arriving then anouther 2 weeks if we have c section 8? if we go oh naturel, he been head down for weeks but im sure i felt a shift as it stopped me in my tracks but im praying he was rotating not flipping into breach.....? sld know more wednesday at antinatle, i'm thinking he cld still be head down with the pressure pains recently i thought the head cld be engaging? ahhh im driving myself nuts thinking about it all i still havent packed my bag i gt it all ready just not in the suit case ive bought enough new pj's n that if im in a few days but then i dont wanna take a huge case if im home a few hrs later (natural)

Right best be off this is making me worst im thinking about it all now lol plus i think i need to get to grips with the new and improved minti, after logging on to find my complimnets i think i have some catching up to do i got 10 min yesturday and then mac woke up....kids hehe

What a week 1st he takes poll position as resident invalid and what a pain in the butt he can be as he gets better so do his quick witted comments 1stly he took the oh am so ill, then he begun understanding what its like for simple tasks to be painfull not to mention time consuming now hes just back to criticle but to be fair i think its more annoyed at him self being helpless hes up woohoo walking around and he can drive so its kinda nice to have him around when hes not under my feet lol

then desaster no2 strikes holly shit wed planned a re-morgage but with the shit really hitting the fan over hear the morgage offer has been withdrawn well there goes saving £150 a month talk about gutted theres not a desent offer on the market at the moment so were now not just stuck but set in bloody stone, everytime we turn the news on its getting worst untill house prices rise again we cant go no were and theres no telling how long it will all take the last slump took 10 years, im not to botheres about having to stay here after all weve done why not all the hard work gave us a nice home still some sunshine would have been nice and the biggest fear kids in school over here the one thing i really wanted to avoid more than anything but then dont we all just want the best for our kids?

Anywhoo no point winging whats happened has happened and theres nothing we can do or even cld have done to prevent it mind you im sure theres gotta be someone i can shout at for screwing up? emmm northern rock!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yes i had a point really lol other than more lill pains nr and bobby lol im fine we had a wonder rd the garden centre yesturday i got a caktai (spelling) n he got a bonsai something peacefull for him rather than diy after all thats what got him in this mess...., kids are on school hols here driving me mad right now im hearing fireworks emmm april why???, oh and we put mac in a ride he gave a prize performance screaming he was fine untill it set off then he showed off on the front st it took over an hr to get less than 6ft from car to front door but hey he had an audiance and he was taking full advantage lol, today were just well doing nothing had dawn rd for a cuppa but he was here so its not the same cant slate em when there here weres the fun in that hahaha, so now just to hope he can return to work nxt week and counting down to my 36 week app at hossy ive anouther antinatle b4 that but the 36 wk is the biggy part of me is now hoping for anouther c section i cant bear to think about going over due again, and weve finally reached the point yknow the one.....oh ready to drop? no 2 mnths to go thankyou!!!! and can i touch thats if they ask arghhh pppppppl plz piss off

right best be off mwa xox have a good week xox

Just when you think that you are getting somewere life bites ya on the ass...cld it not wait? lol, got all the house work done well as much as i could really did a good spring clean all i needed to do this weekend was some shopping yay sounds good, but after all that cleaning i decided to take a break friday night being exhausted and mac was coming down with his summer cold right on que, so we thought we'd do it all saturday...

then saturday morning up early showered ready to go just needed him to keep up with the new nesting organisd me when my phone rings bobby? i thought he was takin the piss all i get was upstairs now....? weird up i go hes flat out in agony cant move...not alot i cld do but ring the doc who can you believe it said rest no visit no pain relief just call us bk if your no better in 24 hrs yet again let down by the nhs he cant move he cldnt even get to the bathroom luckily my mums like a chemist managed to get him some pain relief after 24 hrs hes up but waddling round worst than me...aww and hating ev min anything he can do he will unfortunatly for me that means more mess as hes very unstedy,.....

 but the worst bit of it all was i had to take care of him and mac so the easiest way was really been living in the bedroom with me running up and down getting him meals etc poor mac tho he knew and cryed for his daddy all he wanted to do was get up we daddy and cuddle but he cldnt, hes relieved daddys feeling better today fed him self and daddy flapjack whilst i was getting breakie ready and hes taken to a little nesting him self fethching and carrying bless, on the upside yep im trying to find one in this mess....i think macs gonna take well to being a big bruv and not being the centre of attention i dont know who taught him to be so helpful but hey whos arguing lol

bobbys gonna have no choice to take a few days off which mean his holiday week at end april is cancelled as this time will be used as hol so we can meet the bills ...(no company sick pay) by time he can claim stat sick pay of gov he'll be bk again

and now its snows just great snow slippy me preg arghhh and even if i cld drive the stipid exhaust gone anouther bill...if only we cld just perspone it all for 6 mnths but then that wldnt be life would it?

well best go bet bk to what ever he wants now,lol watch more annoying xbox im so not looking forward to my week ahead not the tme with family you really want.....

So annoyed at the moment, ok yes im pregnant tired stressed out tell me a mum to be that isnt?

I'm so fed up with everyone assuming its my hormones really are they seriously telling me in any given 9 month period they are never stressed upset etc etc its ridiculas, when does being pregnant suddenly mean i cant express my natural human emotions or opinions?

First its all lovely ahh anouther baby, then they start patronising well when it suits them lol... when did i become incapable? if women can have an active labour hours of sleep depravation tyhen im sure i can make a cuppa, is that over doing things?, this is the worst time of pregnancy for me I hate being told I cant when I dam well can !!!! I look after our son I clean the house I go shopping hum just like before the thing is in a few weeks my sister will start the whole you sld be walking more keep active get the babys head down etc etc so why cant I do the general routine now am I ill?, did someone forget to tell me?

All I ask is to let me be, when I need a hand i'll let them know right now I just feel like shutting the door on the world till they make some sence ......

well glad to get that out of my system lol life has its highs and lows pregnant or not i just wish they'd hear that rather than assuming im annoyed its hormones grrrrrr

Hello !!! just a quick blog to let you all know were doing well some of us better than others as you can see by the lovely chocolatty mush on Mackenzie, Grandad popped up at dinner time with an easter egg yes anouther Mac's little eyes had it un-wrapped in no time by passing his fruit salad desert.

Sorry I haven't been on much I'm missing you... but we had a few prob with the internet running really slow and my patience went through the window days ago I think our computers are going through that teenage faze lol, we had a good weekend still lots to do, but def one were I feel better at least, even if it took a few temper tantrums to get here...LOL. 

 I think me and Bobby are on the same page now, we had a chat about me running my self into the ground looking after Mac and being the general dogs body cleaning up all his DIY messes, so he got his orders lol, I know the house needs sorting jobs need to be done so we can enjoy our new addition to the family but that sould'nt mean by passing the one we already have I think Mac's enjoying his new found Daddy, he's been asked to spend an hour a night with him playing bottle time and bed and to bath him once a week I think he's getting of pretty lightly at that I would have pushed for washing up but after 6 years I resign myself to the fact I am the chief washer upper *sigh* for some years to come although i am getting Mac trained.....

Bless look at that my lill guy helping Mummy without even being asked !!!!......how many men do you know like this? lmao of course he pulled it back out again, a few times actually but we did get there in the end, lill bugger can set it off aswell so far ive done 3 loads on 20 degrees and no spin ...hehe

But I think his biggest achievment is going in his big bed I was dreeding it the crying at all hours me getting less sleep as it stands I think iIget some between the heart burn and trips to the loo the occasional wonder when I just accept I'm not going to bed as my body says No *grr*

But he had his nap in his big bed first which did'nt go all that well I sat with him for an hour untill I was really at the end of my tether and decided a brew was due by the time I'd done that he'd settled down, just goes to show sometimes you have to be crule to be kind within 5 min he was in the land of nod and woke without a care in the world.....kids.....

Thankfully he went down well that night...feeew no sleepless nights for me, still it doesnt half feel weird him growing up having a big bed I forget sometimes just how much he's grown but then I guess he'll always be my baby

I been looking at him alot lately 19 mnths ago I couldnt have imagined he would change this much.......

19 mnths old!!!!!!

My baby !!!!

Well so much for the quick blog huh that's taken me forever, now it's time for bed sweet dreams all xox