Well I don't know weather I have got any further since yesturday or not its just so much to tk in did some jargin busting last night...why do they use those abbreviations no one understands thank god for the www

I had some good news so maybe its a new trend? one I cld do with afer things have been pretty kak for us in recent weeks, my mum rang to find my dad n she had an accident a while bk which the ins is due for so if we can mk do we mac walking she'll buy the pram the moneys on the way but yknow what there like that cld mean a mnth and theres no saying if bailey will arrive sooner or later...

still swayed towards the vbac get me being brave braxton hicks had me in tears last wk gt anouther 2 wks before were bk at hossy tho so im sure there'll be a few more what ifs n but's etc

although im trying to stay positive about it all focusing on the quick recovery being home with my boys i just hope the nerves dont get the better of me ? ive promised myself that ill tk mac to the park everyday it will do us both good, i was a little uncomfy this morning he must have been on a nerve and i did feel better, so if it gets the babys head down and tires mac out while hes having a great time why not? the parks 5 min away but we macs lill legs 15min lol still its at the bk of the hossy so if anything happened im even closer!!!!

best be off bk later after i strangle the cat who's currently sat on my boobs mkin this very difficult....i swear it thinks im its mum? as loving as it is its driving me mad sld have know with a boy i need some bk up here im over run with males lol

bye for now xxx

Yep still confussed, but they went through it all my last labour and basically the decition for a c section was due to a hell of alot of bad look on paper im good to go vbac as its over 18mnths since my section i have a wide pelvis etc etc but its upto me i can choose anouther section and boy have i come away with alot of info, i thought she wanted a desition there n then but she said shes happy to see me in 2 weeks if i want a section it will be a matter of days if that depending on what they have free.

But now ive spoken to some one who actually seemed to have read my notes for a change im swaying towards a vbac they gave me this great chart which when you think about it satistics say im safer we section but babys safer we vbac so im left papping myself lol but i think best for bub wins.

As you know Im not a fan of the nhs but I have to give them credit when i needed a section fast mac was out in 7 min so if i did need them i have that as some reasurrance.

Baileys currently head down and is unlikely to move now so thats better and a big factor for me is that i cld be home 6hrs later without the recovery of a section...

Any way thats about all I can tell you right now no final desition has been made and im already doing the ifs and buts i dont think i have ever been this nervous....

What a day it has been Im not sure if ive been experiencing braxton hicks of just plain old fashioned nerves but do i feel like crap or what!!!

Had the most awful night and I knew it was coming so I thought I'll get ahead of the heart burn we some gaviscon...yea that helped an hour later I was up frightening bobby to death....hehehe!!! When I returned I thought he'd forgotten Mac's monitor he hadnt but just me saying his name had him up like a bolt of lightening bless.

Then all day ive had the tightening the pressure and the stitches ouch!!!.... so Mac hasnt had the best day either we me barely being able to move at times we got as far as his shower this morning and I knew we werent gonna be getting out, so tomorrow cant get here fast enough the sooner I know whats happening the sooner I can get my head rd it all and relax, but with every pain getting worst im doing a dam good job of convincing myself this babys going to try making an appearence before it sld, then I dreamt I was had a girl now that was weird!!!!

To top it all off ive gt a banging head ache so i guess its most likely anxiety after all?

Any ways only 16 hrs 45 min to go.......

I love this one were trying to get him to wear shades like Daddy but he seems to prefer Daddy wearing them.

The portraite my naigboure drew, she copyed this off a picture he had in the paper for his first birthday, I love it and she said she'll do one of Bailey when he arrives YAY!!!!

How cheeky does he look? this was out front daddys been entertaining all the kids we a bubble machine and finally he enjoys it hes had it since his birthday...kids lol.

1st stop everytime the car he is obsessed we daddys car...I guess boys will be boys but is it just me that thinks how much is this gonna cost in the future arghh

well mummy wanted a rest...and guess who appears bless we tryed telling him babys making mummy tired n what do you get his belly lol, still least he's now lifting his clothes rather than mine....

And TK !!! I never knew untill now how crazy cats were at 7 wks old hes already mastered climbing the chimnet breast and the fire guard as you can see even after he almost broke his neck on there thats one of his fav places ...well till mac shakes it....

Ok so I been rushed off my feet typical huh when im at the point i wanna rest while i still can and everything happens, then today all I gt planned is a walk out we Mac but the sun's out again, so I thought well I'll get cleaned up let him have some dinner before we go anywere and by then the danger period sld be over.

? yea.... I sould have gone out here I am happily polishing away when I see these huge bloody ladders swinging across towards my bay window, like a bolt of lightening I'm reaching for Mackenzie who's been entertaining every passer by with "hiya!!!! "as they clatter against the guttering luckily not the window...

Its the window cleaner he had them propped up nxt door and they'd slipped I know it's an accident but still the shock and thought of what could have happend...

Anyway Mackenzies a little taken a back it not like it happens everyday I don't think he relised the danger he was in, but stunned as it all happend so quickly with a big bang, the window cleaner saw me and I was expecting a sorry something....I got... nothing no sorry, kiss my arse  so I waited I thought well he usually knocks to get the back gate opened nope...but quickly did a disappearing act whilst I was occupied we Mac, he's gone for his nap now so I thought I better see if there's any damage....DAMAGE....oh yes in the form that theres a chunk bigger than a tennis ball missing so come winter when it starts filling any more water than a few mil and it will be leaking,

Bobby does'nt know yet to be honest I'm that annoyed at the window cleaners ignorance and gutlessness to admitt what he'd done I donI't think id mk any sence to Bobby and it will only get him mad at work.

It wont cost a bomb to fix i need a new piece of guttering about 2ft long so why not admitt his mistake? After all by rights it was his mistake he knew i knew what had happend it may not be crimmal damage in the sence that its not intentional but still why sould we have to foot the bill? and why be such an idiot shying away from responcibility for the sack of a few quid?

Arghh I have been trying forever to get on and share the promised pics of that drawing my freind did and show you TK of course but I havent had the symbols they seem to be here now so fingers crossed this is going to work....

nope all im getting is the box coming up saying image properties but then nothing else appears why why why? it all goes wrong when you havent gt time, just hope i get anouther chance???

Omg!!!! Im having anouther one of those weeks were I just wish that the world would stop spinning, must all be something to do with the weather...lol

So it al started friday night with a phone call from my sister, begging for help arghhh "hello im lill sis"....and "heavily pregnant!!!!" guess what the nit has gone and done? knocked he wall between her bathroom and seperate toilet down then thought ahh the sink was against that wall now if the kids go near its no support, so who do you call bobby of course....can you tell im not happy?

Im just so fed up why couldnt she have waited for help over the weekend instead of going in all guns blasing then thinking about it after, and putting other people out that have been at work all day in the swealtering heat....too easy I guess?

So that over with she forgot to mention that my brothers operation to have a gastric band fitted had been moved forward from monday to saturday, which I think could have something to do with her wanting her bathroom sorted, as it turned out I got a call from his wife about dinner time to say hes out of theatre in alot of pain etc then i relise he isnt in the local hossy nope ....manchester with no visitors she'd been there since 830am for him but who was there for her?, so.....yep off i go again we didnt get there till just after 8pm, but thankfully he was in some private hossy so they allowed visitors untill 10.30pm, I think he enjoyed seeing Mac the most, even tho he couldnt pick him up they had fun playing with the electric bed lol.

Anyway IM FURIOUS at my sister if she'd said things could have been organised so much better but then we would'nt have been at hers till late the night before Macs now exhausted not content with 2 late nights its sunday and the mil decides to stick the knife in too

Her usual trick phones last min just before the tea bath bed routine, and asks the same stupid question "will you be in tonight?" well as its 6 pm id say yer we a kid to sort out and bobby having work the next morning, obviously im more polite and just say yeah of course we'll be in, when the cow snaps "well your not always sometimes you go to your sisters!!!!", .....im not in the mood for this shit woman!!!!! and tell her "were not performing monkeys and we dont dance to her bloody tune, last week you never thought to ring and say im not coming coz its bank holiday and ill be going out on the piss instead !!!"...hum funny how she forgets her ever so important grandson when its convienient isnt it?

Unfortunatly she still came round and pretended to be all sweetness infront of Bobby then starts asking questions about our morgage???? WTF???? at this point I walked out how dare she??? my parents know what there told about our finances but they have never asked other than the occational are you ok, just ask if you need some help from time to time kinda thing, but her she wants to know the rates the balance the lot, 10 outta 10 for being a sneeky cow tho, shes luring him into this conversation as shes planning to have her kitchen re built, id snook in to get a drink and decided to hell we this crap and asked so how much is that costing? demolishing, re build ,electricians, gas, planning and building regs must be a pretty penny ehh? LMAO at her face!!!!!!

I dont know what it is but theres something that happens to me at the end of a pregnancy till babys about one i find this confidance sometimes cockyness were im so pleased with were i am in my life i wont put up we the shit, as suppose as times gone on and more things happen to stop you in your tracks it wears off but at the moment its back and it felt so so good to let rip, he hasnt told her that i dont want her at the hossy either...

having my 36 wk decider check up on thursday if i have a vbac ill be home anyway shortly after but if i have anouther c section she's not allowed infact ive told him really just my close family, but im trying not to mk it alkward for him... ok i hate the silly cow but like it or not she is going to want to see her latest grandchild, so i told him its a dignity thing as last time his family arrived before the epidural had worn off i was still cathetrised  (spelling...ooops) not to mention i was knackered my family held off this time i think my family sld be there thats who i need after all....

any how i think that explains were ive been its seems so long especially when you cant get on no matter how hard you try, im still good my bodys getting ready im sure you dont need details but you can fill in the balncs.......had a scare saturday afternoon we had to squeeze in some food shopping and omg i tured into the green eyed monster, it was almost like the thursday before i went into labour with mac so im yelling at him to get a move on in the end id to go bk to the car, he doesnt know but i had a lill cry i hopnestly thought i cld be starting so i paniced as they havent disgusted if i can have a vbac of anything, it wasnt as im still here lol but geees louise i forgot it hurts that bad i wanna epidural this heat n that pain no tah

almost tea time better go ill try not to leave it as long nxt time and hopefully things will calm down now........

well not alot has happend since i last blogged i think i covered everything but with the sun shinning and the house being like a green house it was time to open all the windows and doors and inevitably mac wanted out but then i gt talking to my cat naighboure she has 10!!!!

anyway getting to the point she tells me about how she draws and shows me a portrait of her freinds daughter shes copyed from a photo....omg !!!!! she's amazing yet volunteers in the local charity shop honestly she's wasted and could be making a few quid, so.. then she says gimmie a pic of mac ill draw him then you can see if you really think im good as no one knows his face better than us his parents obviously, the next day she showed me an almost finnished portrait and she dropped it off a few hrs later....but guess what i cant find the bluetooth thingamy to send it from my phone to computer ahhh!!!!!!  thats what happens when men clear up but its so good  i have to show you,so ill load it up later after ive shouted at him when he gets home oh and a pic of the little kitten of course.....

hey thankgod we dont use film anymore processing would cost me a fortune we mac growin fast a new baby and a kitten.....

I thought that things wuld have calmed down by now that id be bored sitting around worrying about the birth and depressed with how slowly things were going, oh my how wrong was i....

ive been busyer than ever yet still i dont seem to be at that content im prepared stage i think im worst this time actually lol but then mac un does alot, for some bizarre reason not content with a toddler who has the attitude of a 15 yr old and a new baby on the way we decide we miss our dogs we miss having a pet so what could we get that didnt require so much attention a cat of course...

We picked him up over that bank holiday weekend 7 wks old a little soon I thought for it to be leaving its mother but then if you'd have seen were it came from you'd agree its better off here, I had no idea how much character a cat cld have being a dog person.... but its crazy I was telling my naighboure it has a mad hr which today seems to have exculated but its so cute and has'nt done a thing in the house its just become anouther addition to the family, it took him a little longer to get used to Mackenzie but there getting on well....go figure there as crazy as each other lol.

It took forever to give him a name well longer when we descovered he was'nt a she, can you believe id to sit here looking at cats genitals to figure it out, but we had him checked he is definatley a he, and as he's all blk with a tiny bit of white under his coller area we called him TK...Dressed to kill...so to kill you see why he's TK lol, thankgod I didnt leave picking the baby name to Bobby....

Other than that weve been shopping obviously needed cat toys lol, been to the park, been out we antie dawn and mackenzies terrorised the st, so thats why i havent been online i havent been here much and when i am mackenzies handing me his shoes or his ball...so thats me told huh?....i didnt think id be 35 wks pregnant running around but i feel ok exhausted by his bedtime but seeing his little face having fun mks it all worth while plus if i dont do it now i might not be able to in a few weeks, oh im nagging again lol i see it as the womans duty hahaha

mackenzies now 20 mnths and with all the baby things bought, i thought we'd start planning his birthday i want to do anouther party for him bobbys not to keen, understandably so as last yr we set out with no budget and went mad he gt £300 just on toys this yr we aint so flush, but on the bright side i havent had to buy any toys for 12 mnths really just the occational treat, i think he sould get a party as the new babys going to get alot of attention and he'll enjoy it so much more this yr...would'nt he??? plus were thinking about having a double christening so i figure gettig everyone together lets me see them with mac and see who'd make better god parents...

anyway sorry but i gtta go the sun is shinning macs napping so im off to the door i cant do with being cooped up and i gt some shade out there time to cool off i think

bye for now xox

with it all over the news lately i cant help but think about how our carbon footprint is going to affect the future of our children and childrens children etc so i thought id google to see how naughty i am, talk about a shocker i recycle we have 1 car i walk when not with bobby youd think pretty good i try to buy as well as i can within our budget yet theres still so much i sld improve on

so heres the link have a go, if your a goody two shoes i want tips...lol

hugs jo xxx

noooo not the baby hs fine were he is...lol, well he seems happy enough me on the other hand....well thats anouther story, were thinking about getting a kitten, after being lost with out my doggies and we know there to much to take on again a cat seems the obvious alternative and less maintance no kitten will drag me through puddles and shake off all over the bathroom...ok it cld get stuck up a tree but it will be there till bobby gets it down lol

now i think we sld get a female i dont want a tom cat spraying cute as they may be i will not be happy!!!!, then i find theres all these breeds? are some better than others, oh im useless im a dog person i know what breeds to avaoid we kids etc which will train best how to care for them a cat am clueless????

so were looking tomorrow i just pray that the sellers are truthful i really dont want to take on a pet and have to rehome it as it wasnt for us i just want some advice, then it would help if i knew what i wanted to ask i dunno????

Went to antinatle on wednesday and hes still head down, which i think is good? but then were edging more towards an elective section but who knows as i still havent had much input from the so called proffesionals about how my history comes into the equation or have any idea what so ever how big this bubba is going to be. ARGHHHHHH

so just based on the fact that my womb being outta place and mac being a big bubba = emergency section, were thinking if we choose an elective we know were we stand they dont know if my womb shifted when i was in labour with mac and now my wombs tilted aswell, theres way too many dont knows from these docs for my liking, maybe its me wanting to be in control so i can get plans in place for help with mackenzie and hopefully not leave ourselves open to any suprises this next two weeks is going to drive me rd the twist.

even my midwife the one i like... yes i gt to see her for the second time in my whole pregnancy cant understand why they are leaving it so late as she herself is already booked in for a section and her preg is a mnth behind mine...guess its perks of the job?

still blooming and loving every min of the time me and mac are spending together now, just at night im tired i thought taking the kids to the park was ment to tire them out lol...haha but he's loving it and is so much more interactive, took him for a walk to the shops today yknow the one that sld tk 10 min it took half an hr we went rd the local super market about 3 times in all sadly for mackenzie he didnt find the sweetie ile

tomorrow ive gt him a day with ant dawn schedualed if he gets any more active im going to have to get him a book to keep his appointments lol but its all to keep him familiar with ppl being around alot so if i have a section they can help out hopefully with a few less temper tantrums, tomorrow weather permitting were all off to the park but hey british weather who knows what cld happen?

bye for now xox