I'm still here and now guess what.... I think the little buggers gone into transverse position, with a previous c section they won't attemp to turn him so it's anouther c section, I guess nothings changed really I doubted his head would go bk down in 3 days as it was and that midwife did a great job of scaring me to death about having my waters broken....see how good that crystal ball would have been if I cld have shown them the future weeks ago rather than having them if n butt n tell me what they think we cld have gt on with it arghhhh

Made a freeky dicovery with all this time on my hands Mac sld have been here on the 20/8/06 and Bailey will be here on the 20/6/08 now if Mac had desided to arrive on time that wld have looked weird...I also went on a baby astrology site to see what im letting myself in for....

The Gemini Baby

May 21 - June 21
Planet - Mercury
Element - Air

Provided by Astrology.com

Eager to get going (this baby probably kicked up a storm in the womb!), the Gemini baby is likely to be talking early and making a mark from day one. Curious and quite the explorer, this tot is one who needs lots of stimuli in order to be happy, as they are easily bored. Since those communication skills are top-notch, the smart thing to do with this baby is bring them into a play group as soon as possible. At home, siblings could easily fill this function, as someone must! It's never too early for the Gemini baby to interact with others, and they will also learn their lessons early on. The Gemini tot is definitely not clingy. Quite the contrary, this is one baby who is happy to march to their own drummer, gallivanting about and being amused in the process. Surprisingly, when this baby is not engaged (chatting or playing with others), there could be a certain emotional detachment. For that reason, it's best to keep things uncomplicated and easy for them to understand, the better to maintain harmony. To sum up, the Gemini baby is the Great Communicator of the play group, has a short attention span (so keep 'em busy!), and is one clever and creative tot.

Seriously are they taking the piss eagar to get going???? the kicking up a storms soo true tho... lol !!!

Were so bored now with all this waiting, Bobby tells me my eyes have changed I have blue eyes but around the pupil is brown i swear they were just blue!!!!! then i rem my hair changed couler when i was carrying mac my sisters does it too she always new when anouther ginger was on the way as she gt a strawberry tint with being blond i gt it too but nt this time maybe Bailey will be a blond bubba??? that means ill have to go bk blond lol he'll look odd with a ginger daddy and a brunette mummy...hehe it wld be nice to get a look in this time with Mac being all daddy in every way.

So off to the hossy for my pre op 2morra ok its nt that exciting but it wastes some time and gets me that bit closer to friday morning they said there gonna cheak to see if breaking my waters is safe if nt ill have section done pretty soon unless an emergency comes in but as im booked in at 830am ill be first in line and sld be in theatre by dinner im kinda hoping there is a delay as mac was born at 12.07pm they almost had the same dob(kinda lol) why nt the time too???

be handy huh its a weird feeling having such a big event taken completely outta my control all i want to know is how my baby will arrive when wld be nice too lol...

im so fed up with all these contractions im sore from all the prodding the sweeps did work to some extent but that wld be tmi believe me...i have contractions back ache menstal like pains for about 12 hrs a day the other 12 im sleeping or peeing, even my eyes are sore from watching the dam clock constantly thinking ok here we go there getting worst ill time em then right on cue as i get myself all prepared they stop...i wake up every morning thinkng shit still here time to face anouther day...

after the hell this pregnancys been im not so sure 4 is a good idea its putting pressure on us all, even my sister pleaded with me to stop having babies after bailey shes a born mother why else wld she have 6 but nt one of her experiences comes close to mine and she can see what its doing to me, you expect to be physically drained what you dont bank on is the bad care the worry you cause your family and freinds but most of all what upsets me most is how much distance there is with me and mac at the moment,

bobbys desided to have the week off as he lost monday im bk in fri and to be honest i need him here mac needs him and hes loving it but now im being snubbed from the cuddles too i guess he sees daddy as his play mate at the moment were as mummys the crabby one ...true i am

so i cant wait for bailey to be here andgetting my little man bk too...

maybe then ill calm down im so mad at the care ive gt the fact no one lisened to what i wanted and now they have caused this situation after bobby will only have a week at home with me nt long enough for me to be able to care for mac properly so ill have help frm dawn my sis n my dad mostly...

but hey thankgod his mother works that wld really tk the buiscuit if i had her to deal with too...lol

errrrr???? yep....

off we went this morning planned induction all ready to gte things moving after 2 days of contractions i was sure we'd get started and hopefull he'd be here today, first i had the haed midwife telling me im only +6 and i cld be left but they wont refuse me etc etc still we decided we wanted to go ahead today then they said they were busy and id have to wait as they didnt have the staff to tk care of me safely...ok, then they decide to monitor me and a hb machine appears which they didnt have then to mk things worst im told im actually 1/2cm dilated not 2/3 and his heads popped bk up so if they were to break my waters they cldnt be sure the head wld come first....

so im left with come bk tomorrow and they'll have a look to see if he's ready or leave it a few days and book a section for friday i decided to go for section but she said if i like i can get them to cheak fri and if alls well they can bust my waters and cancel the section still nt sure yet the staff werent to happy about inducing a vbac and to be honest me either i intended to have a section at 39 weeks but got pressured into trying vbac, so if he wants to he can come b4 like now plz...lol but after that i give up im so tired of it all waiting pains ev doc knows best..yet they have all been wrong im going through all this and what annoys me most is if id stuck to my guns he'd be here now and id be 2 wks into recovery.

id ;like to go into labour naturally it cld still happen if nt i aint being sent home fri for sure this time she said they will def do it im booked in at 830 again obviously i cld get knocked bk if theres an emergency that i dont mind its the bloody nhs changing there tune ev 5 min and this snooty midwife telling me that i didnt have a true labour we mackenzie then in the nxt breath telling me the pain wld have been worst as he was in distress and the mconium...at that point it was bloody obvious she was trying to lighten the work load for today anything to get me outta there...

so maybe youll here from me before friday???

yep me again still here can you believe it? he just doesnt wanna come went to the hossy yesturday had a sweep after a pause by the doc who thought he cld have turned breech he told me he was pretty sure he is still head down and im 2/3cm dlated, the doc also said he was confidant id go into labour last night but here i am a bit sore down there plenty of back ache but nothing to get me too excited...so unless he decides to mk an appearence ill be admited monday morning at 830 to have my waters broken a final attempt for vbac if that doesnt work ill be taken to theatre for a section but i think i have to wait it out for like 24 hrs not looking forward to that at all.

bobbys officially on paternity leave for 2 weeks so the sooner he arrives the better, familys on stand by for mackenzie so were all ready shame bailey doesnt feel the same way lol

Well it's 3pm and he's still very much in there, ive tried every trick in the book my legs are ready to drop off but he still won't come

Bags packed, prams arrived and assembled by meeee!!!! just wait for the blog "the wheels fell off" lol, still waiting for ther new cover for the car seat so good job i havent sold macs pram and car seat well i say good job it cld be here the time hes taking to make an appearence.

I'm at the hospital tomorrow to book the c section and see the anethatist, Bailey still wont be here untill next wk but atleast it puts a date in place he'll either come b4 of his own accord or he'll be here by wednesday at latest fingers crossed....? be just my luck to get persponed if an emergency tks my place....

Also managed to take on more I dont know how I do it ...but me being me decided to have one final attempt at temting fate and volunteered to have a house guest as a favour to my brother really, he had gasteric band surgery a few weeks ago and now he's feeling better they have gone away to Devon for a week leaving there cocker spaniel Jenny with me, he had planned to take her to Preston to my sisters but the drive there to drop her off then home then an early start to get down to Devon was a bit silly, who wants to exhaust them selves the night before going away to recooperate?

So she's here untill Saturday the cat's not to impressed, TK has more agreed to keep his distance but he was nasty when she arrived I threatened to get rid of it after seeing how nasty they can be, hes been so lovely b4 he plays with Mac who to be honest isnt the gentlest of children 4 legs and a tail is just too tempting....but the cat barely leaves his side.

So thats me updated now to have a winge in private bloggers i thinks.....

Hope to be on announcing he's arrived soon, good luck to all my preggie freinds, ill be bk asap but as i dont know how he will arrive i cant say when, if im in hossy for a few days with a section ill ask teshia to let you all know ive had bailey xox

 

maybe things are happening i just wish there was one sure sign so id know... i lost my plug this afternoon but thats can happen anywere from hrs to wks before labour then theres still the waters breaking? ive gt back ache but nothing to write home about, i notice its getting steadily worst and now seems to be all over back pain not just lower back pain...good sign?

what i wanna know is why they tell you if you think things might be getting started then to potter rd mk a cuppa when it always mks the pains go away...i need the pains,dont i? lol

 

Yep Bailey could have been here today the midwife tells me and id have my boy and be making a recovery with tea n toast but no i opted for vbac...arghhh, then things change again we discussed what had happened at the hospital etc and that id been told if he doesnt arrive by the 11th ill be at hossy on 12th and booked in 2 days later hum....no i wont ill still be here....can you believe this???

The 12th is a thursday...they dont do c section fri saturday or sunay unless emergencys the beginning of the week is likely to be booked so she said im looking at tuesday but not to get my hopes up and think wednesday ....arghhhh anouther week....i swear they are trying to induce this labour with a stress method.....

anyway it cld all be over b4 then of course but as you can tell im not banking on it, she did say the babys head is now 2/5 in and im not to worry he isnt fully engaged as many second babys dont engage untill the labour, all the pains hicks etc are a good sign so ive just to keep up what ive been doing and remain hopeful...? we had a lisen and he seemed very happy so no worries there although i complained he was a little too happy in there for my liking...lol

now what to mk 4 tea? its roasting here which means he'll be groutch when he gets home at least if his teas done he cant winge about that, but im sure he'll find something, honestly he turns into a baby when its hot and yes i mean bobby not mackenzie lol

just incase i cant get on bailey will be here by the 18th one way or anouther....?

Yes I'm still here and he's very much still in there  I feel so tired like my body is possesed nothing seems to get him any closer to making an arrival any time soon, and believe me it's not for the want of trying...lol

Officially 39 weeks tomorrow and I'm back at the antinatle clinic were I think I'll beg if nessasary on my hands and knees for a sweep, Mac's officially 21months old and has most definatly hit the terrible two's with a bang although he's not so bad he has good days and bad a bit like me really, his bad days seems to co-inside with mine probably because I just haven't got the energy to give him any more attention than I am...

The house is ready, I'm ready the whole familys ready but I'm getting to the point were I'm now preparing myself for anouther c section the last visit to the hospital I was told he was happy to induce me but im not willing to take any risks its oh naturel or section... a repeat performance of mackenzies birth ...no thankyou its risky dam painfull and i wanna be home asap to get on with being a mum so...im due on the 11th on the 12th I'll see my doc again and book a c section if I make it till then of course right now id say im gonna make it he said as long as no emergency's get in the way I'll have my section by the 14th or sooner if I'm lucky???

Whilst all this has been going on weve decided we wanna move even if for now it has to be in uk, so he's getting the house ready for a stone paint new troffins get spare rm (what was gonna be mac rm) plastered mk it look pretty n sell!!!! yeah!!! so hopefully baileys first birthday well be in a new house we a garden for his party no more nosy naighboures and i can start childminding...thats gonna be weird i havent worked in 3 years now not since i gt preg we mac i just wish this fianl week wld hurry up...

but y never know got soom contractions last night that had bobby thinking it was it how do you tell a man you just know that your not in labour they were stong but not regular and i dunno you just know...if only he cld take over ive done the most part havent i???...hehe