This post is from from my other blog here

i’m sorry
i was a stubborn clam today.
i saw the hurt
in your eyes;
i heard the frustration
in your voice,
and yet
i didn’t relent.
i shut you out,
hid my heart,
pushed you away.
please understand--
it’s just easier for me this way.
i know i’m being lazy,
but most of all

i’m afraid—
that i’m too vulnerable,
too easily hurt,
that if i let you into
the secret chambers
of my heart,
the places i treasure most,
you may
unintentionally
pierce the tender flesh
and all that would be left
would be a bloody mess
of my too human heart,
my stubborn clammy human heart.