This morning started off really well with my son. I gave him a bath and we had fun playing and splashing in the water with all his toys. He was so very loving towards me that it made my heart melt in my chest. Its days like these that i really appreciate him. He has been my only bright light through a terrible time after the break-up.
Alot of people always said to me 'be careful, he is going to be a handfull'. Well today i just say he is my little handful and i love him more than what words can describe. People also used to say that i wont be a fit mother and that being a single mother would not be the best thing for my son. For months i believed what they told until one day his dad beat me up when he was only three months old. He wal laying in the cot and sleeping. I felt so bad that it had to have happened in front of my son that i sat down that evening thinking about everything. I told myself it would be the best thing for my son to rather have a single mother raise him as i didn't want him to live in an unhappy, abusing home. I broke off everything with his dad and his dad refused to see him afterwards. I just found that he was a much happier baby after the breakup because i had the chance to be happy again and to laugh again.
I sit here today not regretting a single thing and not regretting being a single mother to a very active, healthy, two year old boy. In a way i thank his dad for giving me such a beautiful son and in a way i thank him for if it wasnt for him i would not have opened my eyes to what kind of person he was becoming and i thank him for letting me go to give my son the best life i could possibly offer.
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