hi everyone,

first i want to thank everyone who helped me you all had great advice and it really help my get through the day..

last night it was weird my mum and step dad were all playing happy family i tryed to avoid him as much as possible but we had to run into each other some time..

i was coming from the bath room and it was all dark and i couldnt see anything i really didnt want to see him i even made sure i didnt go to the bath room all day untill my bf came over... it was the first time in my life i was really scared that i would see him... as im turning the corner there he is i jumped back out of my skin i froze up and he just kept walking i never thought i would feel that fear i always thought of my self as a stronge person..

i woke up this morrning from lak of sleep to hear my mum yelling at my step dad and him yellling back i just tryed to go back to sleep but all the thoughts that night kept popping back in my head i tryed to go to sleep but i couldnt shake off the feeling that something was going on i heard her yelling at him how he hit her and he kept on say it was a little hit it was nothing i heard her crying and that killed me i finally fell asleep...

i woke up at 12 and went down stairs to let my dog out side and im not sure whats going on....
i dont know if she is kicking him out or if she is forgiving him i cant ask her cause the self centered basterd i call step dad dosnt work or leave the house...

thats the up dad of yesterday night and this morrining..

ill keep you guys updated..

love ashley

hey...

not feeling the best today... getting angry alot than sad again... i have my pug to make me laugh and a bird flew into my glass window today that put a smile on my dial...

later