So... yeah I have to start somewhere. I can't just kep saying 'tomorrow I will.... ' Because 'tomorrow never comes'. I will never get to experience being a mum if I don't stop the ED. I really want to try so hard to do it. I've been reading lots of information about conception and fertility so that I can be as informed as possible. I want to do it all right. I want my baby to have the best start to life possible, and without even the remote possibility of an ED like me. and of corse the best way is to lead by example.

Even if I was pregnant and I ate like this, I would not be putting the right foods into my body. So, here is my proposition for myself.

* I will eat a variety of fresh fruits and vegetables on a daily basis.

* I will eat 2-3 serves of low fat dairy

* I will eat wholegrain breads and cereals.

* I will eat lean meats, chicken and fish regularly.

* I will drink 6-8 glasses of water per day (with some low calorie cordial if I must).

* I will avoid processed foods, and high sugar, high fat foods, including soft drinks and juices.

* I will begin exercising regularly, beginning slow, and building up.

STRAEGIES FOR HELPING ME MAINTAIN THIS PLAN

* Keeping a food diary to track what foods I am eating to ensure I get a good balance.

* Listen regularly to upbeat and positive music. (Music is my life).

* Engage myself in meaningful activities such as schoolwork, housework, scrapping or reading.

* If I feel a slip up coming on, write in my blog, call a support friend (Chris, Liz, Shannon, Leonie, Theresa, Annie, Steph)

* Put more effort into my physical appearance.

* Set small goals and a reward system

* Increase my emotional and intellectual well being by reading on a variety of topics and actively participating in social situations.

This is something that I know that I can do, and I guess I always saw myself doing it, but just kept waiting for it to happen. But I know that it does not happen just like that. It takes planning and effort and motivation and committment. I have to stay positive and focused on the end goal... healthiness, fitness and above all else, a healthy baby girl or baby boy.

And my clock is ticking. I keep being amazed a how quickly time is flying by, this year alone has flown by so quick! In 4 weeks it's holidays again.

My aim is to reach my goal weight and be ready to being conceiving about July-Sept 2009. That would result in a baby born approx May-July 2010. I would be almost 28. Chris would be almost 30. Yikes! But if I don't do it now, before I know it I will be that age and no different... or worse, bigger, or even suffering extreme health issues.

So, as of RIGHT NOW... no more excuses. My life is about to change.