Okay...my husband left yesterday for work-he is an airline Captain.  He will not be home until Tuesday night.  I hate when he leaves.  Not only is it hard being the only one taking care of the children...but Ben has made soem bad choices on a more than a few occasions since we have been married.  Not giving him excuses, but more times then not alcohol was involved.  He has never slept with anyone else, but it is inappropriate conversation and not saying he is married and things of that nature.  I am trying to trust him while he is gone.  Even though he is at work he still meets people everywhere.  For example, he is done with work today at noon...but he will eat lunch and dinner at a bar down from the hotel--he is staying in a tiny town in IL.  I am trying not to call him and check his where abouts every hour and it is hard.  If I could stay out of the bathroom for more than 20 minutes, that would be nice.  I just get so nervous.  I try to keep my mind off things with the kids...but right now it is not working.  I am getting ready for baths this morning...and my 18 month old screams when he gets out...he wants to stay in all day, even when he is turning purple--so I am dreading that.   My sister stayed at a friends house-which I am glad...the kids are not quiet in the morning and, of course, they have not heard of sleeping in.  She has been talkign to her ex-fiance some this week.  He has a 5 year old little girl.  She came over to play with my oldest yesterday.  They had a good time...Okay, so I think I am going to go wake up the baby (3 1/2 months and he rolled over yesterday-twice) and feed him.  Then give him a bath and bath the other 2 as well....Have a good one!