It has been awhile since I posted a blog...but so much has happened...it got so bad that my husband had an appointment with an attorney to file for divorce.  That was Friday--but he canceled at the last minute and has finally made the decision he wants to be a good dad and a respectable husband.  This morning was the first time he told me he loved me in 3 months.  This is the first time in the last 3 months that I feel like my marriage is going in the right direction.  I hope he means it this time.  I would do anything for my husband, and have put up with way too much from him.  But i love him so much, he is my husband...and who would I be if I did not give him one last changce to prove himself to me and our children?  I am getting ready to go to bed, he is on a 4 day trip for work, but oddly enough, I trust him more today than I ever have.