Over the last week i have started having bad dreams, some are laughable as they are so unrealistic ( like the one where i waled to the shop and snakes were attacking me every 2 seconds and i had to fend them off!!!)

But one has become re occuring and is now quite distressing. It first started when my 2 children would fall into a pool or a lake and then a few minutes later i would realise and then have trouble saving them but eventually will. Then they would fall in again.

Now it is just about my son and evrytime he falls in I save him and have a lot of trouble doing so. I think this is distressing me because i can not swim and this could really happen.

its made me really think about going to adult swimming lessons but i haven't seen them around my area and am embarassed as i'll probably get a spunky male teacher and be soo nervous!!

I am a big dreamer and almost always remember them, but what is this message hat my brain is trying to tell me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The kids and i went out with a few friends to  have a great day at the Councils Annual Picnic. They had so many activities for the kids and it was such a nice day. We made puppets, magic wands, calenders, Witches hat and participated in may other activities. The best part it was all FREE. We packed a picnic lunch so i didn't spend one cent.

Hubby went out the night before and was annoyed we didn't wait for him but who knows what tme he would have arrived home and i didn't want the kids to miss out!!

I took my  just 2 year old son to the play centre today by myself with his 4 year old sister, we were having a great time till a 3 - 4 year old boy started to pick on my son. My son is very baby like still and was playing happily by himself when he was pushed over for no reason and then i told the boy polietly no, he ran off. I kept an eye on my son who was playing by himself when the boy threw a ball right in my eye, i said thats's not nice and walked away beacuse he is a little boy. He then in the course of 1 hour pushed my son over twice before his mum came over from chatting with her friends. She did tell him off and seperate him from his friends so i didn't say anything. I don't like to tell other peoples children off but there has to be a limit beacuse no one deserves to be bullied especially a helpless toddler. I then took him over to anther area far away from this boy and then 10 minutes later he came in and started throwing balls at my son, i asked him not to again. they played in the area for about 20 minutes and in that time he kicked my son, stamped on his hand , hit him on the head and then was telling a little boy to join in in kicking him. each time i would tell him not to touch my son and i gave him one last warning or i was going to find his mum. he then stopped only beacuse i was watching him like a hawk.

I was so angry but more at myself for not being stronger and going and saying something to his mum sooner. I am not confrontational and want to teach my children that there is a right and wrong way of dealing with things but when some parents don't even watch there bully children and leave them to pick on other kids and ruin there play time i feel like tearning there hair out.

It made me upset all day and i wish i had of said something soner to her as now i feel like i didn't even protect my child enough. He was not really physically hurt but was upset because this boy was still hurting him and knocking him over.

I wish there were no bullys and my child has never seen anyone be pushed over or kicked and i don't want him to get any ideas now.

I am feeling a little better now i got it off my chest but wish i had done more!

Well we have jut had a busy week celebrating my son Jay's 2nd birthday. He was so spolit and got some great toys and clothes that he desperately needed. I feel sorry for his sister because she wanted to play with his things but he is not a great sharer and i had to explain that it was his birthday and that when it was her birthday she will get lots of things to play with and he won't. I want them to understand that when it is each others birthdays they may not get a present but it doesn't mean they can't enjoy the fun. so i kept her busy with the making cakes and helping her brother.

I don't belive that the child without the birthday should get a pressie just because it is a siblings birthday. They need to learn that it is the siblings special day and to help celebrate that day because there special day will come too. I have a family member that gets annoyed if you dont buy her other daughter a pressie on the other daughters birthday but to me if you take the time to explain it to the other sibling even though they might get jelous initially ( and jealousy is a natural emotion that thy have to learn to deal with) they will eventually understand the meaning of birthdays and learn to share and play better in the long run.

Well better get to dinner as it is nearly ready!!!