I did absolutely nothing today, what a dreadful waste of a day. i woke up at around 8am and i had a to do list in my head. but all i managed to do was bugger-all. i just slept and listened to music. i feel really bad for not doing anything today. i may be pregnant but that should not excuse me from doing anything. i also have two assigments for university that are due for next week tuesday and i am only half way done with both of them, i have hit a brick wall and they are really important with regard to the semester marks. its really depressing me and when i get like this i eat a lot so here is my food diary for today and please folks do not judge me for what i am about write i know its not good for me and the baby and i feel awful, ok here goes, in the morning i had porridge with peanut butter and lots of sugar, then at about 11am i had i hot dog, then at 1pm i had a lemon and poppy seed muffin with some tea, at 3pm i had a salami sandwich with some cream soda, then at 7pm i had mc donalds with coke and fries.  i am so ashamed of myself. i really want to stay healthy for the baby and myself. i look at other pregnant women and they look so good and healthy and stylish. during the early stages of my pregnancy my hair was breaking so badly i haad to cut it really short because it becom so uneven and i was embarrassed to walk around without a hat, its growing back but you know with african hair it takes for ever to grow unless i use chemicals but chemicals are not good during pregnancy so i will just have to wait until the baby is born, the other problem is my lips are getting so dry its unbelieveable, i am using lip ice i am exfoliating my lips but they are still dry and sometimes i wake up at night they are bleeding and i just break down and cry  at like 2 in the morning because they will be hurting and bleeding, then the bad taste in my mouth omw i cant stand it, i brush my teeth and use mouth wash but it still feels like there is something rotting in there and its driving me crazy, then the sore back gee whizz i never knew my back could be this painfull. i just do not know what to do with myself, my bf gives me massages, and he runs baths for me and he keeps me calm which helps a bit but the pain remains there the back ache also wakes me up at night and i just cry. and the crying i cant handle anymore i just cry at the drop of a pin. but when my baby kicks i just know its all worth the pain, bleeding lips, swollen feet, sore back, nausea, bleeding gums, falling hair, and all the other undesirabes that come along with pregnancy. but the joys of preganacy are just as many and i enjoy them too. especially the kicking and all the attention i will be getting i mean my bf ties my shoe laces for me, he carries my bag, he even sometimes combs my short hair and he just comforts me and holds me a lot. 
i realise i have totally gone off topic, this was meant to be about my wasted day, all well i have managed to complete an assignment so i have one more to go which i hope i can complete tomorrow when i get home from church.
Ok everybody God bless you and have a good evening and a good nights sleep. | 
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