i havn't been around for a while, we have been trying to have another baby for the last two years and the last couple of months it has finally become to much.

i have become so sick of tablets, needles blood tests! i started calling the pathology ladies vampires the would just keep taking my blood and i never got it back.

so two weeks ago i said to my darling partner enough is enough, i'm just not meant to have another baby so we called everything quits. it felt good we were in charge again no more i must have a needle at this time quick take my temputure no wait time for a blood test, it was now lets kick back and cuddle and veg ummm chocolate

now the chocolate seemed like a good idea easter sunday came and aiden and i sat down in front of a pile off eggs and then it hit me i don't feel like chocolate what is wrong with me? it's easter and it's chocolate my favorite time off the year. i put it down to the fact that it is only 7am maybe my body i still asleep

but by 12pm and i still can't bring my self to eat chocolate and but this stage, tomotoes, coffee, eggs, it hit me i wonder,

i slip off to the bathroom with test kit in hand and no more then 30ses later you hear YIPPEEE coming from the toilet and then a barge of tears cause my mummy isn't hear she is on holidays

so our new baby is due on the 1st december:) exactly one week after aiden