Well today I got to see Arianna. I cried when I held her. I couldn't  believe how emotional I got.  Sam was allowed to visit from 9:30 - 5:30  with her daughter. She did not show up untill 3:30pm. I am still so mad at her,how could she do this to her baby.  Even her mom couldn't  talk any sense into her. It makes me feel.... I don't know anymore! I am hurt , angry,  and everything all at once.  It really is getting me down.  From what I gather she thinks it would be best if she didn't see her daughter  anymore. She doesn't want to be'' a puppet on a string''(her own quote) And have to do everything they tell her to do. She hasn't done any of the requirements they have asked of her.

I have tried helping her, being there for her, showing her how to be a better mom. But it still doesn't help. She doesn't have time to have a social life with her daughter. I almost feel guilty of the way I spoke of her, but I guess I had to face the cold hard facts of it all.  I even went to see a counsellor about it all. I guess I didn't want to admit that I knew of such person that would do this to their own child.  I was hopeing that she would prove us wrong, and be a parent for her daughter. But... I was wrong, but at the same time right. That really sucks. I was using this blog to vent, which really helps. But some people take this out of  the contents  of what I meant it to say.  I realize what they meant, but they don't realize I justed needed to get it all out in the open too. I love Sam like a friend, a sister, but I can't imagine talking highly of someone who could walk out on her flesh and blood.  I am getting so rambled I can't even think and type as fast as I talk and type. I make no sense. I am a blubbering idiot soo I am going to go to bed and rest my teary eyed eyes

 I get to see baby again and have another long visit with her. My daugher can't wait till she comes back. so that is all good.

Bye for now Take care and love your kids to pieces.