Haven't logged on for ages...but have been busy!

Due my third little baby in 6 days!! Excitement overload!! Cannot wait to see a tiny baby again, but so anxious about leaving my boys!!

They are big now, and very independant for just 3 and almost 5 but they are my pals and I am gonna miss them soooo much when I am in the hospital. Booked for a c-section, so going in on sunday and please God, baby will be here monday morning!!

They are delirious with excitement and requesting a girl brother this time so we are counting down the sleeps and enjoying our last week together before baby comes and we forget what it was ever like to just have 2...!!!??

Oh life is good!!!

I have 2 of my girlfriends staying with me at the moment. One is living in America, settled there now and just home for 2 weeks, the other has been backpacking around Asia and Australia for the last 2 years, and is home for a month. They were both my bridesmaids and we have been friends since we were in school.  I have missed them so much over the last year especially. What a reunion!! It is fantastic to have them home!!

I have been giggling since they arrived and am enjoying the break sooooo much!! They are of course delighted to be doing things for the boys because they have missed them so much and they are almost arguing over who gets to change the next nappy...he he he! This is great for me coz I am able to take it easy, have a gossip, and a few glasses of wine in the evening-guilt free coz I know the boys are being totally spoiled! It's lovely to just be a girl again!!

Going to enjoy the next few weeks, because it will be a great novelty to have them here and be organising girlie outings, and I love sharing my children with my friends. I have realised what a proud momma I am!!! I am enjoying watching the girls find out all the new things the boys can do and can't hear enough how cute they are!!!

I am booked in for a facial and a haircut tomorrow, the aunties have insisted so I am having a day off!!!!!! YIPPPEEEEE!!!!!!

Woo hoo...10 days!!!

Well...I had my weekend completely organised. Planned every detail. Was having a big family weekend, birthday party for my little tyke and some fun times planned for all...but that was not meant to be.

I got a phonecall on Thursday in the middle of the school run, that my 47 year old aunt had taken a bad turn and the dotor had given her a few hours to live. The priest was called and my uncle was trying to round up as many of the family as he could. She had been battling breast cancer for the past 5 years, and although she had had her breast removed and contless rounds of treatments she still put a smily face on her illness and none of us had realised how bad she was...maybe she didn't realise herself!

The whole weekend was spent with family. We had a good old wake for her and a beautiful service for her on Sunday and if you were a robot you would have cried when you heard some of the messages she had asked her friends to pass on to her children and husband. It was such an intensely sad experience to hear words of comfort coming from a mother to her children and made me realise that as a mother we are always thinking of our children-even from beyond...It was probably the last thing to leave her.

I was so saddened that while I was busy organising and scheming here to have all the family around, she too had been planning, but for her own funeral! Do we ever really know what is happening in other peoples homes? Even in those that we love the most?? And while we plan and scheme is there a bigger plan already in place for us?

I have decided to go against my nature and try to take each day as it comes and remember what a gift it is.

Rather than planning to do things tommorrow to take more action today!

I think we all need to do the same, we never know what's around the corner...XXX