The first day of Spring Break and the girls are fighting over a plastic bowl...Yikes, is that the way it will be the rest of the week? I made no plans for the next few days as my sister was going to visit but she changed her mind about coming. She is in an unhealthy relationship which is what I think is the real reason for her not visiting. So today and tomorrow I will be scrounging around for playdates and to top it off it's raining, yuck, so parks are out of the question.  This morning I started out the week by vacuuming, nice.  wish us luck with the rest of the week...

Lunch was great with my new friend. We were both so anxious for it that we each got there 10 minutes early and noticed that we parked next to one another, ha ha. The food was great and the conversation was better. We talked about our marriages, the past before kids, and the kids of course.  Here's to new friends and I can't go overboard or I will lose her too.

Last week I asked the mother of one of my daughter's classmates if she would like to have lunch this week. She said yes and how excited to have lunch.  I put myself out there and it's tomorrow. I am so excited.  I called her yesterday and she says she's been looking forward to it all week.  I hope we have more to say than just about the kids.  I don't know her that well.  Wish me luck tomorrow.  

and way too much!  I hate this cough. It is very tiring. My ribs hurt. I have made an appt for the doctor's tomorrow if it is not better. The girls are somewhat better and I hope to take them to school tomorrow. No, my life is not in despair just what Izzy said, it is very hard. It is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It is difficult wearing so many hats, entertainer, medic, cook, clown, dog walker, taxi, artist, etc.  I was just feeling a little down and I think this cough may have something to do with it. 

We got out today for the first time in 3 days. It was good. We went to the mall, my oldest who is usually the homebody was SOOO excited. We played then she said her stomach is growlling so it is time for lunch. We had lunch, then played with the mechanical cars, then had a cookie--why haven't I lost that weight?? During that cookie break, my oldest brought up the wedding thing again, why she wasn't invited to mine and my husband's wedding, where was she? Was she asleep? All I could say was we got married before she came along. Then she asked when she would be married, is she old enough already? She's only 4, no, she is not old enough maybe when she's 24. AAAgghhh--no more questions...and it's only just begun...

I was going to go to lunch with a friend on Friday but cancelled. After 4 yrs of trying and one failed IVF she is finally pregnant and is 6 months along with her first baby. I was anxious to see her but was also apprehensive. She has a wonderful career and very successful. I don't . I gave up my career to watch my children grow up. She probably has time right now to do her hair, look very trendy, and all that.  I don't. Well, that week, my oldest and I'd been having a bad cough. It didn't occur to me that I should not expose my friend to that until the morning of our lunch date. I called and cancelled because I don't want to get her sick especially after all her troubles. Now, all of us 3 girls are sick, me and my daughters.  We have this crackly cough that won't go away and their noses are running. In hindsight, I was so glad I cancelled. I would have never forgiven myself if she got sick. A little part of me says I am a chicken. I haven't lost the weight I gained from my second baby and she is 2. I don't dress as trendy and my hair, well, my hairdo consists of a ponytail. I have always been too hard on myself, which is probably the case here but I just felt she wouldn't understand, you know, not having ever been there yet.   Anyway, I ramble...try to have a good day.

I wonder if anyone reads the blogs that don't have an interesting title? So I thought I'd make my title tasty and maybe I'll get some comments.  My life seems pretty boring too ( I was reading Astrobeka's blog). It really takes a lot of energy to do anything lately. I'm glad my children play well together. And I have been eyeing a cake mix in the pantry so I mustered some energy and the girls helped without any mess--wow.  So, I'll have cupcakes in about a half hour.  Now if only I had someone to chat with over cupcake and coffee...I know I have fallen off the diet wagon but oh well, I'm bored people.  I need some cupcakes.  I hope this is not the beginning of a long relationship with the tasty little morsels of sweet goodness...

I wrote the last entry. I am pretty bad about writing here. I have started to go to the gym at least 2 times a week. I feel better about that but it's hard to get motivated to get out of the cozy blankets in the morning to get there. I am also trying to dress better without spending money on clothes. I wish there was a wardrobe consultant that could come to my closet and tell me what to keep and how to wear it for my body shape, AND not charge me to do that. I know I am asking for the moon but I can dream. Yesterday I saw some makeovers on Oprah that included a new hair cut and a new outfit but really those dresses are not practical to run after toddlers. I want to look good but be able to slide down the slide or climb up it to rescue them.

I've also started to read. The last book I read is "The Wedding" by NIcholas Sparks. It was very romantic without all the frills. I want to read "My sister's keeper" next but have to borrow the book from a friend--you know budget and all. Oh, the budget, eek...it has been blown. We are now paying for 2 children to go to a private school twice a week and it has really hit our wallets. And friends, well have none of those either. It is very isolating being a stay at home mom. My husband is my best friend and that's hard because he has to work...I'd like one or two friends whom I can have lunch with, go to the bookstore with, and have fun while our children play.

Last week I was taking my daughters on a playdate. I wore some leggings that I sometimes wear when I mow the lawn. I wondered if my 3 yr old would notice and SHE DID!  She asked if we were going out or mowing the lawn???  Hence, Mommy needs to dress better!  I need to lose weight, and wear those trendy clothes I know I am capable of wearing. I told hubby and he agreed.  Step 1, I bought a nice tailored denim jacket and I am going to try NOT to wear any warm ups or clothes that are lawn-mowing-worthy. 

the girls went to school today with a lingering cough but I've kept them away for a week and a half now.  Considering we still pay when they don't go, I was determined they were going today. I hope it doesn't come to bite me in the b**t. Now I have to decide what to do for lunch. I don't know where to go. Should I have brunch (croissant and latte) or wait for a delicious sandwich or salad somewhere?? What are you craving?  

2 people said they liked my advice about  a post and that made me feel good. Sometimes I guess I am on the right track but a lot of times I know I am not.  I guess we all have insecurities about parenting...I guess that's why we have this website.  I just feel that it is so important cause we are shaping these little people to be productive citizens, what a BIG responsibility that is. I've got to go and get something to eat, my stomach is grumbling...

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a comment from you!!!

Have a great day!

we've been sick for a week and a half now and it is horrible.  I am so glad that my girls are very healthy and this doesn't happen very often.  Everything comes to a halt, no friends, no outings, no soccer, nothing and it drives us all nuts!  Here's to a healthy fall for you!