well i woke up this morning and for the first time in a long time i suddenly thought wtf have i been crying about? my life ROCKS!
im healthy, i have great kids that im doing a bloody good job of raising even though i have some hard times, all my clothes fit or are too big now haha and i tried on a dress i bought years ago that i LOVE and it was too big haha
i get sad sometimes coz im a bit isolated, alot of my friends are interstate and then my mates here work full time so i only see them weekends and alot of my other mates are still in party mode so we dont see each other alot now due to me being with tobias. but u know what? i have awsome mates! im so lucky!
my children make me smile and learn new things everyday that im lucky enough to be able to be a part of who cares who they DONT see?
so what if im single! ive had alot of offers i just dont think im suited to the men that are interested right now i counted up and its over 15 in five months that have pursued me lol so that was a boost to my self esteem! when i find someone that i think is right i will know i didnt lower my standards and that they are the right guy for myself and the kids, i wont end up stuck unhappy again.
my boobs shrank thank god! ive been an f cup for awhile now and actual REAL tops fit me properly now and im sure i could mange to buy a bra that isnt part parachute and isnt covered in a mountain of lace (hate lace!)
i have an excellent family that piss me off weekly but that love me beyond imagination lol
im not in debt , not sick, my kids are happy and i look awsum haha
yeah things have been hard but i am going to brush myself off count it all as a learning experience and get on with my life that will be better than i ever wouldve dreamed if i was still with a person who only thinks of himself.
il b angry awhile longer but i know my life is good and il just listen to alanis if i get pissed off hah!
second DNA test next week i think i know the results lol i have a feeling they will be the same as last time dont you? when thats done and dusted i will smile walking away knowing my life is going forward to new places with my adorable kids ....
thanks to my online mates for being there
xxxnat